The Hardest Wall
Just realised I’ve never put out a post for my favourite of my Cassian x Bix fics (which I’ve just been reworking ). Definitely a rare-ship, but I hope to find a few more genuine fans of these compellingly messy ‘friends to lovers to exes to friends…’ etc etc as we get nearer Andor season 2.
"I ran into a wall, like I do."
The Andor Episode 7 scene between Bix and Cassian, as seen from her perspective. Basically a fictionalised analysis. Cassian is preparing to flee from Ferrix and Bix is still trying to recover, physically and emotionally, from the catastrophic events of episode 3.
There's a lot of history, a lot of hurt and a lot of looking for someone to blame. And several very hard walls, in every sense. All in all, it's a really terrible way to say goodbye.
"She can remember clearly the one and only time she had deliberately physically hurt Cassian. Their second break-up. While he was lying to her face, she had slapped his. Hard enough to sting her hand.
It had stung him too. As he recovered, gingerly fingering the reddening mark on his cheek, he had stared at her with open shock and incredulity. His big sad eyes had widened and glistened and of course at that she felt sorry and was stupid enough to say that she was sorry too.
Once again, he had ended up getting what he wanted from her.
And for all the long-term good her violence against him had done, she might as well have slapped a wall. It had ended up hurting her far more than it had hurt him.
Or so she had concluded. "
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