Just a lil something I made for @beta-gamma-delta as a response to something she said in the Discord hehe
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Just a lil something I made for @beta-gamma-delta as a response to something she said in the Discord hehe
AKA Spinel calls you all tf out
Spinel takes you out for a nice dinner date... but halfway through, she decides she wants to play.
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Hey all! I know it’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted a lengthy audio. Sorry about that, the holidays + seasonal depression shit took their toll on me pretty hard. So this may not be my best voice work, but this is the first audio I’ve ever written a whole script for rather than just improving! Hope you guys enjoy, and I hope to have more audios coming out soon!
Don’t push me.
Thank you to the lovely @knifebean for providing these lines hehe 💜
Pas de Deux Ch. 10, Epilogue: Here We Are In The Future
+pairing: Spinel x fem!Reader +genre: Drama, romance, angst, slow burn, enemies to friends to lovers +warnings: none +word count: 7.8K +Chapter 10 / 10 previous || FIN
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Authors Note: Well, here we are, guys. 61 thousand+ words later, the end of Pas de Deux. So, again, thank you. And enjoy this last chapter of Pas de Deux <3
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The weeks following your return hadn’t exactly been easy. Everyone needed a while to adjust... especially Spinel. Bismuth had been kind enough to offer Spinel an apartment in Little Homeworld, but... well, she wasn’t quite ready to be on her own yet, especially around so many strangers. Not that you could blame her, of course. You knew there would need to be a time in the future where she worked on these things, but for now you were happy to get her through the hardest parts. So for now she had been staying in your little summer rental just off the boardwalk. It was downright cozy, and god was it nice to sleep in a bed again. In fact, after everything had been settled after those first few days back, you and spinel had barely left the apartment. You spent a lot of time catching up on sleep and hygiene, and Spinel seemed to spend her time... relishing in the fact that she could be there, holding you.
After a week or so, you had decided you needed to pick up the café job once more in order to be a basic human adult and pay rent. Thankfully both your landlord and boss had been forgiving about the whole being kidnapped situation, and gratefully your boss took you back on board. It took a little bit to get back in the swing of things, but you adjusted pretty well. And surprisingly, Spinel had begun to adjust too. You had been concerned with what she would do while you were working shifts, especially longer ones. But she was perfectly content to accompany you, sitting at a table in the corner, perusing through a book from your apartment or learning how to use your phone that you would lend her if she didn’t feel like reading (a phone Greg had graciously paid for a week or so after your return, despite your protests- you had lost it sometime between the injector flooding the city and Spinel grabbing you).
There were times you could tell she felt awkward, especially if Steven or one of the other Crystal Gems came in. Though it was usually just Steven or Amethyst, as Garnet and Pearl still seemed hell-bent on avoiding the two of you. Whenever Steven or Amethyst came in, you could see Spinel visibly recoil, trying to hide herself even further into the corner of the room. You often wondered if Steven would ever try to talk to Spinel... or if anyone would, for that matter.
Fortunately, you hadn’t had to worry about that for too long. It probably shouldn’t have surprised you that Lapis, Bismuth and Peridot- AKA the “Attack Steven” team- had been fairly quick to forgive Spinel after all was said and done. Once Little Homeworld construction had finished, they had started visiting the café, and Peridot was quite quick to notice Spinel there every time they came in. Eventually they had all started sitting down with her for a few hours, a couple times a week. From what Spinel told you, it seemed like they mostly talked about Earth things; Peridot insisting on showing the pink Gem how the phone worked, even though you had already taught her a lot of the basics. But you could tell Spinel was perfectly happy to let them talk to her and show her things- you could imagine it was a huge relief that she wasn’t being shunned completely.
It was such a great feeling to see her there, while you were working, whether she was alone or with the New CG’s. Especially during busier times... you would glance up at her, and she would meet your eyes and give a smile, and your heart would start pounding so loudly you were sure the customers in line could hear it. You’d catch her staring at you sometimes too, when she thought you were busy. It was nice to know that even back here, around everyone, she still cared for you like she had on your island of paradise.
And honestly, that’s how you had come to think of your stay with Spinel. It hadn’t begun in the best of ways, and there were definitely hardships, but... you couldn’t help but be secretly grateful that she’d chosen to take you to that island. Despite everything, she had grown from the experience, and you had learned just how much you meant to each other. You could see why the others would be weirded out by it...but you didn’t care. It was still new, especially being back in Beach City- but you were learning together, like you’d promised.
As the weeks went on, and Spinel followed you around to your shifts, you couldn’t help but start to grow worried that she might be becoming too attached. You didn’t mind having her around of course, but you knew you had to establish boundaries early on. There was always a concern in the back of your mind that she would start to view you like she viewed Pink Diamond, and not as an equal...
Luckily, Spinel solved the issue herself, before you even had to mention it. One day as she walked with you to work in the early morning, she stopped short outside the café, gazing up at the overhanging sign above the shop.
“Spins? Everything all right?” you had asked, turning back once you had noticed she stopped.
“Y-yeah, I just... I don’t know if I want to sit around all day today,” she replied, sounding slightly put off by the prospect.
“Oh! Hey, that’s totally fine! Spinel, you don’t have to wait around for me for all of my shifts... I thought you were doing it because you were too nervous to walk around on your own, honestly.”
“Well, at first that’s what it was... plus I wanted to be close to ya,” she said with a wink, snaking an arm around your shoulders and pulling you closer.
“But after a while I just... thought it made you feel better, having me around where you can see me? And make sure I’m not... doin’ anything I shouldn’t be doing, or somethin’,” she continued, mumbling the last part slightly.
“Hmm... well, I understand where you’re coming from,” you had replied tentatively, wanting to phrase everything correctly, “but I do trust you, just so you know. And I don’t want you to feel like you’re stuck in one place- or that I’m making you wait for me.”
You gave her a pointed look, and she gave a nervous smile in return, removing her arm from your shoulders to scratch the back of her head.
“Heh, you’re not making me wait, doll. It’s just my own conflicting feelings getting' the better of me I guess. But!” she interjected suddenly, causing you to startle slightly, “Now that I’ve told ya, think it would be ok for me to check out some other places around town? Bismuth has been wantin’ me to visit Little Homeworld so they can show me around properly, and take me to that apartment they reserved for me. I still want to stay with you if that’s ok... but it would be neat to see everything!”
She beamed down at you with gleaming eyes, an excited grin growing on her face the more she talked.
“How can I say no to that face?” you had replied, reaching up to kiss her cheek. “That sounds fun, Spins. Really, you should feel free to do whatever you want with your time! And on my next day off we can explore together?”
“Of course! Peridot and the others want to show you around, too!”
You raised your eyebrows at this- it was the first you had heard of it. Before everything had happened, Amethyst had been the one to suggest giving you a tour... but aside from her slightly stilted visits to the café, you hadn’t heard about her wanting to continue that plan. So hearing that the New Crystal Gems wanted to show you around... well, if the others were going to snub you, maybe you could find a new friend group to hang out with.
“I’d love that,” you replied earnestly, taking her hand in yours to give it a quick squeeze. “But alas, for now I must go work. And you go have fun!”
Spinel grinned once more, and gave you a quick tight hug before racing off down the boardwalk. “Have a good day, doll! I love you!”
Your heart had leapt at her words- you would never get tired of hearing that sentence from her. Since that first time you had said it to each other, it had been used sparingly. You suspected Spinel didn’t want to diminish the meaning of the words by saying it so often, and you were fine taking things slow in that regard. Still... your heart swelled with more love for her with each passing day, more than you ever thought possible.
You shook your head and smiled, watching her figure retreat into the distance. Time for another long shift... hopefully the lack of Spinel wouldn’t have much of an effect on the day.
From then on, for the next few weeks, Spinel would walk you to work whenever you had a shift, send you off with a hug and a kiss, and then just... live her life. She often went to Little Homeworld, especially when you had a morning shift and got off in the afternoon. But the few times you had an evening shift, you would get off work and find a text from her waiting:
On the beach. Can’t wait to see you.
Every time you saw that text- and it was always the same- your heart soared. Months ago, you couldn’t have imagined that such a simple thing would send you into such a state, but... Spinel was special. God, was she special.
After you found her on the beach on those nights, the two of you would just sit and hold each other, watching the waves, or the lingering beach goers, or often times staying to watch the sun set. Spinel couldn’t seem to get enough of you during these moments- she would position you between her legs, letting you lean back on her. She would shudder and sigh when your back rested on her gem, and even though it was uncomfortable sometimes, you knew this level of contact meant so much to her, so you happily sat through the slight discomfort. If it meant making your girl happy... you’d do anything.
