Aug 8, 2018
dont tell me what to do, JOHN
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dont tell me what to do, JOHN
Finally confident enough to show what I look like in a two piece, and own it.
i just heard the funniest shit i think i have heard in a long time so my sister and her fiancé have this friend and he has dated this girl, that they absolutely cannot stand, for years now and apparently today he found out she has been cheating on him for the past seven months with this guy that works with her the guy is married and just had a baby no less, so both parties are definitely in the wrong so naturally he packs up her shit and takes it to her dads house what she doesnt know is that he sTUCK ALL OF HER DILDOS ON TOP OF THE BOXES he gave to her FATHER and texted her saying "your shit is at your dads, go fuck yourself" she also decided to ask him if he was going to tell the wife of the guy she cheated with to which he responded, TICK TOCK HOE! wouldnt you just give a million dollars to see the look on this stupid womans face when she comes home and realizes her father saw all of her massive dildos moral of the story: dont cheat because thats really shitty and your parents could easily see all the dirty things you have
I think i might be going through withdrawls
Take me back😭
Found you when your heart was broke.
I filled your cup until it overflowed.
Took it so far to keep you close,
I was afraid to leave you on your own.
I said I'd catch you if you fall,
And if they laugh, then fuck 'em all.
And then I got you off your knees,
Put you right back on your feet.
Just so you can take advantage of me.
Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there,
Feeling so high but too far away to hold me.
You know I'm the one who put you up there,
Name in the sky,
Does it ever get lonely?
Thinking you could live without me.
Thinking you could live without me.
Baby, I'm the one who put you up there,
I don't know why.
Thinking you could live without me,
Live without me.
Baby, I'm the one who put you up there,
I don't know why.
Gave love 'bout a hundred tries,
Just running from the demons in your mind.
Then I took yours and made 'em mine,
I didn't notice 'cause my love was blind.
Said I'd catch you if you fall.
And if they laugh, then fuck 'em all.
And then I got you off your knees,
Put you right back on your feet,
Just so you can take advantage of me.
Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there,
Feeling so high but too far away to hold me.
You know I'm the one who put you up there,
Name in the sky,
Does it ever get lonely?
Thinking you could live without me.
Thinking you could live without me.
Baby, I'm the one who put you up there,
I don't know why.
Thinking you could live without me,
Live without me.
Baby, I'm the one who put you up there.
I don't know why, yeah.
You don't have to say just what you did,
I already know.
I had to go and find out from them.
So tell me how's it feel.
Tell me how's it feel sittin' up there,
Feeling so high but too far away to hold me.
You know I'm the one who put you up there,
Name in the sky,
Does it ever get lonely?
Thinking you could live without me.
Thinking you could live without me.
Baby, I'm the one who put you up there.
I don't know why.
Real.
But in all seriousness, today was amazing. Getting to reconnect with the girls was so much fun. Just cutting up with them like it was four years ago in the beginning of it all was so great. Feeling like I belonged there. Feeling like I was a part of the family again. You never really know how much you’ve truly missed someone until you’re back around them.
They kept telling me over and over how much they missed me. And how sorry they were about everything that happened and they all just wanted me to be happy. To put something aside like that and still want me to be happy? Thats the best feeling in the world.
They told me how she’s nice but she’s not me. That they miss having me around. That they wished things had worked out. And sometimes a part of me does too. Wondering what could have been will always fuck me up. Its hard to look back at how everything has changed in the past four years. The biggest thing is how he’s not there anymore. That I’m just a small part of his past life. And how he’s doing so much better without me.
I guess that was clear when he showed up there with her. I could feel her digging her eyes into my back like a knife. Because she knew. She just had to. How I felt, how he felt. How we were together. Never said a word to me. Him or her. It was strange, I’ve never really been in that situation before. I wanted to be an adult about it, but part of me just... couldn’t. I couldn’t recognize that she was real. All tall and blonde and skinny and everything I am not. In a tiny ass dress that I personally think was too short for a wedding. I should be happy for him. I should never worry about him or think about him or wonder what things would be like with him now. It hurts. Its real, raw pain thinking about everything.
Him not saying anything to me, or any kind of glance in my direction hurt me more than I thought it would. I wish it hadn’t, but it did. After everything we’ve been through, just.. nothing. But I guess thats what it comes down to now.
In other news heres my most recent commissioned piece, check out my art insta @simplysutherlandarts and message me for your own! I do all kinds of vehicles, not just jeeps
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