#spentheart

[mskenn]

When I was a young child, doing this was super fun. I didn’t understand the magic behind mirrors. So the thought of there being multiple “me’s” was super exciting.

It’s crazy that once upon a time I did not fear a mirror. That it didn’t give me instant anxiety. Or fill my head with doubts...

Try and enjoy the things that once made you happy. Even if it’s as simple as looking in a mirror.

I love you all.

[mskenn]

I love being in new places. Not that Texas is really new for me. But every time I’ve visited, it’s been such a new experience. I love how different it is compared to where I’m from. Some good some bad. As I write this, I’m asking myself why I enjoy the change so much. Why the people and surroundings being so uncomfortable makes me I guess...comfortable? I’m not quite sure how to put the feeling into words. But I did my best 💘

[mskenn]

Why am I such a sucker for the sad and lonely, emo, punk boys that aren’t emotionally capable of loving me.

Ughhh.

God damnit.

[mskenn]

I just want to feel like what I’m feeling is normal.

You know?

[mskenn]

The words “what” and “if” are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.

What if?

[mskenn]

8/14/2020

it’s hard to describe how i feel nowadays.

I cant tell if i feel everything. 

Or nothing at all. 

Why can’t i tell them apart?

[mskenn]

The VERY best thing. 🖤🤘🏼

[mskenn]

9/15/2018 An old journal entry....

Craving the feeling of being held once again.. Just to have your arms around me, with those brown eyes looking only at me...makes me feel so special, like nothing ever could go wrong because you were here with me. our brokenness is what brought us together. We can hold each other up. Steer our ship together, just you and me. We would never feel alone again. Just our love and our journey. Man...what a dream that would be.