#source vent

[starfoundhome]

Dream about you

Pseudo/source memories suck ass and dreams suck too. that’s all I’m gonna say on the matter.

[fizzled-out]

💗home is where you cant return🏚️

[v1ctimthree]

Why do I feel so sick. I just thought about him once, about losing him for a second and now im stuck in a fucking fetal position on my bed sobbing my eyes out till they burn. I hate this so much. I just dont want to lose him again, I caused it once, and now im causing it again but I dont know why or how and I just want to fix it i just want my best friend back and I hate it. I want my best friend to believe I'm me, and k want our relationship back, but i cant ever have that and I hate it and I hate that every time I think of this I get hysterical. Please just tell.me what you. Idk think of me?? I am me, i swear I wpuld fucking do anything to prove myself im sick of people telling me im not who I am. I am. I am and thats enough, why doesnt it feel enough. I know im me. Why does it hurt so bad to be told im not. Maybe it because its a direct parallel to source? I dont know but I just. Want to be seen as who I am. Please. I cant have another episode. Why am I so upset over this? Why do I need someone else's reassurance?? I cant do it i cant be stuck in this stupid body anymore if nobody believes im me.

[bugg-bonez]

Idgaf how this is a vent piece of my source IT ENDED UP LOOKING REALLY COOL. SO IT'S GOING ONLINE.

I usually limit the vents I post here or just don't at all because. It's the internet. But vent ART is a WHOLE NEW SITUATION. Also what do you mean I have an entire tag for whenever I'm joking about my trauma. No I don't. What're you talking about.(/j/sil)

ANYHOO ART TIME WHOOPEE

I shall describe my thought process below because I was BORN AND BRED TO YAP AND IT WON'T STOP NOW!!!

The red is constellations, and the lyrics to the song "Minor Holiday" stylised to look like constellations as well. I tried to include every held item like the weapons, accessories and keys, but I'm sure I forgot something. The only held item I included that isn't involved with battle is the Porcelain Doll because it brings me joy-

There are two change gods in the sides, to be honest I don't know why I added them? Whenever I draw it's just me zoning out for hours on end until it's done so they just appeared and I went with it-

Also the Siffrin in the art is me, so that's why it has things the canon sif doesn't (like bird talons n a tail, very similar to Critter Siffrin, the son of Hero and Princess AU so ermmm)

Hope y'all like ittt :3

[afton-verse]

our mom had a bottle of holy water in the junk drawer. reminded us of father. —🔪🫀

[amnesiacswedishfishnecromancy]

this is actually more of a vent drawing about my source than fanart but i guess ill put it here regardless? the cats are meant to represent isono and kamimura i guess

[cumdumpster-300]

source ventish

tw kinda maybe idk?? i miss nicole. i always say i want a sourcemate of a nicole fictive. and i do. but no fictive nicole will ever be the same nicole from my source. i miss nicole. MY nicole. even if she was never really mine.

[radically-therian]

missing a sourcemate knowing you'll never seen *them* again because of the nature of your source <<<<

it gets kinda ventish under the cut, also generally proceed with caution idk if any tws apply

so since I'm based on a comfort concept/self insert/projection thing, only WE know my source very well and like yeah I can talk to other versions of my family but it won't be the same especially because the specific person I'm missing, those of him who I have seen, either see me as a brother or not as family at all. plus they're in no way anything like him and I'm half tempted to find someone who'd be willing to split or soulbond *him* for me just so I can have my mama (/nsx, fam) back :(

he was like a familial yan and saw me as his kid and so sweet to me and yeah he hated my brother and all but he was my mama and he'd always be there for me when I needed and he'd help me regress even if I didn't think I wanted to be small at the time and and he had other kids too but I was his darling kitty (again, /nsx and fam) and only he got to call me that and. agh. I miss my mama