#something i learned

[liliallowed]

today is a milestone

i dont mean to brag but i made my own first meal today. by myself.

i know a lil late for someone in their 20s but i have an irrational fear of hot objects/ flames/ the oven/ steaming iron /anything that has to do with heating up something to prepare it. had it since i was a kid and it never went away.

the sizzling also makes a pit in my stomach. the sizzling and the erratic jumping of the bubbles. the small fraction of a possibility of me just putting my hand in the fire. yk the same feeling you get at the edge of a cliff briefly picturing yourself falling down... but like... yk. what if im too clumsy or i listen and burn myself. or the kind of absurd storytelling that you imagine the drying towel behild you will get blown by the wind and fall ontop of the stove and just... everything is on fire.

yep...

again i know its irrational but that doesn't stop me from curing into a ball and wanting to run away from the room. it doesn't stop me from feeling incompetent and small.

today i faced the beast... by NOT DOING IT HEAD ON!

(just bought an electric food cooker.)

i cooked! LITERALLY!

like my parents have tried to teach me cooking many times it always lead to me crying as a kid or simply just disassociating and staring at the pot with a blank expression. i have avoided making anything that wasn't chopping vegetables or fruits. it has made me insecure about it and before therapy id pretty much rather starve myself than to look at a stove.

that was before i got the tism diagnosis. and we realized: huh i might need to try something different instead of brute forcing what we consider as "normal". and therapy has actually helped me with my problem solving skills and how to confront my "flaws". you don't HAVE to cook it in a frying pan! mind blown.

oh electric cooker. you're literally a life saver because now i don't have to worry about my lack of self sustainability or the humiliation. BECAUSE I SOLVED IT AHAHAHAHAH!

also. in case, like me you are now hyper focused on getting it right because you're terrified of making a mistake... uhm... i don't actually have any advice. just that the first time is the hardest. it will get easier the second time. like 18 percent. not SUPER easier. but a lil more managable.

so.

in case any fellow neurodivergent people have had a similar issue try an electric cooker. mind that it is still hot to the touch you gotta use gloves when you take the thing out. make sure to clean and always dry it before putting it in its heater.

idk. visually not seeing the flame has changed the whole thing for me.

i hope this helps people like me who get easily overwhelmed and want to focus on one thing at a time and the flame is no longer a distraction.

[croakqette]

What I’ve learned from using sharpeners to cut down the steel holding my eraser, is that some things shouldn’t be prolonged and that it’s okay to let things go

[waterunning]

nothing is mundane if well observed

[dumbhc1]

I have no idea who needs to hear this but just because you're an avid reader doesn't mean that you don't still struggle with your dyslexia and that teachers get to ignore your accommodations or make you feel ashamed for needing them.

[tabellae-rex-in-sui]

It's Émilie's birthday!

mv² represents Émilie du Châtelet's contribution to vis viva, living force. "Living force" was used to describe momentum and energy in physics during the 17th and 18th centuries and it was a source of controversy. Leibniz believed that the quantity mv² (mass times velocity squared) was conserved in mechanical systems while Newton believed mv (mass times velocity) was what was conserved.

Émilie then performed her version of scientist Willem's Gravesande's experiment: she dropped metal balls from varying heights into soft clay. Each ball's kinetic energy (shown by the amount of clay displaced) was proportional to the square of its velocity. And the deformation of the clay was directly proportional to the height the balls were dropped from, equal to the initial potential energy. According to Newton momentum and energy were one and the same so the deformation of the clay should have been proportional to the square root of the height from which the balls were dropped, but that didn't happen. So momentum and energy were different. Leibniz' mv² described the conservation of energy while Newton's mv described the conservation of momentum. Émilie published her findings and corrected Newton's mistakes in her translation of his work, Principia. The case she made for mv² was expanded on by Euler and Lagrange and eventually defined our modern understanding of energy leading to Einstein's E=mc².

[ad-astra-again]

After rewatching all the Toy Story movies I came to the conclusion that Woody is 100% a bottom.

[nocturnalsuggestions]

be kind, forgiving, and understanding always but don’t let anyone take you for granted

[prattzanoqueen]

Writing exercises?

So i am a very hectic person when it comes to my creative process. My mind goes way to damn fast sometimes and i get sooo discouraged with my ideas. Someone pointed out a really easy and obvious solution called brain dumping. Like how was it this simple and i didn't think to try this on my own. I spend 5 minutes everyday just writing whatever is on my mind. Then I organize it by what is important or what to toss. So i recommend if anyone has similar issues to try just writing everything and anything that comes to mind for atleast 5 or 10 minutes. It is surprisingly helpful and clears out a lot of "blocks".