TEX SENTENCE MEME
@fidemleto‘s caroline said: “ isn’t this a little extreme? ”
paige lets out a grown from underneath the covers of her bed, pulling the sheets closer. “ no, it’s not! i already feel like i’m dying from the worst hangover i’ve ever had, and i just know if i leave this room, i will die from embarrassment. ” who knows what she said to damon last night -- every time she tries to remember, her headache gets worse. paige isn’t entirely sure she wants to remember. “ solution? leave me here to pretend like the rest of the world doesn’t exist. in fact, tell everyone i’m super busy and unavailable. less of a chance for me to do something stupid if nobody tries to talk to me. ”
he looks familiar. paige clicks her pen repeatedly as she waits for the kitchen to finish his order, all the while studying the new customer’s face from afar. it bothers her that she can’t recall where she knows this guy from -- she’s usually good with faces -- and it sets paige just a little bit on edge. is he someone she met in passing? does she know him from a case she and her mom worked on? should she be worried over this? probably not. she worries too much and often over nothing.
“ order’s up, darlin’! ” calls the cook, and paige thanks him before scooping up the plate and bringing it over to mystery guy’s table. she smiles politely as she sets it down in front of him. “ there you are. and uh, before i go, i wanted to ask if we’ve met before. ” the words leave her mouth before paige can think twice about them, spurred on by curiosity and a feeling of familiarity she can’t very well ignore. “ maybe at school? i started at the community college not too long ago. ”
you cannot get over the past. you are constantly remembering, never forgetting. you can’t live in the moment because the moment is not what brought you here. you are birthed, raised, and killed in the past. you will never get over what was done to you, be it big or be it small. you cannot escape what you refuse to confront.
HURT MEME
@fidemleto’s stefan said: “ are they dead? did you kill them? ”
her hands are red. it’s under her fingernails and settles in the creases of her hands. she can’t look away. she can’t stop trembling. she can’t stop thinking about the look of terror on the stranger’s face, nor about the sound---
stefan’s arrival shakes paige out of her trance, though she doesn’t move from her spot on the floor. she continues to stare down at her hands as her heart starts to race despite knowing the situation couldn’t be helped, that she hasn’t committed an act of evil. paige did what was necessary to survive, and stefan won’t fault her for that. she hopes. “ uh, yeah, ” she rasps before clearing her throat. it doesn’t help much. “ i didn’t mean to, but he--- he almost... ”
paige remembers how his hands felt around her throat, immovable and crushing. she remembers she didn’t even think twice as her fingers finally wrapped around the blade of his discarded knife and shoved it into his chest. she didn’t even think twice.
" i didn’t have a choice. ” paige clasps her hands together, feeling sick. “ he would’ve killed me. ”
the faint chiming of bells pulls chiyo away from her thoughts, gaze flicking towards the entrance of the convenience store where a familiar giant of a man has just walked through. her face lights up in a friendly grin as she straightens up from her leaning position on the counter. boredom is a cruel, cruel mistress, and andre is a very welcome savior from her. " oh, look who’s back! what’ve you been up to, hmm? seems like FOREVER since you’ve been around. ”
GLASS CAGE
You feel disconnected from the world around you. You can see everything, everyone can see you, but you're not really there. No one can really communicate with you, can they? You're isolated, even when you're around people you're alone.
You want desperately to be close to someone, but you're afraid of what will happen if you shatter your glass prison. You don't want to let someone in, you don't want to leave, and it's a constant battle of your own will.
It's easier to be alone, where no one can hurt you... Isn't it?
stolen from: i... can’t remember oops!!
tagging: everyone who’d like to do this!
okay so!! i was trying to think of things that hekima would genuinely angst over bc she’s just!! so upbeat that it was difficult for me to imagine her actually being SAD. and i don’t like that bc real people get sad, and i’d very much like my characters to be realistic!
but then one thing hit me, and it really should’ve been obvious considering her backstory.
hekima oozes self confidence and toots her own horn on a daily basis; while that’s a fun part of her personality that people start to expect, it’s also hekima setting high expectations for herself and putting a load of pressure on her shoulders. now!! she works really well under pressure, so maybe that’s part of her reason being the way she is, and most of the time, she’s okay even if she isn’t the Best bc she is TRYING her best. but sometimes : )) she’s not okay
so in her backstory, hekima’s entire reason for wanting her quirk to manifest quickly is to heal her mom’s legs -- she can see how sad her parents are and hates seeing her mom in the hospital. her mom’s quirk is healing through energy transfer, and hekima physically takes more after her mother, so naturally!! she thought she’d get her mother’s quirk. of course, we both know that’s not the case, and finding out she had her dad’s quirk DEVASTATED lil five-year-old hekima bc she so, so badly wanted to help her mom.
her mom remedies this by telling her she can help so many more people now! save so many all at once with just one hand! and urges her to help those who need it most, who have no one else, and hekima takes that to heart.
more than ANYTHING, she wants to be a hero who helps people, who everyone can depend on.
so there’s this pressure she puts on herself to be that hero who can’t be bested, who can’t be stopped, who will save you no matter WHAT is thrown at her, and that’s A Lot. and i can imagine it gets to be a bit much sometimes?? like say she consistently places second or third in her class for physical tests -- she’d really get bummed out even if she’s smiling and saying “ i’ll beat you next time!! ” bc it feels like she’s failing. “ you’re in the top three, though! ” but she’s not the best, and isn’t that her whole thing? isn’t that who she’s striving to be? what’s all this big talk for if she can’t back it up?
and good lord if and when she gets thrown into the fray and she can’t save someone??? someone gets hurt or worse DIES on her watch??????? get ready to slap some sense into this boastful bean bc she’s going to lose 80% of her confidence and what’s left is going to be a poor front to throw off her pals’ concern. she will brood and blame herself until she’s convinced she isn’t WORTHY of being a hero, so pls... have a talk with my daughter if that happens!!
“ don’t talk like that! ” a rare frown mars hekima’s typically upbeat expression. “ if you want to be a hero, then MAKE IT HAPPEN. doubting yourself won’t get you anywhere! ”