As you sat in silence, your mind would often wander to the future, though you had been trying to avoid stressing about it for the most part. But the end of summer was coming up- you had a little less than a month left before you’d have to go back to Empire City to finish off your senior year of college. Part of you wanted to just... skip it all, and live here with the Gems, and more importantly, with Spinel. But you knew you had to do this, and besides, you were pretty passionate about what you were majoring in.
Tonight was one such night- you'd had an evening shift, and had met Spinel on the beach as usual, finding her near the surf looking for shells. The instant she saw you her eyes brightened, and the backdrop of the setting sun made her almost glow. Your heart felt so full as you settled into the sand for your routine, Spinel encircling her arms around you and letting you get comfortable.
But as the time passed, your mind drifted to thoughts of the future once more, stressing about all the change that was going to happen. You let out an unconscious sigh, sinking further into Spinel’s embrace. She leaned her head down onto your shoulder, planting a kiss on your cheek.
“You all right doll? You’re rather pensive tonight,” she remarks, whispering softly next to your ear.
“Ah, I’m fine, hon, don’t worry about me. Just a long day,” you fib. You could hold off talk about the future for a little while longer... you had time. Just not as much of it as you would like.
“Mmm... ok. I love you,” she replies, nuzzling into the crook of your neck. You shiver at the closeness, and at her words. You let the calm wash over you and clear your thoughts, deciding to not stress about things you can’t control. It was just you and Spinel tonight, and you were perfectly content with that.
The next morning, Spinel walks you to work as normal, and you expect her to rush off to Little Homeworld as usual- her and the New CG’s had become quite close, which you loved. You still hadn’t had the opportunity to go see them between work and spending alone time with Spinel, but you were hoping to change that before the summer ended.
Today though, Spinel seemed to linger longer than normal, holding you tight to her chest.
“Spinel? You all right?” you ask, muffled by her body pressed to you.
“Huh? Oh, yeah, sorry doll. Just uh... mind if I sit in the café again today? You’ve been working so much lately and I kinda miss ya...”
Your heart swells and you squeeze the pink Gem tighter before pulling back to look up at her.
“Of course you can, hon. You can do whatever you feel like, you know that. Besides, I’ve been missing you too a bit. I always love when you hang out here.”
You grin at each other, and walk in together. You give Spinel’s hand a quick squeeze before heading to the back to get ready for the day. Luckily today was a shorter shift, even if it was an early one- only about five hours, so you’d be out by the afternoon. Plenty of time to spend the rest of the day with your favorite person.
You busy yourself cleaning and getting the machines ready for the inevitable rush of customers that will show up soon. You watch Spinel take her usual place in the corner, pulling out a book stored in her Gem. You smile at the sight, face flushing when she glances up to meet your eyes and give you a radiant smile in return.
Not wanting to be reprimanded for being distracted, you turn back to what you had been doing, and sure enough, more and more customers start trickling in for the morning rush. The time thankfully passes quickly, and by the time the rush slows, you’re halfway through your shift. The bell dings as the last customer for the time being leaves, and you slump against the counter, hanging your head down for a moment. While the influx of customers may help time pass, it’s definitely hard work.
The bell dings once more, signaling someone else entering the shop. You groan quietly before lifting your head, prepared to give a cheery greeting.
“Y/n!”
Steven exclaims happily before you can say anything, and you grin at the teenager, before your eyes slip past him to the threshold where three more Gems enter.
“Oh...hi, guys!” you call out awkwardly, before your gaze flicks to Spinel, who has turned her head away from the front of the store, a slight blush on her face. You can only hope she’s okay with seeing all of the Crystal Gem’s in the same place at once...
“Do you have a minute?” Steven asks, shooting you a hopeful smile.
You nod and take off your apron, and let your coworkers know that you’re taking your break now. You walk around to the other side of the counter and motion them over to the side of the store, waiting to hear what they have to say.
“Hello, Y/n. We just wanted to stop by to tell you about the party we’re having on the beach tonight,” Garnet says softly, “and to invite you to join us.”
“A-and Spinel too!” Amethyst interjects, glancing over to the pink Gem in the corner. Spinel jolts at the mention of her name, and stands up slowly, slinking her way to the front to stand next to you. You notice she avoids meeting anyone’s eyes, until she takes your hand and seems to gain some courage from your presence.
“Why now?” she asks, voice lower than normal. You raise your eyebrows and squeeze her hand as a warning- you don’t want to cause any more of a rift between you and the Gems.
“Everyone’s coming who can make it, and...well, I haven’t gotten to throw one of these parties for a while. Y/n, you’ve been to a few of them I think?” Steven replies, giving you a small smile.
You return it and nod, trying to be as relaxed as possible. “Yeah, and that was back before we had so many new people and Gems in town... this must be a pretty big party you’re planning!”
You glance up to Spinel and she meets your eyes, her gaze softening slightly.
“It sounds really fun, Steven. I know I want to go... what about you, Spins?” you ask her.
She meets the eyes of each Gem in turn, before looking to Steven last, who wears a hopeful look.
“Yeah...yeah, let’s go,” Spinel sighs, conceding finally. You catch a small smile on her face as everyone celebrates quickly before heading out.
“She must have been relieved to be included,” you muse, watching her watch the Gems leave. You turn your gaze from Spinel to Pearl as you notice her linger in the doorway, back turned. She hadn’t said a word this whole time, mostly keeping to the back behind Garnet.
But she turns back to face you before leaving, and simply says, “I’m...glad you’re coming. Both of you.”
Before you can reply, she darts out quickly, leaving the café empty once more except for the workers and Spinel.
You sigh and turn to your girlfriend, who is staring at the front door.
“You all right?” you ask softly, circling your arms around her waist and gazing up at her.
“Y-yeah, just... hadn’t expected all of ‘em to show up for the invitation,” she replies, still gazing absentmindedly to the front of the store.
You tilt your head quizzically. “Did you know we were gonna be invited?” you ask.
She finally tears her gaze back to you and raises her brows. “Oh! Well, yeah, Peri and the others mentioned it a few days ago...Sorry, I didn’t think to tell you. I guess I just figured Steven would just tell you while getting his coffee, or somethin’.”
You smile and shake your head, taking a couple steps to stand next to her. “I’m not mad or anything. I’m glad you weren’t surprised by it for the most part, and I’m glad you agreed to go!”
You turn to her and take her hands, being sure to look her right in the eyes. “I know this is a big step for you, love. For both of us. We haven’t... exactly been a couple around everyone yet, but I’m excited to show everyone how much I love you...”
Suddenly Spinel pulls you in tight, causing your face to almost smash against her gem. Luckily you react in time and move your head over. The hazards of dating a Gem...
“That means so much to me, Y/n. Thank you. I want... I want to be braver for you. You make me want to try.”
You press your face into her shoulder, trying to hold back the tears that her words threaten to bring. You’re at work, after all. No crying on the job.
Once you’ve calmed yourself in her embrace, you pull back and beam up at the Gem you’ve come to love.
“You’re already the bravest person I know, Spinel.”
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That night, after getting ready at your apartment in your nicest summer clothes (and after working through some of the butterflies with Spinel), the two of you head over to the other side of town. Steven always throws a great end of summer party, but you are not prepared for the sight you see as you round the corner.
A giant dance floor lays on the sand, much like the one present for Garnet’s wedding way back when. Not that you had been there, since you had still been finishing up college finals at the time, but you had seen pictures and heard Steven talk about it enthusiastically.
But this...this was much bigger. In front of the dance floor was a stage set up with all the latest equipment, where Sour Cream was currently DJing- and by the looks of it, Sadie Killer would be coming on at some point later. A little ways from the music area, Greg, Lapis, and Peridot were helping set up the food station, which looked to be a giant buffet accompanied by some good old fashioned barbeque. Your mouth waters with the smells that waft over to you on the sea breeze.
“Whaddya say, doll? Wanna go mingle?” Spinel asks, taking your hand.
“She’s definitely different from the scared and angry Gem I first met...” you think happily. You nod in response and she leads you past the dance floor towards Lapis and Peridot, who turn and smile as they see the two of you approaching.
“Spinel! Y/n! You’re just in time for sustenance!” Peridot calls out in her raspy voice.
“Oh yeah? What do you guys have for us today?” you ask, greeting them with a smile.
“Just the basics, stuff we normally like to grow. Corn, potatoes, the usual,” Lapis answers, “and I think Greg and Steven are working on the main courses on the grill!”
“Yeah, it smells delicious!” you reply with a grin, glancing past the buffet table to the multiple grills set up that the father and son are manning (with the help of a few other Gems).
“Maybe I’ll finally try some food,” Spinel banters, half-joking. “Really though, it all looks so... fun! Nothing like the few Homeworld balls I got to go to...”
Lapis scoffs and rolls her eyes good naturedly. “Well, trust me. You’ll have much more fun here. But it can get pretty loud and busy. So don’t feel bad if you get overwhelmed- I know I did the first few times we did something like this.”
