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[wordlings]

sugar blue goodnight

like a sugar blue goodnight just as the wireless gas gums up tactical airways, as the birdhouse goes an incarnation of pure information different aliases for different rents sugar blue allosaurus in the curtain of another life the mighty big east

[poet-littledidtheyknowit-blog]

This back carries weight

Last week, Fahti told me I was his only white friend

He said the others wouldn’t talk to him, they ignored his voice, he spoke quietly as if he was waiting for me to interrupt

My cousin goes through the drive thru of a fast food place she comments “that girl seemed sassy” “no, she was just black”

Last year, I went to the state fair and my uncle was talking about how there was a gang

My dearest uncle, please listen to me

That was a black lives matters protest

They have them because of people like you

My friend Jeremy told me that she was too loud, took up too much space, had too much of a voice. I asked if the reason he thought that had to do with the fact she wore a hijab, that she was a women or both?

He went silent

But that spoke volumes

This back carries weight

Last week, Fahti told me he prayed to Allah he’d be equal in the eyes of his classmates

He said, he knew it was unrealistic but believed that I gave him a sneak peek into a better world

Fahti, your Allah blesses you

And my God thanks you

You helped me realize there is more to just myself in this world, you helped me realize there is more than just one answer to every question and the pills underneath my bed wasn’t the one.

This back carries the weight of knowing that you saved me but if you ever stared down the barrel of a gun, it’d be because of my skins

This back carries the weight of knowing I cannot save you