#slywi.txt

[cloudslywi]

𐔌 . ˚songs that I've been listening to on repeat .ᐟ ₊ 𐦯ˎˊ˗

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⤷ ゛Are You Bored Yet? by The Wallows feat. Clairo

⤷ ゛Scrawny by The Wallows

⤷ ゛Cigarette Daydreams by Cage the Elephant

⤷ ゛strangers by proderics, melodybloom

⤷ ゛I'll Call You Mine by girl in red

⤷ ゛girls by girl in red

⤷ ゛The Blonde by TV GIRL

⤷ ゛Lovers Rock by TV GIRL

⤷ ゛Always Forever by Cults

⤷ ゛Ophelia by The Lumineers

⤷ ゛End of the Earth by Lord Huron

⤷ ゛Love like Ghosts by Lord Huron

⤷ ゛Watermelon by John + Jane Q. Public

⤷ ゛affection by BETWEEN FRIENDS

⤷ ゛As the World Caves in by Matt Maltese

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[cloudslywi]

Lying in my bed, smelling like roses and cocoa butter, an indie yt playlist playing in the background, and typing my tumblr post, with my freshly painted long nails, I think this is what people mean when they say "romanticize your life", just paying attention to your own life.

I could do the same things on autopilot, and time would pass in a blink, and that empty feeling would linger day after day, like I did nothing. Things start to lose meaning when you repeat them mindlessly without paying attention, just like words start to sound unreal when you say them over and over again. I have to shake myself out of this autopilot mode time and time again to slow time down, and it works; it just doesn't stick yet.

I want life to feel colorful again, and it's up to me to create my experience.

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Does anyone have movie recommendations about romanticizing life?

♡The playlist I was listening to, I found this channel recently, and their music is beautiful. ♡

[cloudslywi]

Life feels so much slower with piano music playing in the background. It’s calm, serene, peaceful but it also has this magical power to slow time down. 🦢⋆࿐♡⋆.˚

[cloudslywi]

07/05/2026 // I am back; I wasn’t feeling good the last 2 days and had no will to do anything.

I wasted most of the day before yesterday just wallowing in my negative thought cycle, but I worked out in the evening even though I wasn’t feeling like I was making any progress, and to my surprise, I felt so much stronger doing the same exercises that I was struggling to do earlier this week, and that pulled me out of my spiraling.

I slept horribly but woke up feeling great regardless, and I had my coffee and was scrolling Pinterest, and I saw a post about Jane Fonda’s workouts being fun, so I decided to try it out, and it was indeed very fun.

Later, I set up my friend’s Discord server, and it turned out really adorable, especially the color reaction roles. I am going to put pictures here, and if the names of the shades are wrong, please just ignore them.

I had a no screen hour in the afternoon; I’ll make another post about it. I couldn’t focus on studying in the afternoon, so I spent my time reading and did some exercise in the evening. After that, I studied for a bit and had my dinner, and now here I am writing this post.

Whoever is reading this, I hope you are having a wonderful day. 💌💗🌷₊˚⊹

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I am feeling so proud that I took some rest and came back to posting here. I don’t know if I am feeling these diary style of posts that much; I will keep experimenting with different formats and styles.

[cloudslywi]

04/05/2026 // I don’t feel good today, a lot of old negative thoughts are resurfacing and I want to cry but I am unable to cry.

All of this getting my life together thing was supposed to make me feel better but instead I already feel behind. I half-assed my day and I feel like shit but I cannot abandon this like I do with everything else, cause half-assing is better than totally giving up, right?

I am going to read something and try to go to sleep early.

[cloudslywi]

I wish lying in bed and crying for while fixed everything.

[cloudslywi]

03/05/2026 // I cannot believe I am actually following through and making a second post. I had forgotten about it, kind of, but then I lost wifi again(we are having a really bad weather week) and my brain wandered here.

Today is Sunday, it was pretty uneventful, spent the day by watching a show, reading a book, did not exercise but I am planning to do some stretching before I sleep.

The parts that I did not spend on autopilot were my hair wash routine, I spent 15-20 minutes oiling my hair in the afternoon. My hair is greying at the ripe age of 22 and I am losing my mind over this. I put in an anti-dandruff homemade mask 30 minutes before washing and then spent 1 hour double-washing and conditioning. I felt very refreshed by the time I was done.

After dinner, I did my skincare, made myself some iced lemon tea and started writing this. I love the idea of being a hot lemon tea person but the I just cannot make myself like hot water-y teas, so I put in some ice cubes after pouring it in the cup. Now, I’m gonna read a little more and go to sleep.

So, this was my day, I don’t know what I am doing here but hopefully I’ll get better.

[cloudslywi]

02/05/2026 // I woke up to a gloomy weather and cold winds, it reminded me of a childhood memory that I think is the core memory of my love for gloomy weathers.

I have been on this self-improvement journey, not the grind kind but the taking it slow and recovering from burnout kind, and I decided that today is the day when I finally do my morning pages in the morning because there’s no electricity or wifi so I couldn’t doom-scroll even if I wanted to.

I took out some of my notebooks, I tend to overestimate how much I’m gonna do so I like to be prepared, there’s my daily journal, gratitude and manifestation journal, sketchbook and of course my old daily journal for emotional support. I had one instrumental music downloaded “I wanted to leave - SYML”, I put it on, light the candles and start writing, I write a little here then I sketch a little there, I don’t really know what I am doing but I know that I have to keep going cause it’s one of the more relaxing mornings I have had in a while.

Now, the sun is out and I am back on my phone but I feel better because I had a good morning and I committed to what I promised myself.

And upon posting this I’d have checked another box off of my to-do list, I used to wish that I had a blog in 2016 but I was only 12 then, then I saw that woman on TikTok saying, “Oh, wait I’m not dead, I can still do this.” So, here I am, doing this.