Spinel nods and looks gratefully at her new friend. “Thanks, Lapis. Still, I’m pretty excited to check everything out...”
She trails off and eyes the dance floor, making you chuckle.
“All right, dork, you wanna dance?” you ask fondly. She nods eagerly and starts to pull you away.
“We’ll talk to you later, guys!” you call to Lapis and Peridot as Spinel drags you off. They share a knowing glance and wave, leaving you to follow Spinel.
“Kinda eager, aren’t we?” you ask, raising an eyebrow as Spinel leads you to the base of the stage.
“Well... last time we were at a concert together, I wasn’t exactly myself. And I didn’t get to dance with ya,” she replies, bending down to whisper close to your ear, “and you just look so damn good in that outfit... I wanna show everyone you’re mine, dollface.”
You flush immediately, and pull back to look up at Spinel.
“H-hey now, no teasing...” you reply, ducking your face away from her gaze.
“Heh. Fine,” she smirks, clearly happy with your reaction. “But I still wanna dance with you, toots.”
She grabs your hands and spins you to face her once more, a grin on her face that is entirely too smug for your liking. You roll your eyes, but can’t help but smile. It’s nice to see her putting herself out there, after all. Even if it means suffering a little PDA.
The two of you dance to Sour Cream’s techno rave beats for a while, though you wouldn’t consider yourself much of a dancer. Spinel seems to think otherwise, though. She smiles happily every time you let yourself get lost in the music, and eventually you stop caring about what anyone thinks. Spinel does her own form of dance, being the limber Gem that she is. She tries to copy some of your moves, and actually succeeds with the majority of them, probably making it look better than you could. Well. She is an entertainer, after all.
Around the twenty minute mark you’re starting to get a bit sweaty (and hungry), but luckily Sour Cream announces a break in the music- Steven has just informed him that the barbeque is ready. You and Spinel rush over with about half of the guests from the dance floor, mostly all human, and get in line for a plate.
“Damn, this looks amazing!”
You turn at the gravelly voice that sounds out behind you and grin.
“Hey Amethyst! Fancy seeing you here!”
The purple Gem nudges you and winks before saying, “And who’s your hot date, huh?”
Spinel flushes a deep magenta and shifts behind you, as if trying to hide. Not that she’s hidden at all- she's a good head taller than you.
You glance over your shoulder and give her what you hope to be a comforting smile. “She’s just teasing, Spins. She knows you’re mine.”
You turn back to Amethyst and cock an eyebrow. “Right?”
“Pff. Duh, nerd! Once you get past the whole trying to destroy the earth thing...and the kidnapping thing... you guys are pretty cute together.”
“Y-yeah?” Spinel asks tentatively, stepping back to your side once again and clasping your hand in hers.
“Yeah! I saw you on the dance floor. You were really tearing it up. Both of you,” Amethyst replies with a laugh. “Spinel, you gotta teach me your moves some time. Maybe later tonight?”
She smiles calmly up at Spinel, whose eyes widen as she grins hesitantly back at the purple Gem.
“I think you’ll have to loosen up a bit more,” she replies, wiggling her arms with a grin, “but... I could give it a try.”
The two continue talking, with Spinel sounding more and more confident as the conversation goes on. The chat continues as the line for food moves up inch by inch, and your heart swells watching them talk. You’re so glad at least one of the Crystal Gems is making an effort. A few years ago you would have expected Pearl or Steven to be the first to approach the two of you in this sort of situation, but... Amethyst has matured amazingly in these past few years.
Speaking of Pearl...
Your mind drifts to thoughts of your once closest friend, and your eyes search the party, unsure if you’re hoping to find her or not. Your stomach jolts as you spot her on the other side of the beach, chatting with... a Pink Pearl? You hadn’t seen her around before; she must be a new arrival. You’re about to turn back to Spinel and Amethyst, when Pearl’s eyes find yours, and your stomach jolts once more. Her eyes widen and her face flushes a light blue, and she quickly turns back towards the Pink Pearl, but glances at you every few seconds.
“Shit. I guess I gotta talk to her now. Can't avoid it forever...”
You sigh and step between Spinel and Amethyst, who are still happily chatting away.
“Guys, I gotta... go do something alone real quick. Spins, hold my place in line please? And if you reach the food before I get back, uh... just grab me some chicken or something.”
You reach up to give her a quick peck on the cheek, and stalk off towards Pearl before nerves can get the better of you. You have no idea what you’re going to say or how she’ll react- she could barely look at you this morning when they all showed up to invite you to the party. You don’t know if she’s still mad, or just upset, or shy... whatever it is, this needs to stop. You don’t want to leave for school in a few weeks without fixing things between you two.
“...And another time, Greg tried to fuse with Rose- uh, Pink. It was quite the sight, at the time we didn’t think fusions between Gems and humans were possible. Steven proved us wrong with that too, as he has with so many other-”
You walk up to the Pearls, trying to be as non-invasive as possible.. You catch the tail end of some story Pearl is telling, which halts the second she spots you. Once again her face flushes, and she places a hand on her hip, clearly trying to show an air of confidence.
“Volleyball, why don’t you go find Steven and the others? I’ll...catch up with you later.”
Pink Pearl- Volleyball?- nods quickly and brushes past you, giving a small smile and a nod before she leaves.
“Volleyball, huh? That’s an... interesting nickname, even for a Gem.”
“Oh, Steven thought of it a few days ago...” Pearl replies with a roll of the eyes, “not his best, but I’ll come up with something better eventually. Can’t exactly call her ‘Pink’.
“Guess not,” you say awkwardly, halting the conversation. You stand there a moment, just fidgeting, willing the right words to enter your head.
“Y/n-”
“Pearl-”
You both start at the same time, interrupting the other simultaneously. You both giggle awkwardly, and you feel the tension ease, somewhat.
You sigh and start speaking first. “Pearl, listen, I... I can somewhat understand why you were shocked when I came back with Spinel the way I did. I know it seemed like I was defending all her past actions and just writing off all the wrong she did but I promise that’s not the case. I really struggled with it for a while on the island, and I’m not saying she’s perfect, but... she wants to learn, and grow, and change. Just like all the other Homeworld Gems who have showed up since Steven dismantled the empire. And she’s making the effort, she’s made giant steps these past few weeks. Can’t you just-”
Pearl cuts you off with a tight hug, almost startling you enough to make you cry out in surprise. But you keep it together enough to finish your thought.
“Can’t you just give us a chance?”
Pearl stays still for a moment, arms still wrapped tightly around you. A few years ago this would have had you blushing like mad, but now you’re just confused.
“Oh, Y/n... I was never mad at you. And I haven’t been upset with Spinel for a while now, either. Not after watching how happy she makes you. I was just...”
She pulls back finally, hands still on your shoulders. You’re surprised to see tears forming in her eyes, which she wipes away quickly before you can comment.
“I was just so worried about you, that first day you came back with her,” Pearl continues, “I had no idea if she’d manipulated you into caring for her, or if she had hurt you somehow... and then I gravely misunderstood what you were trying to tell me. I made her- and you- so upset.”
She sighs and takes a step back, dropping her arms. “The reason I haven’t been... around... I was just too ashamed, I suppose. I was brash with my assumptions when you got back, and knowing how Spinel probably still feels about me, I thought it was best I keep my distance. But mostly I was just embarrassed.”
She stops speaking, though she seems like she wants to say more but can’t find the words. Her eyes are downcast to the sand, her gaze searching the grains for what to say next.
“I guess I should just say... I’m sorry, Y/n. I never meant to hurt you or Spinel. And I’m sorry I got angry with you when you first got back.”
Your heart lifts at her (admittedly long overdue) apology. Finally- this was all you had wanted to hear. You had stopped being upset with her a while ago, but you had wanted her to make the first apology, so you’d waited for her to come to you. It seemed that just wasn’t her way- habits were hard to break after thousands of years of keeping them. But still.
“Pearl... it’s okay. Really. I can appreciate the fact that you were worried for me... and trust me, I know how it looked when my... kidnapper and I rode back into town holding hands. I can't fully explain It, but even before she took me it felt like we were connected, somehow. Even when she was rejuvenated. I just... can you trust me that being with her is my choice?”
Pearl nods, tears once again forming in her eyes. She’s always been an easy crier.
“Of c-course, Y/n. I just want you both to be happy. Spinel... after what Rose did to her, she deserves that much.”
“You’re damn right.”
Both you and Pearl jump slightly as a voice sounds out of nowhere, and you turn to see Spinel approaching with a plate of food.
“Sorry doll, just didn’t want your food to get cold or anythin’,” Spinel continues, moving to stand next to you. "Besides, I... wanted to come chat with ya.” She looks to Pearl, whose gaze flickers between the two of you.
