What we learn from "failure"
About 6 months ago, I was in a new place, manifesting friends and romance. We’ll focus on the romance part.
For a while I didn’t go out much, then I decided to be brave and start going places alone, following my passions such as dancing. I went to a casual dance class by myself, the first I met one of my best friends, the second- boom there he was. It wasn’t love at first sight, but after talking and dancing with him I had major deja vu because he said and did things that were really similar to a previous SP, so I knew I had manifested him.
For a few weeks things were great, we saw each other often, ran into each other at parties, met each other’s friends. But nothing had been defined, so we were still just “friends.” This is when I made my first mistake...
I noticed that in group settings he seemed to be aloof, preferring people to come talk to him than the other way around, and I took this to mean he didn’t want to talk to me. I should have realized that he simply had a different method of socializing and not taken anything personally. I would see him talk to different girls but not me (because I did not go up to him, lol) and this made me insecure, even "triggering" me due to past romantic interests that behaved similarly.
Second mistake: talking about it with my friends who barely even knew him. I would focus on the negative without even talking about why I liked him, and of course, in my unfair interpretation of his behavior to be about his disinterest in me, specifically. My friends didn't know the difference, though- so they took what I said literally, and kept repeating that he was bad for me, he wasn't interested, I should move on etc. Basically, it was a feedback loop of negativity that stemmed from my frustrations and triggers about romance.
I still tried, of course, and we went on a nice date, but still only after I had let these negative beliefs flood my conscious and subconscious. It's not surprising then a few weeks later things started slowing down with him and eventually, I couldn't even tell if he liked me or even wanted to be friends. Cue crying in the club literally. Then both of us moved away, putting a pause on the situation, but I'm still manifesting that we're friends again.
Ironically this triggering situation is what got me back into a routine of law of assumption meditation and other techniques. But had I been more aware of my own triggers it would have turned out better.
Personally, it had been a while since I had a major crush on someone, (I honestly was not expecting to meet someone I liked that much) so my mental discipline went out the window and my anxiety and fears came back full force.
So what can we take from this?
Be aware if you are manifesting something that you know triggers you. This can be anything- finances, family behavior, grades. I believe this is the main reason why people find it hard to manifest "big" things- nothing is "big" in reality, we simply have mental patterns that we need to reverse. Be prepared to calm your nervous system, or as Dylan James puts it. "nervous system regulation." Don't let your manifestation go one step forwards and then put it two steps back.
Don't talk about negative circumstances. Hell, don't talk about anything, again, that could trigger you, because your friends/family whoever might do just that even if things are going positively. Remember that most people have limiting beliefs and fears they will happily project onto you if you give them a chance.
Most people's behavior has nothing to do with you. Don't take it personally if someone isn't behaving how you would expect. Assume that your SP likes you, your friends like you, and try not to react to unexpected actions or changes in communication. Everything is working in your favor.
Stay positive, you got this.
