#spilled darkness

[sacredwilderness]

I lie here

on the darkened patch

of earth

feeling its hum

penetrate my bones

I'm an offering to the night

My skin exposed

within the

cooling of the air

My eyes trace each star

hoping to see a reflection

But all I catch are more

wishes

The ones I make when I'm alone

and I think of you

My Moon mother

watches over my

milky form

as my hand

reaches for

tufts of grass

to hold on to

to stop myself

from falling apart

My need is real

as real as my

bleeding heart

that longs to

be against

his own

A shudder runs

through me

I'm alive

I know because

I ache

[endlesswordsonapage]

I drowned in the intensity of your eyes and the beauty of your smile. Had I been looking, past the angelic face I would have seen the blackness in your heart and escaped the thinly veiled cruelty right from the very start. Instead, now I am here praying for the return of your sweet, trusting veneer to see a semblance of forgotten humanity not this unjust insanity. Please, let me see that terrible version of you the one that makes promises and then breaks me in two. For, at least with the monster I know where I stand no tricks, no games no gestures pre-planned. But, that other you the one you keep at bay the one that certainly knows how to unreservedly play. Bring forth that side of you, I demand it now! For, I will not allow another second to pass by while you attempt to make me needlessly cry. On the contrary, I keenly revel in the only victory I can seek when you foolishly cave to the order I gave as you continue to believe all power remains with one so weak. You do not see what you have done when you show me the symbol, the reminder of where this all began. For it is that face that I now memorize the features, the lines as I calmly plot and plan your agonizing demise. Why, it should come as no true surprise for, just as you thought I would take your secrets to the silent grave it is now your blood that I desperately crave.

Vengeance is Mine

[sacredwilderness]

My sword is dipped in the blood of the past

now turns to rust in the present

Do you see her, this woman

in the red reflection?

The stains on my hands

are from this life

[sacredwilderness]

A woman of the moon

As night falls

She begins her metamorphosis

A changeling perhaps or

something more strange

Something more feral in nature

Eyes, lit with stars

aglow as flames

Wild

She runs and hides

as not to be found

but to always be watching

The nocturnal feminine

is seeking the unusual,

the beautiful and rare

as her own hearts

fluttering

Creatures like herself

[sacredwilderness]

One of the hardest lessons I'm learning in my life

How to love with an open hand

How to love by letting go

God damn it-

I feel as though it's going to kill me

like I've felt so many times before

How do you let go of someone or something you love with all your heart?

You must love in such a way that the person feels free

Ok universe, but I'm dying

every second of every fucking moment

One must not step in front of the bus, one must step aside and let the momentum of the pendulum take its course

. . . .

If it's yours it will return, if not

it won't

[sacredwilderness]

I see you sitting there

acting all fine like you've never experienced being gutted by the sharp knife of grief

C'mon

You cannot tell me you've not been abandoned by someone or something, somewhere at some point?

Life's navigation into the void of despair must surely have come to pick you up by now?

See:

we are more connected than you know

[sacredwilderness]

Oh let's romanticize pain

and call it love

[sacredwilderness]

Love for me has never been a simple thing

Love has hurt more

Left more gore

than I've ever known

People think that love is honeycomb

moments of blissful infatuation

Untruth

Love has left more wounds and scars

than it ever tasted sweet