#small ranting

[rei-comfort-zone]

Talking with pookie about the winter clothes of Russell and my oc 😭

[dyinggirldied]

I'm so mad over how the manhwa cut down on Yoojin X Hyunjae scenes (them sleep in the same room, Hyunjae saying he can fall for Yoojin again, etc.)

A friend of mine said it might be because they don't want to alienate the percentage of male readers in this fandom.

It might not be true but if it does, the idea is maddening. Because right now it alienating some of its long time fans and novel readers.

[earthspark-fractured-sparks]

NGL HOW DO WE FEEL ABOUT ES MEGATRON IN FINAL SEASON OF EARTHSPARK 👀❓

Me personally? Devastated, considering he was my most favorite Megatron out of any to say at best. Yeah sure he's alive but all he remembers is the war, and it just feels odd because he is like his old past self again and I'm FAR from used to that which makes so much stuff SO confusing to work with.

In our corner here of S4, we have it different really. We do follow how they originally have it, but just change it a bit because honestly we just can, it's my lore and I'm not gonna be changing stuff and deleting a good part of it that I worked on for a few years for this, I'm just gonna rewrite what's already canon IN MY WAY. What we changed the most is the part how he woke up and left and where he was after leaving, and how they captured him again. AND let's not get me started about how he is treated & how he acts now.

A GOOD FEW characters in our story had a close relationship with Megatron, other already canon characters and OCs, and not just mine OCs but a few more other OCs from other friends & my partner but most of them were YET to be introduced here even! Let's not mention how we have Megatron's and Starscream's relationship here and how the fuck they did it canonically, literally so dirty if anything!

With this said, we had to change a lot characters too and some other upcoming characters we had wanted to have in the story was completely scrapped. The little few new S4 Characters that was there, no we are PROBABLY not gonna include them as much or at all and hell even if we do we would have to change so much about them too. And no, fuck to the no are we NOT gonna do the same to Bumblebee. He stays as he is, and he KEEPS his memory.

And because how Megatron was killed? Let's just say it kinda fucked up with our story a bit because this is now the confusing part: what the fuck do we do with Unicron NOW?? He was the one of the reasons Megatron stayed alive ever since the war even though he was so MENTALLY GONE already. But now with how stupidly he was killed?? It's what leaves us unsure what to do about it and/or WHAT happens to Unicron.

And I'm gonna be real honest, we made Megatron's death in this far more brutal than what we actually got. After the first thing that went through his chest(that I forgot if it even had a proper name for it anymore) by Liege, we changed it to the fact from that he lost his arm and Optimus came over to try and steady him and 'comfort' him if I can say at least, then after that short time was Megatron shot from the back in the Spark and in his helm and yeah then did he fall dead in Optimus' arms, and lord was there Energon everywhere. Optimus here was also mainly left mostly unharmed, he doesn't lose his arm, but does get injured from the blast. And I can say.. it left the Maltos scarred badly and react more, and Optimus who was right in FRONT of it to witness it actually, he had to pause trying to consider or process if this was even real, just staring at Megatron's body before he snapped.

[explodingsparks]

Little rant/

okay so about that L4D server I’m on

yeah I’m gonna uh

leave it..

I posted one thing in art about the cover art of Calm before the storm

And INSTANTLY they thought “ew Nellis” and started to judge my art by how it looks and when the art didn’t even imply what they thought??

so yeah

i couldn’t survive long on that damn server 😭

[potatowanker]

I’m applying for jobs rn because I’ve never seen less than 2 months latency between the interview and a reply but OF COURSE the job i’m applying to just told me that they’d want me to start ASAP if I get the position

i just cant win :’)

[potatowanker]

I love how people mistake my overwhelming gentleness as flirting like no sweetheart I’m just excited to be friends with every living thing on this Earth. If you think I’m inviting you to put you’re dick in me I will break your hand with a smile on my face

[suiamena]

Basicly she send me a message on whatsapp asking how late i was gonna be home today (i stayed a day longer at my friends place seeing another friend was also there who i really dont see that much irl and i hardly go out the house anyway) Eitherway. No biggy. But this morning around… What 10?? She send me that question and i looked at it but i fell asleep again. (we went asleep at like idk 4/5 am) and 2 hours later she is fuckin mad at me for ignoring her and that i could say so if i diddnt know?! Im sorry it sounds so petty BUT SHE DOES THIS ALOT. she askes me a shit load. Opinions. Talk alot to semi vent shit. And i have to be carefull around her cause she is not that well. (small fuse + conversion disorder is a great combo) But when i say no with a whole explaination while walking on eggshells that she can turn it around SO WELL that you feel complete shite no matter what you do. Hohoho this reminded me also om how double standard she can be. She has in her opinion EVERY right to complain TO ME about her medical problems and carreer choices dissapearing (she does this alot probs idk.. 2 to 5 times a week) WHICH I CAN GET, but if I just so happen to complain about me feeling shit about my chubby stomach i am NOT allowed to complain about cause missy HEARDED IT TO MUCH. Please note i complain about it like what. Once in the 3 months? (might be mistaken though) I get her shit is medical bit mine is mental and can be JUST AS HARSH. But i apparently have no right to complain. And that she also has some fat rolls if she sits down. SHE IS FUCKIN UNDERWEIGHT, SKINNY AND PRETTY. WHILE I GOT A PRETTY CHUB BELLY WHICH I CAN HIDE AND LAUNCH PENS WITH. (please note i am feeling shite about my body for over more then 7/8 years and she her problem for… A max of 2/3 years?) But yeah. I always get disturbed in my space and i hardly even walk into her room. i always leave my headphones half on so i can hear if someone walks in which makes me on edge for everything (i cannot really draw lets say cute shippings that i want cause it makes me scared and insecure that someone will see it without me wanting it to. Kissy pics already make me insecure to draw them. It makes me feel super judged and ashamed in an instant) also i cannot listen to my music full on which i love to do cause there is a high chance i get startled by her when she is suddenly right next to me. OH and she does not read notes that say THAT I WANT REST AND NO ONE IN MY ROOM. even if the note has been up for 2/3 weeks. SO YEAH

Ok i think im done atm. This small thing triggered a whole bigger picture, I had to get this off my chest and ranting works the best ❤ I really love my sister. But its these small things that hit me right in the nerves and make me also hate her.

[jtusa425]

personal thoughts regarding sexuality

Read below the break.

Working this through on my drive home as to why,  I think i've found it to be that Asexual people are not "distracted" with sex and are more able to focus on life.

EDIT: The real problem I get these days is trying explain this to people. How do i tell someone that im not sexually into them but I really enjoy their companionship?

Answer below in the doobly-do.

What do you think?