“O-oh, well, that’s fine! It’s nice to see you again, Spinel,” Pearl replies nervously.
“Well, ya don’t have to lie, but thanks all the same.” Spinel’s accent grows heavier, something you’ve noticed that happens when she becomes emotional in some form.
Pearl sigh and crosses her arms, slightly agitated by the provocation. “I’m not lying... I was just talking to Y/n about everything that’s happened. And how... I’m glad you two are together. Really.”
Spinel hands you the plate which you take quickly, catching the determined look in her eyes. She takes a few steps to stand face to face with Pearl, and you briefly wonder if she’s going to start something again-
But Spinel holds out her hand, mimicking something you’d taught her a few weeks back for meeting new humans.
“Thank you, Pearl. And I just wanna say... I’m sorry for what I did, too. Kinda probably worse than you bein’ upset with me and Y/n, here, but... I appreciate you trying. I just want you to know I’m trying too. I know you and Y/n were close in the past, and I don’t wanna stand between that or anything. So... friends?”
Pearl stares hopefully up at Spinel for a moment before taking her hand gently in her own.
“Friends.”
After a few awkward smiles, the three of you head back over to rejoin everyone, something you’re very grateful for. You’re not sure if you could have handled more of... that. Plus, now you can catch up with Steven and the others you haven’t gotten a chance to talk to yet!
Spinel stays by your side the whole time while you eat and chat. She doesn’t say much to the group at large, but when Steven, Garnet and Pearl slip off to mingle some more, Spinel seems to loosen up a little. She jokes with Amethyst, Peridot and Lapis, and is visibly pleased when Bismuth finally shows up.
“Hey, Biz!” Peridot calls out to the approaching Gem. “Where have you been? You missed our wonderful display of farmed goods.”
“Yeah, it’s... pretty much all eaten now,” you add on, “but damn was it good. All of it.”
“Heh, sorry guys. I was just finishing up something in the forge,” Bismuth explains with a smirk, “A little... welcome to Earth present, if you will.”
You cock your eyebrow in confusion as she turns to Spinel, now fully grinning at the pink Gem.
“F-for me? Aw, Bismuth, you didn’t-”
“C’mon now, it’s nothing! I wanted to.”
“Well, okay... what is it?” Spinel asks, trying to mask the eagerness in her voice.
“I know you weren’t exactly built for fighting- like most of us Crystal Gems,” Bismuth says with a chuckle, “and I remember you telling us once that you don’t have a weapon of your own, which is why you nicked that rejuvenator in the first place. And I know it’s not like we have much fighting left to do, but...”
Bismuth pulls an object from her smock’s pocket and holds it out for Spinel to inspect. She takes it tentatively, curiously inspecting it for a moment before her eyes light up.
“Oh my stars. You didn’t.”
Bismuth places her hands on her hips and laughs heartily. “Hey, you seemed like a natural with the thing, from what I’ve heard. Don’t fix what’s not broken, right?”
You purse your lips together, still not totally sure what it could be, before Spinel takes a few paces back from everyone and pushes the button on the side of the object.
On the side of her scythe.
“Ohhhh,” you breathe out, fighting the urge to smack your forehead. You watch Spinel inspect her new weapon with wonder, and you do the same from afar. It’s definitely not a rejuvenator, luckily, but other than that small detail, it’s almost exactly the same, down to the gem at the top. Though this one is distinctly more... pink.
Spinel makes sure she’s out of range of anyone, and she gives it a few test spins. Her grin grows almost wicked, her eyes wild, and your heart leaps in your chest. Now that she’s not threatening anyone with it, it’s almost... attractive to see her like this. You briefly wonder how fun it would be to train with her, fake fighting, ending up in a sweaty pile at the end-
“So, you like it, right?” Lapis interrupts your thoughts with a bemused smile as Spinel sheathes the weapon.
“Are you kidding? I love it!” Spinel exclaims happily, phasing it into her gem. “Best present ever. Well... second best,” she finishes with a coy look towards you, causing you to avert your eyes and flush, flashing back to the thoughts you were having moments ago.
“Good. I thought you might,” Bismuth says proudly, “took me all week to forge that thing. Wanted to get it just right.”
“Really... thank you,” Spinel says sincerely, stepping up to the group and meeting Bismuth’s eyes. “You guys have made me feel... accepted, since I’ve been here. I didn’t think I would find that anywhere else except with Y/n. I’m glad to have been wrong.”
“Oh stars, stop with the speech and c’mere,” Bismuth teases good-naturedly, pulling her into a hug. Peridot and Lapis follow suit, encircling your girlfriend who looks amazingly contented, eyes closed. For the umpteenth time this night, your heart swells with joy. This is all you could have wanted for her.
As you gaze at her, Spinel opens her eyes and stretches her arms through the cluster of friends and pulls you swiftly to her. You giggle nervously, hoping Bismuth and the others don’t mind the addition of a human. But they all join in with your giggling, until Bismuth is wrapping her arms around the group and lifting everyone at once, causing the four of you caught in her embrace to squeal with laughter.
“Damn, looks like a love fest over here!”
The hug splits apart, and you wipe at the happy tears that had begun to form in your eyes. “Oh, hey Amethyst! Spinel got a gift from Bismuth and then the group hug got carried away,” you explain, still giggling slightly.
“Hey, that’s great! You’ll have to show me whatever it is later,” Amethyst says, turning to Spinel. “But for now you guys have to come back to the stage! Sadie Killer is about to go on!”
Spinel gasps and rushes to grab your hand, excitement plain on her face.
“We have to go dance!” she exclaims, and without waiting for a reply she begins to drag you back to the dance floor, a spring in her step.
“I’m so glad she’s happy here,” you think, “I can’t ask her to come with me to Empire City now... can I? Not after she’s making so many new friends...
You shake your head and follow her to the front of the stage, where Sadie is taking the mic to introduce the band.
“I’m so excited!” Spinel cries out from her place beside you. You smile and wrap your arms around her small frame, giving her a quick hug before the music starts. You want her to know you’re excited to just be here with her.
The two of you get pretty into dancing once again, and even wind up in a big dance circle with a bunch of Gems and humans, everyone taking turns in the middle to show off. You sit that part out, but Spinel grows bold and rushes in at the tail end of a song, stretching and moving to the beat. You clap happily along with everyone once the song and her dance ends, and as she walks back towards you, you hold out your arms for another hug.
“Proud of you,” you mumble as she steps into your embrace, resting her chin on the top of your head.
“Thanks doll... I’m just havin’ so much fun. I love it here,” she replies, and your heart pangs. You really can’t ask her to leave this behind.
The band starts to play a slow song, and Spinel pulls back to look into your eyes.
“Dance with me?” she asks, already swaying the two of you to the beat.
You chuckle and reply, “Obviously.”
You show her the traditional positions for slow dancing, and you listen to the song while gazing into her deep pink eyes. There’s nothing you don’t love about her face- tear marks and all. You move your hand from her shoulder to her cheek, stroking the black lines you’ve come to love so much. She shudders at your touch, eyes fluttering closed, and leans into your hand. A smile finds its way to her face as you stay like that for a while, dancing all but forgotten.
As the song ends, she opens her eyes and gazes at you with what could only be described as pure love. Before you can say anything, she encircles her arms around your waist tightly, and pulls you in for the sweetest kiss you’ve ever known. Your eyes close with bliss and you forget where you are, all sounds around you are blocked out.
There’s only her.
x * x * x * x * x
You dance a while longer before the band announces the end of the party, and Steven goes up on stage to make his usual end-of-summer speech. You only half listen, fretting nervously about the talk you know you need to have with Spinel about what the end of summer means for you. You grip her hand tightly as she listens to the speech, not that she seems to mind.
Once the party is all wrapped up and everyone begins making their way back to Beach City or Little Homeworld, you and Spinel make the rounds to say goodbye. Bismuth and the others make you promise that you’ll take some time to come visit them with Spinel, so they can finally show you around properly. You agree readily, which makes everyone pleased, especially your girlfriend. You know she’s been wanting you to visit for a while, and you really do want to go, even if it means taking time off work.
After you’ve said your goodbyes and goodnights, Spinel turns to you, her face slightly weary but still smiling.
“Well, should we head home too?”
“Mm... do you want to watch the waves for a bit?” you ask, hoping your nerves don’t find their way into your voice.
“Sure, doll. You know I love sittin’ out here with ya.”
You walk closer to the water and she plops down, pulling you with her gracefully. You get situated in your usual position, and stay silent for a few minutes as you gaze out into the dark waters.
Finally, though, you know you need to bring it up.
“Spinel... I need to ask you something. And tell you something.”
“W-what? Okay... what is it?” she asks nervously, arms tightening around you.
