Killua used to dream about Gon.
He used to think Gon would show up at the mansion, unannounced and tossing rocks at his window. Or maybe Killua would pick up the phone one day and it would be Gon’s voice crying to him through the static, claiming the biggest mistake of his life was leaving Killua behind. He used to pray every night for Gon to come back and swear the whole time he was searching for Ging, he was only thinking of Killua. That the second he found Ging was the moment he realized all he ever really wanted was Killua.
But none of that ever happened.
Gon never came to Killua’s rescue. He never called or sent a text. He never reached out to Killua at all. And so Killua gave up. He stopped checking Gon’s socials. He stopped waking up and wondering if today would be the day Gon returned to him. In fact, he did his best to stop thinking about Gon at all.
And even if he wasn’t exactly happy, he was at more peace because of it.
Fate, however, seemed to enjoy torturing Killua. Because after years of pretending he’d never heard of the name Gon Freecss, the man himself appeared in front of Killua like some sort of fever dream. But Killua knew it wasn’t a dream, because he gave up dreaming once he realized they never came true. So this man in front of him was the real and true Gon Freecss.
Just the sight of him made Killua want to throw up.