i love you, im sorry 🕸 - T.M, spiderman AU
summary: your boyfriend saved new york but couldn't end up saving the one thing person he really wanted.
warnings: death, she/her pronouns used
a/n: rewatched tasm, i had the motivation to write something based off gwen's death which is still as heartbreaking as it used to be for 6 year old me. also you guys should like go follow my second account cause i almost forgot the password to this account.... @skysdiiary
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"travis?" you shouted. he laid on the ground, surrounded by debris. you slowly stepped out from the building and watched as he slowly rose and looked up into the sky. a figure flew around.. all you saw were flashes of green. you already know who it is now.
"stay there." travis held his hand out. you watched as the green goblin flew down and stood in front of travis. turns out the green goblin was harry. the same harry who used to be travis's best friend. he turned and looked back at you before turning back to travis. all you could do was stand there and let the cool wind blow around your face.
harry looked at travis with a malicious smile on his face. "travis. when you said spiderman said no. you meant you said no." he growled.
"harry what did you do?" travis asked his former friend.
"what you made me do. you were my friend. and you betrayed me!" harry grunted in reply.
"no. i was trying to protect you. it wasn't supposed to turn out like this." travis tried to argue.
"oh? look at me!" harry laughed.
"it's gonna be okay. it's gonna be alright, harry."
"you don't give people hope. you take it away. now i'm gonna take away yours." harry said before turning round and grabbing you.
"run!" travis yelled at you. as soon as you turned to run, harry grabbed you and flew off, while travis shot out a web to go after you and harry.
harry flew around the clock tower with you in his arms. your fear of heights didn't make this any better.
"harry put her down!" travis called out while he shot out webs in an attempt to pull you back. harry dodged the cobwebs and stopped in one place hovering a few meters above travis. all you could think about is what would happen if you fell now. the fall is definitely fatal. a broken neck, head trauma, and if you somehow survived the fall, permanent brain damage. if travis doesn't catch you, you have no chance of survival. you were torn from your thoughts when you heard travis' pleading voice.
"harry, just put her down! stop it right now! this isn't you."
you looked down at travis before looking at harry. "harry. harry, you don't have to do this." you plead.
"harry is dead!" he snarled at you. your jaw clenched as you looked at him with teary eyes.
"harry this is between you and me. you wanna fight? fight me! she has nothing to do with this. let her go!"
"okay." harry said calmly before dropping you. suddenly all you felt was the wind rushing through your body. your heart was racing wildly. you felt paralyzed.
"no!" travis grabbed you just in time for you both to fall through the glass and land on the giant gears inside the clock tower. you felt shards of glass cut the skin on your face. travis had his arms wrapped around you as you lay on top of him. you were breathing heavily, trying to convince yourself that you were safe as your heart raced from what had just happened. your life had quite literally flashed before your eyes.
"hey. you okay?" he asked you.
"mm-mm." you shake your head no quickly. suddenly, a thud is heard right next to you. both of you turning to see an orange bomb flashing and buzzing rapidly. travis rolls you both over, and holds a hand behind your head to protect it. unfortunately the bomb explodes and destroys the gears nearly sending you plummeting to your death (again.) before travis catches your hand.
"i got you. i'm gonna put you down right here." travis shot out a web and lowered you onto a moving device. you looked up and saw harry catch travis before he turned to dodge him. he shot out several webs trying to stop harry from killing you both
"fuck." you mutter before jumping onto another, much smaller cog. your shoe almost getting caught in between the two cogs, which would have ended badly. you'd prefer to still have both feet still in tact when this is all over and you're still alive. your eyes look around to see if you can find anything that might help before you hear a thud from above. you look up to see the glider harry was riding on crashing down directly onto the mechanical cog you're standing on. several gears broke beneath you and for a second you fell back into the sinking doom again before travis shot out a net that connected with your hand. he tried to pull you up quickly before harry appeared out of nowhere and attacked him. you felt yourself falling a few more feet before you came to a halt. you saw the two boys start to fight again. harry pinning travis down and stepping on travis's hand, which was holding the same web you were holding onto. the moving cog they were both on got stuck by a pipe. that's good. right?
harry pulls out a knife and tries to stab travis before he dodged the attack. you were still holding on to the thin web. there wasn't much you can do other than dangle there and hope the net doesn't break. you look up again and see harry's hand wrapped around travis' neck as he's getting strangled by travis' webs. the same pipe that stopped the movement of the gear snapped in half and you watch as it falls down, almost hitting you in the head. the net getting caught in between two large cogs.
"shit i don't think that's good." you mumbled to yourself. travis looked down at you before sticking his foot between the two large gears to try and to stop them from moving. both gears resisted against his foot. the net you were still clinging onto began to wobble. travis looked back down towards you.
"travis?" you called out. suddenly the teeth between travis' foot broke allowing the other cogs to move again, snapping the web in half. you let out a small gasp as you felt yourself falling. harry was pulled across the tower and thrown into a bunch of barrels. travis turned quickly. he felt as if everything was happening in slow motion as he watched you fall. broken gears fell past you as you watched travis shoot out his web to catch you. you could only close your eyes and hope he would catch you before you fell to the ground. you hoped would see his face when you open them again. except they didn't.
travis held onto a pole with his web in hand. he couldn't see if you were safe and alive. please say you were. your voice didn't call out to him saying that you're okay. you didn't say anything. travis attached his web to the pole he was holding onto before jumping down and seeing your body hanging.
"no. no. damn it. hey? hey come on. come on, you need to open your eyes." travis took off his and pulled the web off that was connected to your body off. he held your limp body in his arms and sat down on the floor.
"hey. hey? come on. you're okay. you're okay." travis said as he placed a hand on your face. tears welled up in his eyes. don't do that. he shouldn't be crying because you're okay. right? right.?
"come on. don't do this. stay with me. stay with me - fuck." travis watched the blood start to come out of your nose and run down your face.
"no. please. please. just open your eyes. please." he begged, tears streaming down his face before he buried his head in your chest.
"i can't do this without you. i love you. im sorry." he mumbled into your chest. your father was right. he warned travis to leave you alone. to keep you out of whatever or whoever spiderman was fighting. he should have left you alone. if he had distanced himself like he should have, this would never have happened. you would still be alive and well. you wouldn't be lying limp in his arms. now he has to watch your mom and siblings grieve for you because he couldn't leave you alone. maybe it would have been okay for both of you if he had just never wanted to fucking play superhero and become spiderman. you guys could've would've been okay.
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a/n²: did u guys like this (say yes because i thought this was ass when i reread it)