All the adults in my life fucking ignore me or I'm just not worth the trouble, I have to choose between Jake and my career, I lose best friends fucking annually, I can't get any kind of education because I am already $10K in debt and can't afford anymore not to mention I have to work full time just to afford the debt and rent so how could I find time to also go to school not to mention I have NOTHING I am interested in getting a degree in so all the fucking experience I will have is being a waitress, my teeth are literally rotting away in my mouth because I have thousands in cavities in there and have absolutely no means to fix it, and I am fucked I am fucked I am fucked I am fucked and no one will help me. I am going to kill myself. I just really don't know what to do. I'm so low I'm so lost and I want to fucking die all the time. I'm done. I'm just so done.