#sorry chums

[smudgeooo]

Remembered I need to accept Instagram follow requests and turns out I just forgot to accept some of my longest standing friends' requests because I just text them.

Some of these people I've seen every week for years

[boysrockboys]

I absolutely hate how jealous I get when I see those “send to 10 people you love” things and “tag your favourite whoevers” or even “happy birthday to this hot mess lol” on every fucking social media site

I get so so mad. Disproportionately mad. I am never happy for people tagged (especially when they are my friends), and it feels like I am rotting from the inside. I just hate how obvious it is made to me over and over again that I am never chosen. I’m not in people’s top 3. hell, I don’t make their top 10! and even on my birthday no one makes an effort to point out that I am special to them

and I never say anything to people in my real life because if I tell them then anything they do will feel like pity and not ‘really’ choosing me. so I just get angry when they tag other people that they like more than me & feel sad & make my own day worse

I just hate that I cannot go anywhere online without my brain being all “remember! everyone hates you!”. dear brain, please. I am TIRED

[fishthegenderwiz]

Opinion post: yea Backstreet Boys released a new song, and while there’s nothing bad about it, there’s nothing good either. It’s like... the plain tofu of music. 

[letsjustallbefriendsnow]

FUCKING SHITHOLE WANKER CUNT

[grumpyandbutch]

aggressively avoids tumblr bc of spoilers

[hawesome]

hey dudes this is gonna be short but it's under a

ok so basically yours truly broke her laptop with careless actions

so this means no reblogs or posts for awhile

not until september the latest because that's when i'll be able to repair the damage

by the way, does anyone know what this means:

i {try to} turn on my laptop and all it does it says this:

No bootable device: Please restart system

and i leave it alone and after a while i try again and it STILL does the same thing

[corteae]

as much as i love andrew garfield and enjoyed the amazing spider-man, these movies will never have jk simmons as j jonah jameson and can therefore never hold a place in my heart

[mrdespondency]

another vent!

sorry these are becoming more and more frequent, i am going through some awful feelings right now

and i guess im gonna be off for a week or so. i haven't been satisfied with anything lately, especially not my art, and i feel like a horrible 2bit hack peddling my art around here without actually being satisfied with it in the first place. i think this may seem like a dumb thing to worry about, but tbh that is like saying my entire life sucks! i've been going through a lot of reflection and i realize what a huge disappointment i am anyway

at any rate, i'll be taking some time off to get my act together, work hard, relax, etc. no worries, since this will just be like a process week, until i can hopefully come back with better stuff for all of you!

and nooowwwwwww... well this will be the vent part i suppose

i haven't been eating at all lately, just sleeping sleeping sleeping. sometimes i don't sleep until 4am just so i can wake up late and miss eating at all! i'm feeling stifled with my school life lately, too. so far, i don't think i've improved with anything despite having my new art classes, since all the professors teach things that they reserve for beginners (which tbh is what most of the students who come to the school are like, since our school had the reputation of housing slackers, and so a majority are slackers actually :(), or they don't come in handy at all!

new schedules and new demands have been working me to the bone, work all day and come home and sleep because i'm knackered to bits and in the meantime i've wasted precious hours of self-study that i KNOW could have improved me more than what i earned at college. right now art college seems like a waste, and i feel awful about it. my art is like my entire life, it's not just a hobby or a phase! it's smthng i want to do for the rest of my life and which i've fought the right to study seriously for. i want to drop everything and work on my own, but i've got a responsibility as the oldest sister studying away from home, and i don't want my parents banning my younger sibs from studying here, too.

but i feel useless and degenerate, and i can't tell anyone in my family because they all think this is a little dramatic?? but i wish someone understood what it's like to be so in love with what you do.

my apologies for this! i'll stop now. but as for all the drawings i said i'd work on, ill try to get them done asap

but like i said... hiatus, i guess.