The way Destiel makes me physically sick… all that buildup, all that character development, the angst, the feels - just to end. It was right there, but then they just haaaad to kill Cas? Yes, the parallels and the cinematography and the acting is out of this world and it HURTS - having Dean go through losing him one last time, unable to do ANYTHING, not even having a body left behind… being completely broken but finishing off the big guy anyway… being lost and then DYING ON A FUCKING HUNT CAUSED BY LOOSE ENDS FROM FUCKING JOHN and telling Sam to let him go and tell him it’s okay, only to go to heaven and hear about his parents when all he wanted was Cas. And they deserved so much more and I just arghhh it makes me so sad because it’s so beautiful, but it makes me so unbelievably angry. We deserved to have Cas come back to save Dean at the last second. Breaking all the rules. We deserved to see them happy in heaven. Dean breaking free from the mental chokehold his father had of him and letting himself be happy with Cas. Anything.
