unfinished rambles

sol or star no 3rd person pronouns (ex: they or xe) schizospec, plural, disabled, artists banner description: drawn banner of two large stars, on several swirly patterns. the art has chalky line art, a light static filter, a black background, and is slightly posterized. it's colored in purples, greys, and yellows. profile picture: art of an llama-like being, neutrally facing the right. it has fluffed, off-white fur, long ears, horns, and an orange garfield shirt. pink, yellow, and blue stars surround it, and dashes resembling whiskers. the art has a red tint, vibrant yellow background, and dark red, chalky line art. /end ID

[piercingcomet]

intro!!

[PT: intro!! /end PT]

hi! we're sol. we're plural, queer, black, and schizospec, and this blog is literally just a ramble space

our current system is. something. with four fluctuating states tied to being schizospec, polyfragmented, and cyclogenic (link)

(feel free to ask, but we may not answer)

we're loveless, anattractional, and nonhuman (conceptkin and holothere). we like the stanley parable, in stars and time, night in the woods, vibrant cartoons (made by actual people), a horrifically personal list of movies, and music. (we will offer song recs!)

we make art!! and have cool schizospec and transgender ocs!! art of them is posted or reblogged from our art blog (link). they are usually tagged #alosp (link), #our art, #our oc/s, and #oc rambles (full of headcanons and random scenarios)

feel free to ask about them!! you could ask about their favorite beetles and you MIGHT get 3 paragraphs of lore

also feel free to ask us anything! we welcome bug facts, rambles, and cool stuff you found on the ground. we might take a while, but we'll still try to respond.

please TAG #rb/reblog bait (any post pressuring you to reblog), and let us know if you need anything tagged.

we tag #unreality, #eyestrain, #bright colors, and #undescribed. we also make image descriptions when we have energy.

linked stuff!!

[PT: linked stuff!! /end PT]

our sideblogs and linked posts

our tagging system

our website << eventually

BLINKIES (flash warning)

[image ID: (left to right)

1. animated blinkie on a black background titled "SELF-MADE BEING." the words are colored to be the trans flag, and the dotted border is flashing purple and white.

2. animated blinkie on a white background flipping between"I SUPPORT EMOTICONS," and a line of several emoticons. the text is black, with a blue, dotted border.

3. black userbox titled "This user is pluralpunk." the text is white, and to the left the plural punk flag (purple, blue, cream, red, and a centered ampersand/& symbol) is shown.

4. animated blinkie on a blue/purple gradient, titled "This user is Neurodivergent !" its decorated in small stars, and to the far right a bigger, smiling, rainbow star is dancing.

5. aplatonic themed blinkie titled "apple spec..." the flag colors are purple, blue, green, and cream, with an animated and dashed, blue and white border

6. similar blinkie, but loveless themed, titled "loveless pride." the colors are dark blue, grey, yellow-orange, peach red, purple, blue, green, grey, and dark blue.

7. blue-green userbox titled "This User uses 'we' and 'I' interchangeably." the text is off-white, and to the left, the plural flag is shown (dark purple, purple, blue, green, and cream).

8: animated black blinkie with red text and a red, pulsating border. it reads "anti psych pro autonomy / pro harm reduction"

9: animated black blinkie with white text and a cycling, dashed boarder. rapid text reads "WOAH WHAT THE MAMA MIA HOW THE WOAH WHAT'S THE"

/end ID]

[theslowesthnery]

🥹🥹🥹

[whirling-ghost]

[ID: image one is a tweet reading "he looks exactly like the tomato creature meme noooooo" and a photo of a sad looking, scraggly kitten beside the meme, a very sad creature covered in tomatoes.

image two is a tweet reading "he is okay!! please don't worry, he is happy now!! you can be too!" and a photo of the same kitten lying on their side, looking milk drunk. they look happy.

image three is a tweet reading "waow" and a drawing of the kitten looking happy and fat with "he is happy now!! you can be too!" written underneath. end ID]

[iveoy]

wheat thief

[inthetags]

Reblog and put in the tags if you can remember where you got the shirt you're currently wearing.

[meerschweinchen-archive]

your twenties are Also about discovering that you’re not a bad person in all the ways you believed you were but you’re a bad person in completely new and exciting ways

[luxiomahariel]

fat trans women and fat transfems are so important

thank you fat trans women / transfems ⭐

[luxiomahariel]

fat trans women and fat transfems are so important

thank you fat trans women / transfems ⭐

[gemkkoti]

bunnies!

[toastisnervous]

@magical-soup

[never-kill-on-the-first-dat-blog]

Hey, what’s Winnie the pooh’s favorite color?

[taco-bout-a-shit-blog]

Yellow

[never-kill-on-the-first-dat-blog]

No it’s red because of his shirt

[taco-bout-a-shit-blog]

No, it’s yellow because he loves honey

[never-kill-on-the-first-dat-blog]

You have no idea what you’re talking about

[taco-bout-a-shit-blog]

DID I FUCKING STUTTER?