You stay facing out towards the ocean as you reply, “I don’t... know if you remember, but... ah, there isn’t an easy way to say this. I have to go back to Empire City soon to finish my last year of college.”
“Oh. Yeah, I remember you mentioned you live there most of the year... why?”
“Um. Well, I guess I just.” You swallow, your throat running dry, “I just don’t know if- I mean, you’ve been making such good friends here with everyone and I don’t want to tear you away from all this when you’ve just gotten used to it, but I guess I’m a little selfish and-”
“Woah woah woah, babydoll. Calm down, take a breath, yeah?” she interjects, unwrapping you from her embrace. You turn in the sand to face her, crossing your legs underneath you as you sit pitifully in front of her.
She speaks before you can continue rambling. “Is this about me comin’ with you or not?”
You nod, still too scared to speak, worried your voice will give away your fears if you do.
“Oh, Y/n... don’t you know by now? There’s never a question when it comes to me an’ you.”
She puts a finger to your chin, lifting your head gently to make you meet her gaze.
“I love you so much, doll. Yeah, I might be makin’ a few friends here, and I really like ‘em a lot. But the whole reason I’m able to do these things is because of you. Because of the strength you give me to go on tryin’ every day.”
You take a shaky breath and steel your nerves. “R-really? You’re not... mad that I’m making you choose?”
Spinel smiles gently down at you, moving her hand to cup your face. “Course not. I’ve already chosen a thousand times over. It’s always you.”
You can’t hold back the tears that spring to your eyes at her words, and you lean forward to bury your face in the crook of her neck, silently shaking. You never expected this. God, you never even hoped for this. But this Gem just keeps surprising you.
“T-thank you,” you whisper, and she sighs happily, tightening her hold on you once more.
“Never thank me for lovin’ ya, Y/n. Never.”
You sit in silence once more, this time simply holding each other instead of watching the waves. Spinel is the first one to break the silence this time, petting the back of your head before standing the both of you up.
“Come on, Y/n. Let’s get you home to bed.”
You walk hand in hand with her back towards your apartment in Beach City, heart full to bursting. You can’t wait to see what the future will bring you and Spinel.
You’ll be ready for it. Together.
Pas de Deux Ch 7: Discovery
+pairing: Spinel x fem!Reader +genre: Drama, romance, angst, slow burn, enemies to friends to lovers +warnings: semi-NSFW, sensual content, suggestive content +word count: 7.3K +Chapter 7 / ? previous || next
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For a moment, you can do little more than stand still in shock as Spinel moves over you. You feel her tear stained cheeks against yours, you feel her hands slowly find their way into yours. But once the initial shock wears off, you give in to her, give in to the heightened emotions and sensations like you’ve wanted to for days now.
You keep one hand in hers, but move your other up to her shoulder, trying to steady yourself against the taller Gem who leans into you like you’re her lifeline. Her mouth moves against yours, soft and unsure- you doubt she’s ever done this before, but she’s certainly not the worst you’ve ever had...
Suddenly, she seems to find courage, and wraps her lanky arms once around you, squeezing ever so slightly. You welcome the sensation and grip both her shoulders with your hands, sighing softly into the kiss. She grows more forceful, more needy, and presses you up against her. You’re happy to let her take charge, but you reciprocate the effort, reaching up to wrap an arm around the back of her neck and press her closer to you. Her lips are thin and soft against yours, and you find yourself holding back a moan- she is undeniably attractive like this. You’re so used to her being rather quiet and unsure, for her to take charge like this is just... wonderful.
As quickly as it happened, it ends all too soon. Spinel pulls away and rests her forehead against yours, staring downcast at the sand beneath you, and you’re left to catch your breath and try to get your heartrate down.
“I...I’m sorry,” she says softly, beginning to loosen her hold.
You snap your head up, meeting her eyes fiercely.
“Don’t you be sorry for this,” you breathe out, full of emotion. “I... I wanted this too.”
“R-really?” Spinel asks, pulling back to look you directly in the eyes.
You meet her gaze easily, hoping she can see the resolve on your face. “Yeah, Spins...I meant what I said just now, I’ve...really grown to care about you, and it wasn’t until the past day or so that I really tried to figure out what that meant for me. I think I realized you meant more to me than just a friend the night you helped me keep warm... Waking up like that with you was just...so special...”
You start to tear up, the hours of being on edge and heightened emotions catching up to you. Spinel unwraps an arm from you and cups your face, wiping away the small tears that begin to fall.
“Hey, hey, I thought I was the crier ‘round here,” Spinel says softly, trying to lighten the mood. You lean into her touch and smile, your heart soaring at this intimate contact.
“I can cry enough for the both of us,” you mumble back, smiling and pressing a light kiss into her palm.
The two of you stay like that for a moment, just soaking in each other’s company and touch, both more touch starved than you had realized. After a few minutes Spinel sighs happily and pulls away slowly, gazing at you with affection.
“So what now?” she mutters, turning to admire the setting sun over the ocean.
“Well...I promised you I’d stay here with you, and I will,” you reply, taking her hand in your own. “And along the way, I guess we just see what happens?”
Spinel smiles back at you, her eyes shining in the twilight. “Yeah, Y/n... I’d like that.”
x * x * x * x * x
You stay on the beach a little while longer, so you can watch the night sky and stars. You end up sitting by the waves, both a little nervous around each other, but both incredibly excited.
“So Homeworld really doesn’t have stuff like this?” you ask, idly picking through the sand to look for interesting shells.
“What, the ocean?”
You nod in affirmation. “The ocean, sunsets...It’s so weird to me that another planet that hosts life can be so different from Earth,” you remark.
“I guess since we aren’t organic, we didn’t need to meet the same conditions that humans did to live on Earth?” Spinel speculates, watching the waves lap at her feet.
You raise your eyebrows at her comment. You knew she wasn’t stupid, obviously, but you hadn’t expected her to know much about planet conditions for life.
“Huh. You’re probably right.”
You turn back towards the horizon, and flinch when you see a large incoming wave. It’s too close to avoid, so you can do nothing but sit and let it wash over you, giggling as the water recedes once more.
“Aww, what happened?” Spinel teases in a sing-song voice, “Did the mean old ocean attack ya?”
You shoot her a playful glare. “Hey, you got hit a little too,” you point out, motioning to her wet legs. “Such is the hazard of sitting near the water, I suppose.”
You glance around at your sides and spot a large shell in the sand, washed up by the wave a few moments ago. You snag it and stand up.
“We should head back now though, I’ve gotta dry off before I sleep,” you say with a sigh. Sleep may have to wait now that your clothes are soaked.
She nods and stands as well, giving you a shy smile.
“Oh, and....here,” you say quietly, holding out your simple shell. “It’s, uh, just a shell, but I always like to have little trinkets to remember moments by, and since you’re new to the Earth and all... well, I thought you might like it,” you finish shyly, praying she doesn’t think it’s dumb.
She takes the shell from you, staring at it in wonder. You can’t help but smile at the look on her face. You know she has seen shells while you’ve been here, so why is she so intrigued by this one?
“Y/n, thank you,” she whispers, gazing past the shell to meet your eyes. “Since it’s from you...I’ll keep it forever.”
“Oh,” you reply, blushing furiously at her promise, “W-well that’s very sweet of you.”
You turn back towards camp and begin the trek back, butterflies still fluttering in your stomach. Is this how it’s supposed to be? You haven’t been in a real relationship for so long, you’ve forgotten what the norm is. Maybe it’s just something about Spinel that puts you on edge and makes you excited...
When you arrive back at camp, you stoke the fire, adding more firewood and kindling to make sure the flames are as large as possible. You watch as Spinel hunts for a spot to keep her new treasure from you, and you grin to yourself as she places it near the waterfall, giving it a cute pat as she puts it down.
Turning back to the task at hand, you wring out your clothes to the best of your ability, but it seems you may actually need to lay them out near the fire this time- you don’t want to be stuck in wet clothes when the night air turns cold.
With a nervous sigh you turn to Spinel, who has moved to stand against a tree, watching you work.
“U-um, Spinel, I... think I have to take these off now,” you mutter, gesturing down at your garments. “They’ll dry faster if they’re not on me... do you mind looking away for a while?”
Spinel furrows her brows in confusion. “Look away? Why?”
You let out a shaky breath and explain, “Humans... sometimes we’re self-conscious of our bodies and don’t like how we look without clothes. I... I’m just not much to look at.”
Spinel crosses the gap between you and places a warm hand on your cheek.
“Y/n, you’re beautiful, and that’s a fact. Please don’t ever worry ‘bout lookin’ bad for me, ok?”
You nod and lean into her touch, a soft smile gracing your features. “I know, but... just for now, ok? I’ll get better about it, but I’m just... still new to all this,” you say softly, not meeting her eyes.
