#so scattered

[mechbrane]

holy SHIT am i out of sorts today

[ephemeralunicorn]

best & worst weekend of my life (:(

[stealsfromthieves]

just need to get rid of social media for a bit and recollect my thoughts

[chronicillnesspanda]

dear followers/friends, i miss you all! thanks for not unfollowing even though i've been too busy/sick to post much. also my adhd/brain fog whatever it is has been SO bad it's a miracle i'm even typing this right now. miracle number 2 will be if i actully post this rather than typing it and then forgetting to post it until my computer shuts down bc it's broken and then it's gone. i often have things i want to share on here but can't stay focused for long enough to actually do it. i think it will help me feel less crazy/scattered if i actually do post so i'm going to try to be around more. might be more personal stuff but not sure yet. tell me what's going on with youuuu if you want. hugs and spoons

[myselfedout]

my blog is always a reflection of my mind; and right now, both are a mess

[mattoloupe]

chilling out because i'm set up to buy an old phone of some dude from craigslist tomorrow (i love craigslist) and I can go activate it tomorrow and get the DUMB TEXT I need to log into facebook then immediately disable that feature lmao. My matto name shall remain. and then I can post about England and talk to people and live through the internet holla.

and my car is fixed, not sure if it's temporary or good to go, but I'm hoping the latter. 

Now I just have to sort out my brain space. It's hella scattered up there.

[buriedflame]

my friday night includes vodka, morphine and sad songs

[buriedflame]

I've been trying to stop drinking alcohol bc turns out drinking from morning until I pass out is really bad So it's day 4 of it and I am starting to want to get drunk pretty badly and yeah thought this would be easier but I just want to revert to other bad habits so this is going to take me some time ugh just realising how much I'm going to need to dedicate myself to trying to live