"what was your childhood like" source rant
I dont remember alot, I was pretty young and yknow, trauma brain pushes a lot of it away.
I remember the food. it was brightly coloured and had odd flavours compared to food I eat now. it was usually pretty slimy, aside from the soups. Vander always made sure we were fed, even if currency was tight.
I remember Mylo's teasing. Vi always said he was jealous. im not sure what he'd be jealous of but whatever. Mylo wasnt always mean though, we had some good times. we'd have shooting competitions, he was a sore loser, but we'd both laugh it off most times. I loved Mylo. I think thats why it affected me so much when he picked on me. Dixies brother is a lot like him, ive noticed
Claggor was a quiet guy, but he was smart. he'd help with my inventions when I'd get stuck. always patient. he was a good brother.
Ekko...gosh where to start. we were basically inseparable. we did everything together, he was a part of the group. we'd teach eachother what we learned about our inventions, but he was always better at the mathematical parts than I was. I remember, one time, we had made a fort in the top of Benzo's shop, spent alllll night building whatever the fuck we were building. it didnt work either, but we laughed so hard my ribs hurt. man, we were best friends.
after...Vi "left". when I started living with silco. it was weird, at first. I no longer had my family, and I started attaching myself to this strange man. it was scary. I had never seen so much violence around me, as I did living with him. I learned fast though. he would tolerate me. I quickly pushed boundaries, drawing on everything, screaming at him, pulling the "you're not my dad!!" card before immediately feeling guilty and crying about it. he had no idea how to raise a kid, in hindsight. I remember him most. I remember the first time he had me do his shimmer injection. I think i was thirteen. I shook like a leaf at the thought of hurting him, but I was so excited to help, that he asked me to do something so important. like I said, I learned fast and each time was easier. I had a fake air of confidence about everything. i was a kinda snotty little kid, when I think about it.
Sevika barely tolerated me. she was like..some weird ass estranged aunt. I think she liked me more before my teens. I liked fucking with her. but I did truly care for her, in my way. I remember a bit of meeting her. her hair was a little longer, she cut it not too long after. I was sitting on Silco's desk when she came in. just stared at her and didn't say anything. I think she probably thought I was weak and bad for Silco's reputation.
funnily enough, I dont remember a lot of Vi. I think..I kinda pushed it all away after she left. shut it out or some shit. I dont remember our parents or their death.
I remember how Vander hugged like a bear, with his entire body. he'd hug so tight he'd lift you up a little. and he was warm blooded, always ran hot and always sweating a bit. he was a good dad, i think. I loved him a lot. Dixie's dad reminds me of him.
theres more but my fingers are tired lol, but yeah!! :D thanks for asking i loved yappin!!