She gives you a light kiss on the forehead and hums softly in agreement. “Okay, darlin’. I’ll go sit over by this tree, ok? I won’t look,” she promises.
You instantly relax, releasing tension you didn’t know you were holding. “Thank you,” you whisper, and move to start hanging your clothes by the fire. You don’t have much in terms of a clothesline, so you settle for stabbing some sticks vertically into the ground and just draping your shirt and shorts off of them haphazardly. You leave your undergarments on; those are thin enough that they’ll most likely dry off while you sit by the fire. You move to the nearby rocks and brush off any dirt before sitting down, placing your elbow on your knee and your chin in your hands. The warmth from the fire is nice against your bare skin, even if you feel incredibly uncomfortable being so exposed...especially around Spinel.
“Howzit goin’ over there, doll?” Spinel calls out from her place on the other side of the nearby tree.
“Fine, just hoping stuff will dry quickly,” you reply. You bounce your leg up and down nervously, impatient for the garments to be wearable again. In a way, though, you’re thankful that your clothes have gotten soaked the past couple days- you haven’t had a shower in almost a week, but at least this way your clothes will smell of the ocean and fire rather than...you.
After around half an hour of sitting, you get up to inspect the clothes, checking to see if there’s any progress made. Spinel seems to have heard you moving, because she calls out, “Are you all set over there?”
You can barely hear her over the roar of the fire, however. “Yeah?” you shout back, trying to urge her to repeat her question.
Unfortunately, she takes this as affirmation that you’re all done drying off, and that she can come back over. Your back is to where her spot in the tree line was, so you don’t hear or see her approach your spot crouched at the fire.
“O-oh,” you hear her stutter out, and you stand and turn to her on instinct, face warm from the flames and your own embarrassment.
“Spinel, I thought you were going to stay over there...” you plead, trying in vain to cover your body with your arms.
“I’m sorry, I thought you said I could come back over,” she mutters, trying to avoid looking your direction. But you notice her catch a few glances, and you watch as her face flushes a deep magenta.
You let out a shaky laugh, “I- I’m sorry I’m like this. I want to get better about being seen...”
Spinel cocks an eyebrow, her gaze focused up at the overhanging trees. “If you’re comfortable now, we can try... letting me look for a moment?” she suggests, hesitation and concern in her voice.
You take a deep breath in, and let out a resolute sigh. “Yeah. Yeah, I can do that.”
Spinel smiles softly and turns slowly towards you, reaching out and taking your hands as she does so.
“Wow...” she breathes out, and you blush almost immediately. Her gaze is so full of curiosity and wonder that you have to turn away.
“I mean...I knew you were gorgeous, Y/n, but my stars.”
She takes a tentative step forward, and places her hand on your cheek, staring into your eyes now. You meet her gaze, captivated by her pink swirling eyes, her signature markings, and her sweet smile that she now wears for you.
Her hand moves slowly down your face, through your hair briefly, and onto your shoulder. You shudder at the close proximity, and wonder how much of your face gives away what exactly you’re feeling right now. You’re nervous and worried about what she thinks of you, but you’re also enjoying her touch immensely.
“Just know,” Spinel says as she leans down closer to you, “that you are wonderful.”
With that, she places her lips on your shoulder and kisses across your sternum softly. You are putty in her hands, your knees feeling almost weak. You grip her shoulder to steady yourself, and she winds her arm around to the small of your back to help.
“You’re amazing,” you manage to breathe out, reveling in the sensations Spinel’s touch is sending through your body. She cups the back of your head with her free hand and moves her way up your neck. Her kisses aren’t hungry or demanding, you note, just... curious, and admiring.
“H-hah...” you let out a shaky moan as she finds her way to a sensitive spot on your neck, causing you to stumble forward into her at the sudden feeling.
“You all right there, doll?” she mutters into your ear, rubbing small comforting circles into the small of your back.
“Y-yeah...” you let out, and all at once you find your courage to turn to her and press your mouth into hers, causing the Gem to startle slightly. But after a beat she leans into it with vigor, encircling your waist with both arms like she had before at the beach. In tandem, you reach a hand up to Spinel’s face and gently brush your thumb across her cheek, where you know her markings sit. There’s just something about these that you find oddly attractive...
As the kiss deepens, Spinel lets out small sounds of pleasure; something you’ve never heard from her before. You smile softly and break apart slowly, your hand still on her cheek. This time it’s her turn to lean into your touch, a look of pure contentment on her face. With her eyes closed, you study her face more closely, and your heart leaps with how overjoyed you are that you get to be this close to her.
You suddenly feel a hot prick of pain on your upper back, and you yelp, moving away from Spinel and the fire.
“Guess the embers popped,” you say, chuckling at your own expense. Spinel had made it so easy to forget where you were, that you were basically naked standing next to open flame.
“M-maybe the clothes are dry?” Spinel stutters out. You turn in surprise at her tone, and you can see she still appears to be slightly shell-shocked from your...exploration of each other a few moments ago.
“Maybe she’s not used to all the touching...” you think idly as you go to inspect the drying clothes more thoroughly. “Hell, I don’t even think I’m used to it yet.”
You walk around to where your clothes are still draped unceremoniously over the sticks, and inspect them once more.
“Ah, finally!” you say with a grin, pulling your shirt on over your head. “Mmm, warm...”
As you slip your shorts back on as well, you glance at your companion, who hasn’t moved from where you left her.
“Hey, you all right?” you ask, echoing her earlier question.
“Oh, yeah, just...” she trails off and you tilt your head, wondering what could be wrong.
“Just kinda can’t believe you want me...like this,” she finishes quietly, sitting down on the rocks you had been perched on earlier.
You follow her lead and plop down next to her, and you tentatively circle your arms around her small waist, careful to avoid her Gem.
“We’re more similar than I thought, I guess,” you remark in a half joking tone. “But Spinel, if you’re talking about these...”
Once again you reach a hand up to her markings, and gently guide her head so you can look into her eyes.
“I actually really like these,” you whisper, taking her hand in your free one. “I understand why you don’t, but... they’re a sign that you went through something and came out of it on the other side.”
Spinel nods and leans against you momentarily, before taking your hand from her cheek.
“Thank you, Y/n,” she replies softly, her eyes gleaming.
You smirk and move onto your knees so you’re able to reach her face, and kiss each cheek once.
“You’re beautiful too, Spinel,” you say, staring down into her eyes and cupping the back of her head, as she had done for you moments ago. An idea suddenly forms, and your smirk grows as you lower yourself to reach her neck, peppering soft kisses on her pink skin.
“Mmm...” Spinel hums, sounding blissed out. From your position you can see her hands, clenching and unclenching, and you love that you’re making her squirm just as she had done to you.
You giggle mischievously and grow bold enough to straddle her, moving as quickly as you can before she can retaliate. You wrap your arms around her shoulders and bring your mouth to hers, pressing your chest against her Gem.
Spinel’s eyes flutter shut as she sighs into your touch, her hands finding their place on your back. She shudders when you press into her Gem, the closeness almost too much for her.
After a moment, she breaks away, face a deep magenta. You grin at her and she flushes more, earning a laugh from you.
“You tryin’ to one-up me or somethin’?” Spinel mutters, pulling you into a hug.
You squeeze her gently and sigh, happier than words could describe.
“Maybe,” you say in response, pulling back to look at her face once more. “Did it work?”
Spinel mirrors your grin and wraps you tightly in her arms, to the point where you can’t move away.
“I’d say so,” she says in a low, dark tone. Your eyes widen as you wonder what she could be thinking, and your heart beats faster in excitement.
But suddenly you’re unwrapped and standing, faster than you can follow what’s happening.
“Anyway doll, you need to eat some dinner, hmm?” Spinel says innocently as she makes her way towards the food storage. You raise your eyebrows incredulously at the Gem, and huff slightly at her.
“Really? Dinner?” you say, crossing your arms. You can’t help but smile, though- she really knows how to tease.
“Of course, darlin’! Can’t have you starving on me,” she replies, walking back over to you and handing you a banana. You take it with a roll of your eyes, still left with an ache from the sudden absence of contact. You try not to let it show as you rush through your “dinner”, watching Spinel as she wanders aimlessly around the camp. You finish the banana and sigh, still wishing you had some variety of fruit on the island.
A breeze rushes through the trees and you shiver, stepping closer to the fire. You look up to the night sky and smile- there are so many stars out here, and the sight just fills you with wonder every time. Most of the year you never get to see stars, since you go to school in Empire City. But you long for the summer when you can go to Beach City and walk on the beach in the starlight, unobstructed by the Earth’s artificial light.
The moon is fully out now, and you idly wonder where the time has gone. It must be close to midnight, so you decide it’s time to start thinking about heading to bed.
“Hey, Spinel?” you call out, and she glances up from where she was gathering kindling at the tree line.