[voaga]

Things heating up at the Winnie the Pooh fandom

[sun-of-a-watcher]

@hellsite-hall-of-fame

[verycrowindeed]

ID: Picture of a Winnie the Pooh cardboard book. The book is open. The left page reads

“Then Pooh says "Yellow — like honey. That’s my favourite color.”

The right page is an illustration of Pooh sitting over the grass with a pot of honey in one hand and his other hand covered in it about to eat it. END ID

[tophats2o]

If you're loveless, you have to live, you just have to.

"But why though- Shhh, you have to live, no debates.

[thegildednight]

HERMITAUR!!!!

This can be platonic or romantic. You know how weird they are, They can and WILL do this platonically somehow

[rattito-rat]

WAIT A FUCKING SECOND.

YOURE MY YURI GUY

WHAT THE FUCK

I NEVER KNEW YOU ALSO LIKED SANDS

I REMEMBER THIS DRAWING REALY WELL

WHAT THE FUCK

WHAT

[piercingcomet]

in light of our voice withering away we're signing a lot more (and researching BASL :DD) and it's very fun :000

im either signing out our internal thoughts (cause i like them leaving our head and words are ouch ouch owie) or script/signing a bunch of hypothetical conversations

which. logically. is also a compulsion BUT ITS GOOD PRACTICE!!

and they're getting more fluid and less horrifically jerky and im figuring out like "what's the best way for me personally to sign this" and then im motivated to keep learning stuff

[tophats2o]

Love repulsed characters in fiction would be so cool... Love neutral canon blorbo.... Love favourable canon silly.....

[glamrockmike]

realizing that the online sphere and especially tumblr is NOT a good sample for ‘what everyone thinks’ is so, so, so good for your mental health and moral OCD. i swear to god. realizing that you don’t have to live your actual life like you’re being hunted for sport because the average tumblr user will hunt you for sport for wording something slightly weird or engaging in the wrong stuff or whatever is so incredible. like no you’re actually not fucked up and evil for not donating or for watching that one indie cartoon or questioning a post that everybody is agreeing with. that’s just tumblrs georg making you feel that way

[singtiple]

Important reminders

"What may make something traumatic to me, may not to you. As a clinician, I gauge trauma by whether the client’s body is having a trauma response, not whether the precipitating incident was 'objectively' traumatic. If a trauma response is present, then trauma is present. Again, we must understand that trauma is subjective so that we can answer that second question: 'How do I know if mine counts?' Simply put, if it felt traumatic to you, it counts."

Source: What Is Trauma and Does My Experience Count?

[creekfiend]

its so awkward when people ask me why i dropped out and i have to be like "inadequate disability support" bc no one wants to hear this. they're always like i thought they had to provide that though isn't it the law? girl you might want to sit down i have some bad news about the litigation-based enforcement of the americans with disabilities act

then if i do say that theyre like, couldnt you sue? well theoretically maybe but not without spending more money than i have and putting myself through absolute hell. so no. no i can't.

[violentviolette]

the minute u start trying to explain what the actual practical day to day of these systems look like to ppl and the crazy inefficiencies and roadblocks and stuff are it really becomes clear how most of them are useless to impossible like the amount of professors that will forbid u from recording their lectures, even just audio, because those are their "intellectual property" with zero exemptions even if u have signed and Official letters from the SWD office on campus. let alone the ones who wont allow laptops or tablets or other note taking or dictation software. despite the fact that one of the things that makes the biggest difference for so many students is the ability to go back and revisit lecture points. being able to relisten to the lecture without having to recall it from memory in the moment is so crucial and i know u obviously know this but like its WILD the way universities treat that like ur committing some kind of cardinal sin our university used to try and get around this by saying that for those classes they would hire students to take dictation notes in the class, which in an actual functioning system would look like "disabled student puts in a request for notes from class x. office sends a hired note taker to that class who takes clear, accurate, word for word dictated notes that the student can then use"

what it actually often looks like tho is "disabled student puts in a request for notes from class x. office posts a Job Request on the SWD board/website asking for anyone already taking the class to submit their personal notes for pay regardless of the quality and usability of those notes. if no one applies, ur shit out of luck. sowwy they tried tho!" and legally, the university is in the clear because """"""technically"""""" ~legally~ they did do the bare minimum and attempt to provide u with something and trying to argue or litigate the usefulness vs uselessness of their support would be a scope so difficult no average lawyer would take it even if u did have the money, which ofc no one does. its so infuriating

[creekfiend]

god yes, this is all so exactly correct. it is such a thoroughly dehumanizing experience.

[03josten]

stop fucking using the word psychotic to describe bad behaviour and violence already god fucking damn it

[03josten]

oh my god i'm so tired psychotic does not mean violent it does not mean angry or erratic. it refers to a person suffering from psychosis, a loss of touch with reality that includes hallucinations and/or delusions. psychotic people are not inherently violent and y'all need to understand how much stigma you create when you again and again incorrectly use the word psychotic without even thinking about it

[03josten]

would appreciate if non-psychotic people could reblog this