#sofia random rambles

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

I’ve figured out how to make mood boards. Anyone want one?

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

If we're gonna tell people that becoming an actor is "not a realistic career choice" then can we stop telling people that becoming a sports star is also not bloody realistic

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

Guys I’m asexual. That is the title I’m very comfortable with. I’ve “come out” to my friends last Saturday. I legit thought something was wrong with me because I’ve never found anyone physically attractive before. I mean I think everyone is beautiful so that’s not helpful. I’m asexual. There it is. World of the internet, a girl who has never been a relationship before, is asexual. This feels like a big deal. Maybe it is. I think it is. I’m asexual guys

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

3 things I have watched recently that have made me sob

1. Falsettos

2. Rent the Musical

3. Dead Poet’s Society

Thank you for listening

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

note to self

- you gotta stretch before you work out because holy hell does that hurt

- your friends still care about you even if they don’t hang out without you

- please be kind to people who are on the phone. Those people are just doing their job and deserve respect

- be kind just to everyone please

- you’re you and that’s important

- be nice to yourself. You deserve kindness too

- cry if you need to

- go to bed at a reasonable time please

- invite people out with you because although time by yourself is nice, so is other company

- clean your room if you feel frazzled. It helps sometimes

- read what you want

- turn off the internet and your data every now and again. Enjoy the world

- do what makes you happy

- find somewhere you can be alone for a bit

- buy yourself flowers every now and again

- buy candle smells you like and light it every now and again

- your voice will sometimes be heard. Don't be afraid to speak because of the amount you stutter

- if needed, listen to the same song on repeat for a long time

- sing. Just sing

- draw because you know it's something you like doing

- also paint. Watercolours are lovely to use

- go see a movie. Take a friend or go alone just see something

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

I need to find somewhere that feels like home. My actual home doesn't feel like it. It just feels like somewhere I sleep while I'm in town. Work certainly doesn't feel like home. That's the place where I feel the most isolated from everything to the point where I just feel the panic and anxiousness stab me in the chest and it hurts to breathe. Home is where the heart is; some people say. My heart must be confused then at where home really is.

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

Found it I forgot how mad I was when I wrote this like Jesus Christ. I must of been in the absolute pits of anger to write stuff like this but I mean every word and I don't take it back This is the reply I'll never send (Sorry Chloe I forgot I mentioned you in this but at the same time I don't regret it because it's kinda true. You shouldn't have to be the middle man)

[thegirlwhoneversleeps592]

Do you think JD has killed other people?