“I think I’m gonna go to sleep, it’s late,” you tell her as she walks over to you.
“Oh, sure, you go sleep. I’ll keep the fire goin’ out here for ya,” she says, beginning to walk back towards the fire.
“W-wait,” you call out hesitantly, gripping her arm.
She turns back to you and cocks an eyebrow in confusion, and you squeeze your eyes shut as nerves flutter through you.
“Do you, uh...can you spend the night with me? Again?” you ask softly, unable to meet Spinel’s eyes.
Spinel takes your hand from her arm, and you glance up to see the warmest smile on her face, her eyes shining with adoration.
“Yes,” she whispers, “I can do that.”
You nod, face still flushed with embarrassment. Now that everything was out in the open between you two, shouldn’t you be able to ask things like this?
“I wish this stuff came easier to me,” you think as you head into the lean-to with Spinel in tow, “getting kidnapped is fine but I panic with intimacy? What is that?”
You duck under the entrance to your shelter, and plop down unceremoniously on your makeshift bed. Spinel follows suit, both of you avoiding eye contact and sitting in silence for a moment.
You let out a shaky sigh and wrap your arms around yourself, finally glancing towards the Gem.
“I’m sorry, I- I don’t know why I got all nervous suddenly. It’s just... been a long time since I’ve liked anyone this much and I don’t really know how to act,” you confess.
“Aw, Y/n...” Spinel gives you a warm smile and scoots closer to you, placing a hand on your back. “I’ve never done this before. I was infatuated with Pink Diamond, but I was made for her. With you it’s so new and... an’ scary sometimes,” she says quietly, trailing off.
Your head snaps up, your eyebrows furrowed. “Oh god, did I move too fast? Did I do something wrong?” you ask worriedly, thoughts rushing through your head. You never want her to feel scared around you; you’d do anything to avoid that happening.
“No, no!” she rushes to reply, eyes going wide. “Stars, no. I just meant... I’m still learning, you know? I think we both are,” she chuckles, earning a smile from you. “But... we can learn together, right?”
You nod and lean against her, placing your head on her shoulder. “Yeah, of course. We’ll teach each other,” you say quietly, snuggling into Spinel. She plants a soft kiss on the top of your head and hugs your body to her, squeezing gently.
With a soft sigh, she asks, “Are you ready to sleep now, doll? How would ya like to do this?”
Your face heats and you pull back, looking up at her. “Well, uh... can I lay on your shoulder while we lie down?” you ask shyly.
Spinel nods, and pulls you to her, laying down with you as you asked. “Like this?”
“Mmm,” you hum in affirmation, burrowing into the crook of her neck and breathing her in. Your heart thuds loudly as the Gem wraps her arms around you, once again pulling you closer.
“Good night, Y/n,” she whispers, and you drift off with your heart feeling more full than it’s ever been.
x * x * x * x * x
You’re pretty sure you’re dreaming. Your mind is all hazy, you can barely see, and there’s a light touch roaming up and down your arms, sometimes moving down your legs. You can’t move much but you don’t mind; it’s warm and comfortable in this dream and you feel safe, and at home. But as the fog in your mind clears, you realize you’re very much awake, and as Spinel moves and shifts around you, you realize it’s her who’s lightly ghosting her hands on your arm.
As you had the first night you spent together, you stay still and pretend to still be asleep, letting her do what she will. Her touch is tentative but curious, and every time your breathing changes or you shift slightly, she freezes, scared to wake you.
Keeping up the façade of sleep, you sigh heavily and snuggle in closer to her neck, making a happy sleepy sound as you do so.
“O-oh, Y/n...” she breathes out, moving her free hand back around your waist and squeezing you closer to her, making a small noise of contentment.
Fighting back a smile, you press your mouth to the side of Spinel’s neck, and encircle your free arm around her shoulders.
“Y/n... oh gosh, did I wake you up?” she says, interrupting your kiss.
“Mm, no,” you reply in a low, sleepy voice, “I just woke up...”
You pull back to look at Spinel, and smile at the sight you see. Her hair is slightly messy from having been lying down with you for however many hours, and her eyes are heavy and lidded gazing at you, her face slightly flushed.
“You all right?” you ask, propping yourself up on one elbow.
“Heh, ‘course I am, doll. Y’just... stars, I just love bein’ here with ya,” she says, her accent growing heavy.
You shoot her a small smile and reach to squeeze her hand. “Me too,” you reply quietly, “It’s... really comforting, being able to wake up with you like this. Even if it is the middle of the night.”
You look in her eyes before continuing, “And, uh, feeling your touch as I woke up wasn’t terrible, either...”
Spinel smirks, “Oh? You were awake then, huh? Sneaky girl...”
She shifts to position herself over you, and you look up to meet her eyes, your face flushing with heat.
“S-Spinel, what are you...”
“Shh, Y/n... lemme show you how much I appreciate you, now that you’re awake,” she says in a dulcet tone, making your stomach flutter in anticipation. Her hand finds its way to your shoulder, and she lowers herself to kiss your lips, letting out a hum of pleasure as you meet her in the middle.
She moves forward onto you, forcing you to lean back on the ground and letting her take the lead. You love that she’s grown confident enough to act this way around you, and maybe you even enjoy letting her push you around a bit...
You reach up to wrap your arms around her neck, and she growls lowly and pushes against you even more. Your kisses grow hungrier, wanting to make her feel as good as she’s making you feel, but she reaches up to take one of your arms away from her neck and pins your hand to the floor. She breaks the kiss and gives you a look, her eyes narrowed and wild, a telling smirk on her face.
“Now now, doll, be patient, hmm?” she whispers, and you feel arousal pooling in your core at her words.
“I’ve neva done anythin’ with someone before,” she confesses, trailing an idle finger down your face and jawline, never breaking eye contact, “but I know next to nothin’ about humans bodies... let me explore yours,” she finishes, her hand moving lower and lower down your body as she gazes down at you.
“If you’re okay with it, of course,” she adds, her eyes softening briefly. You swallow, your throat suddenly dry, and nod in affirmation.
“I may be nervous, but I’m excited, too,” you tell the Gem, hoping she can read the emotions on your face.
Spinel’s grin widens at that, her eyes growing wild and curious once more.
“Let’s see if we can get rid of some of those nerves, hmm?” she says quietly, leaning down to kiss your cheek. You smile warmly up at her, grateful for her constant reassurance. You try to remember that she’s here with you because she cares about you, not judging you, and that her gaze isn’t something to be feared.
“Lean back again, okay darlin’?” she instructs, and you happily do so, staring up at her in anticipation.
“I just love how you look under me,” she murmurs, stroking your face gently. Your cheeks heat up under her touch, and you have to look away, an embarrassed smile finding its way to your face.
Spinel takes that as her cue to start kissing your neck and sternum once more, and your hands fly to her back before you can stop them, gripping onto her to steady your shaking arms. Every kiss sends twinges through your body, and you let out an involuntary moan.
Spinel pulls back and raises an eyebrow, a proud smile on her face. “You like that, huh?” she purrs, “What else do ya like, love? Humans are just so...interestin’...but I don’t know what makes you feel good, so you have to tell me, yeah?”
She pulls back once more to gauge your reactions, and is met with your blissed-out expression, already on a high from all the contact.
“Well... you're doing excellently already,” you point out, earning a pleased look from the Gem. “B-but...”
You take her hand gently, and move her tentatively to your breast, placing her palm on the side over you shirt and bra.
“I-it feels nice for us when someone touches here, below the clothes. Kind of like how you were touching my arm earlier I guess,” you explain to a wide-eyed Spinel, who has begun to flush a deep magenta, “And, uh.... here as well...”
You part your legs slightly and guide her hand to your shorts, hand trembling.
“But I’m... I would love to just keep doing what we were doing, for now,” you whisper, feeling incredibly shy. “I don’t know if I’m comfortable with all that yet...”
Spinel’s eyes soften, and she moves her hand away from your legs and laces her fingers with yours.
“Hey, I didn’t... I wasn’t expectin’ anything, Y/n. I just wanted to make you feel good, but there’s no pressure, okay? I know enough to guess that stuff like this is really intimate and special for some people, yeah?”
You nod and sit up, and Spinel cups the back of your head gently, gazing into your eyes.
“Thanks, Spins. I’m sorry I’m such a mess,” you reply with a half-hearted chuckle, “I’m just a very nervous person when it comes to this, I guess... but it doesn’t mean I like you any less.”
“Aw, I know, doll. Sorry for pushin’ myself on ya. Guess six thousand years without any contact’ll do that to a Gem,” she jokes with a sad smile.
“You didn’t push, I promise. I was really enjoying myself...” you say, trailing off in thought. Your eyes travel down to her large heart-shaped gem, and suddenly you find yourself curious...
