As I continue to read the word daily as much as I can and pray, today, or can I say last night while watching the movie called, Can You Pretend to Love Me starring Christian Keyes made me realize of what all the ideals in life that I want to have. Of course I want to have a hot body like Keyes, (no homo), and beautiful wife who loves me and enjoys having fun, as well as having the most beautiful kids that all have great hair and with chinky eyes. haha! Besides, a talk about our lives and what our goals were in life with a high school colleague that I haven't seen in years made think that my life, or her life as well is boring. Just talking about goals and what we are trying to obtain in life made it seem like we are robots and that whatever our future dream job will be identifies us as human beings, and citizens in this nation and planet. Of course I have a lot of ideals and goals that I want to see happen in my life. And I know not everything will happen in the order that I want it to. But what God wants me to do, I'll do it. And if I He has to stoop me down a couple notches in order for me to be on the right track of holiness, then I will accept the offer. I may not be incline to like everything that God wants me to do if I'm living in pride, but I know for sure from experience that He shows me a way out of enslavement of sin when He needs me like he did with Paul. Before I even state why I do not like ideals and such, I want to list everything that I want to happen in my life. Ideals and Goals: 1. I want to get Married. Not only for various reasons to have sex because sex seems to be sweet! But, marriage will show God that I am ready to build his kingdom in all seriousness, and that begins with loving my wife and supporting and having a family. 2. I would like to experience having a relationship. No games on both ends. 3. I would like to at least have a car I can afford. Is that too much to ask. 4. I want to have my own successful radio station, and host it. I want to spread the gospel and bring awareness of great music that edifies the soul. 5. I want my wife to have a long hair that real, haha. She must be fun, have some independence to her, very stylish and willing to be take risk. It seems to be odd, but maybe my next neighbor/good friend Mom is right. I might end up with my neighbor' daughter. Especially, she does have some qualities, well most qualities that I look for in a woman of my dreams. But who know, things happen I guess. After all, I do tend to look along the way at where she lives at from time to time to see if she is doing well. But okay. I'm bluffing. That chick is way to manly for me. Haha. 6. I want to be able to support myself. My Mom has been supporting me all along. I want to give back in do the same. 7. I want to do well in the Army. I just didn't join just to join. I'm going to get every benefit I can out of it. And so far I am learning how I can apply my faith in Christ and a career together, wake up early in the morning to enjoy life, and learn how to be physically fit. 8. I do want to have a nice body. I have a lot of insecurities of how skinny I am. In due time, my body will change. But as of now, I'm working on it. 9. I want to have a great relationship with my Father. Yes, my father has been around all of my life, but we really did not get to have much quality time. I know that he has been hard on me for a reason, but there is a time when I need to ask him tough questions about life. 10. Last but not least, I want my family to learn how to stick together more often. I know it is great to stay away from family for various amount of reasons, but I would like a annual Christmas party to happen soon. Well, that concludes my ideals and goals. But I've noticed and thought, if I'm going to be a child of God and a servant of righteousness, I should let my ideals, dreams, or goals dictate who I am. In all seriousness, I want others to know who I serve, not what I do. And it comes to a fact of being assertive and astute of my approach in my walk. I see as a man, in this world you have to set expectations everyday. Goals are important to be planned for series of years, but expectations should be planned daily. With expectations in mind, people can take me seriously when I am trying to make a joke, state a testimony, or give facts about history. In my opinion, Jesus made expectations to save others from letting their lives be ruin by sin. As in my case, I can tell others about what He has done for our lives, but it can't be through my smile. I don't Jesus smile all of the time to get his point across to some folks. He legit had to be stern at times. The reason why I smile is that at times I have to much on my mind and to get rid of it, I cover it up by smiling. But I maybe fooling some people to seem like I am okay, but I am not fooling myself. I think as of today, I going to stop smiling except on certain occasion when things are meant to be laughed at. Like a joke that is not vulgar, or derogatory. I used to believe that my smile can minster to people only, but it takes more of an action of smiling to minister about the gospel to others. It would have to take my whole body and soul to minister to others, because Jesus and his followers did the same thing. And do not get me wrong, they were not always smiling, especially when if some had to be place in prison or long traveling on boats. haha. I guess my expectations for myself is to take everything in my life to an serious factor, and enjoy every moment of working hard. Life is to short to focus only on accomplishing goals, ideals, and dreams, but the cycle continues to be roller coaster as long as the journey inspires us to move forward and live to learn and apply. Haha! That's it. My daily expectations are to live and learn. Thank you God for your son. I love you, and I hope my love is genuine enough. Amen.
