Ok, I need to share my confused feelings after today's sobh update:
Am I happy for Kit doing well in England? Yes absolutely
I love how happy he is with Mina, Jem and Tessa.
Am I happy about him getting along with people and even having a girlfriend? YES!! I JUST NEED TO SEE HIM HAPPY
Am I utterly devastated about him having a gf. ALSO YES. It has hurted me more than I thought, bc I thought the gf stuff wasn't real, just mother's ideas... BUT THEY WERENT AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO FEEL
I love to see him happy but taking into account how he reacted after "mentioning" Ty... He' s not over it yet. (And I don't know if I like that fact...) But the day they re-encounter he's gonna realise he still loves Ty and that girl (Mary?) will get hurt
KITTY HAS TO BE ENDGAME I NEED IT TO BE, BUT I ALSO NEED KIT TO BE HAPPY, SO I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT ALL THIS STUFF (as always btw)