THE EDGE YOU CARRY WITH YOU
What is this beguiling reluctance to be happy?
This quickness in turning away the moment you might arrive?
The felt sense, that a moment's unguarded joy might after all, just kill you?
You know so very well the edge of darkness you have always carried with you.
You know so very well, your childhood legacy: that particular, inherited sense of hurt, given to you so freely by the world you entered.
And you know too well by now the body's hesitation at the invitation to undo everything others seemed to want to make you learn.
But your edge of darkness has always made its own definition secretly as an edge of light
and the door you closed might, by its very nature be one just waiting to be leant against and opened.
And happiness might just be a single step away, on the other side of that next unhelpful and undeserving thought.
Your way home, understood now, not as an achievement, but as a giving up, a blessed undoing, an arrival in the body and a full rest in the give and take of the breath.
This living breathing body always waiting to greet you at the door, always no matter the long years you've been away, still wanting you to come home.
-- David Whyte, from Still Possible

