“Speaking of... I’d like to know what makes you feel good, too,” you continue in a lower tone, meeting the Gem’s eyes once more.
“More specifically, what happens if I touch here...?”
You ghost your fingers over Spinel’s gem, and watch as her eyes flutter closed momentarily.
“Y/n, I, uh... it’s a very sensitive part of me,” she explains in a shaky voice, “since it basically is me...”
You graze your thumb over the facets, watching her expression shift as she hums in pleasure. You inch closer to her from your sitting position, moving so you’re sitting cross-legged between her legs, facing her head on.
“Ah... stars,” she breathes out as you continue exploring her gem, your heart leaping every time her face scrunches up in bliss.
“Y’know, I genuinely had no idea your gems could make you feel like this,” you say softly. “Guess this is why I don’t see the Crystal Gems touching them unless they’re poofed...”
“Mmm... I suppose it’s contextual,” Spinel says, opening her eyes to explain, “Gems aren’t exactly... built for this, but since our entire being generates from here, I guess it was inevitable that we would be most sensitive here in moments of heightened emotion.”
“Heh, you sounded a bit like Peridot just then,” you tease, although secretly you’re impressed that she is so knowledgeable about certain aspects of Gem life. You idly wonder how quickly she would have been able to learn things, had she not been regulated to essentially be a jester...
“Heh, at least I’m t-taller than Peridot,” Spinel jokes back, stuttering as you continue your exploration.
You raise an eyebrow at her comment and smirk. “Oh, I’m so telling Peridot about that whenever we get back to Beach City,” you think, biting back a giggle.
Suddenly, an idea forms. “Hey... can I try something? Do you trust me?” you ask gently, momentarily stopping your touches.
“S-sure, doll, I trust ya,” Spinel replies, trying to avoid looking too eager.
You shoot her an innocent smile and lean down, entwining your hands with hers before planting a soft kiss in the middle of her gem.
“H-hah, oh my stars,” she moans out. You sit back up and squeeze her hands, trying to gauge her reaction.
“What did that feel like?” you murmur, genuinely curious.
“It... it just feels so nice,” Spinel breathes, “It’s hard to explain, to a human at least, but um... feels kind of like a hug, and kind of like pinpricks going everywhere.”
“Hmm...”
You smirk as you bend back down, this time peppering slow, deliberate kisses all over her gem. Her hands find their way to your hair, bunching fistfuls as she groans and squirms. After a few moments of this, you sit up once more, gazing at your companion in adoration. Her face is completely flushed, eyes unfocused, staring at nothing. You place one hand on the back of her head and another on her back to steady her, and she goes limp in your arms, her forehead landing on your shoulder.
“Ohmygoodness,” she manages to get out, her voice more breathy than you’ve ever heard it.
“You okay there, Spins?” you ask, slightly concerned that you may have given her too much to handle.
“Y-yeah, I just... wow, that was...” she trails off, unable to finish her sentence.
“Y’know... I think we may have just discovered the Gem orgasm,” you say light-heartedly, stroking the back of Spinel’s hair and rubbing circles into her back.
“What’s an ‘orgasm’?”
You snort and try to hold back laughter, realizing that of course that word would be entirely foreign to her.
“Hmm, well... I think it might be similar to how you were just feeling,” you explain, “In humans, it’s when the pleasure gets to be so intense and it kind of just...explodes all at once.”
You hope that’s an apt enough explanation for now, without going into terms and details that she might not understand.
“Huh... yeah, that might’ve just happened,” she says with a chuckle. Spinel snakes her arms around your waist, still leaning into your shoulder, and gives you that gentle squeeze that you’re becoming all too familiar with.
“I’m so glad I could make you feel good,” you whisper, kissing the back of her head. You sit like that with her for a few minutes, idly tracing patterns on her back and holding her head to you. Your eyebrows shoot up when, after a while, her head starts growing heavier, her grip around your middle going loose.
“Spins, are you falling asleep?” you whisper.
“W-what?” She lifts her head slowly from your shoulder, her face inches away from yours. Her eyes are half-lidded, and she looks almost in a daze.
“Aw, hon, you look exhausted,” you say with a quiet laugh. “I guess that took a lot out of you...”
She sits up fully and rubs at her eyes, blinking a few times. “Sorry doll, I guess so... Heh, I’ve never been tired before,” she says with a smile, and stretches her arms out to you. “You wanna lay down again?”
You nod in response, humming happily as the Gem takes you back into her arms and you move into the position you’d started in, your head on her shoulder, arm draped across her torso. She moves both hands to your shoulders and hums happily as you snuggle into her neck once more.
“Good night, Spinel,” you mumble. “I hope you get some rest, too...”
“Good night, Y/n,” she replies with a whisper, and you both drift off in each other's embrace.
x * x * x * x * x
Unfortunately, the next time you wake isn’t nearly as pleasant.
You awaken with a shiver, feeling cold and very damp. Your eyes fly open as you realize what must be happening.
“Oh, no!” you whine, sitting up in the lean-to. Rain is pouring through the roof, if it can even be called a roof anymore. Almost half the sticks have been blown off the structure, leaving you bared to the open sky.
Spinel sits up beside you, also awakening to the downpour.
“Y/n, we have to get you out of the rain,” she calls over the roar of the heavy drops.
“But the camp-”
“C’mon doll, we can rebuild and find more food later, we just have to get you somewhere dry first!”
You scrunch your face in defiance, but finally sigh and relent. Spinel stands and pulls you to your feet, an arm around your shoulder as if she could protect you from the rain.
“Do you think there’s a cave somewhere on the island?” you call as you head away from your camp into the forest.
“Don’t know, but we’ll check,” Spinel reassures you, “and if we have to, we’ll just find a nice tree to sit under, all right?”
You nod and let the Gem lead you around the island, both keeping your eyes out for a cave or other shelter to wait out the storm in. Spinel shoots you worried looks every now and then, like she’s checking to make sure you’re not dying. You want to roll your eyes at her over-protectiveness, but you can’t help feeling flattered that she cares enough to check in on you.
The longer you rush around the island, the more you start to shiver and shake with the cold. The rain shows no signs of stopping, and even you’re beginning to worry about what this might do to you in the long run.
The island turns out to be bigger than you and Spinel remembered. It feels like you searched up and down the place, but you’re almost positive you went in circles for a while there. The speed and denseness of the rain makes it hard to see very far in front of you, and there aren’t many landmarks you can remember where you’ve been with- it's mostly just trees and beach.
After a couple hours of searching, Spinel stops you under a tree and rolls her eyes at the sky. “Y/n, there’s no cave here. We need to get you dry and warm, or you’ll get sick, right?”
She looks to you for confirmation while rubbing her hands up and down your arms to create some friction. You nod in affirmation and sigh.
“Yeah, all right... it’s gonna be hard to get warm out in the open, though, “you tell her.
Her face betrays how worried she is, but her voice tries to stay strong. “I know, love. I’ll do my best,” she says.
Spinel moves you to a nearby cluster of trees, and immediately wraps you up in her embrace almost completely. You both sit gently on the soaked ground, and you try to condense your body in her arms, hoping to keep what little warmth you generate.
“It’ll be okay, doll,” Spinel murmurs next to you, “The rain’ll stop soon and I’ll build ya another fire real quick, yeah?”
You nod in between shivers, giving her what you hope to be a reassuring smile.
“Don’t worry about me, ok? I’ll be all right...”
You sit in silence for some time, the steady sound of rain and the feeling of being wrapped in your Gem’s arms making you feel quite drowsy. You doze in and out for a while, waking every time shivers wrack your body.
At some point, Spinel nudges you awake, having unwrapped one arm from you.
“Doll, the rain has slowed some. I had an idea- I'll run around the island some more and look for better shelter, I can move faster on my own. You wait here and I’ll be back in fifteen or twenty minutes no matter what, okay? If I don’t find anythin’ I’ll come straight back and keep ya warm some more.”
“That sounds good, Spins... just hurry, okay?”
Spinel nods once and springs up, rushing off into the tree line.
“She was right- she is faster on her own,” you think as you watch her sprint away. The minutes pass, and you lose track of how long she’s been gone. This day has been passing in a rainy haze, and with you feeling as poorly as you are, time has felt strange as it often does when you’re becoming sick.
“Oh no,” you think as you realize, “I’m getting sick, aren’t I... this is bad.”
You try not to fret too much as you wait for Spinel to return, rationalizing that it might just be the cold rain that’s making you feel this way, and that you’ll feel better once you’re somewhere warm again.
“Y/n!”
You hear Spinel before you see her, as she rushes up from behind the tree you’re leaning on.
“I found a cave, kind of! It’s more of a giant overhanging rock, but it’s dry and I can build you a fire there, okay?”
You grin at her and move to stand, and she races to support you, placing one hand in yours and another on your back.
“Thank you, Spinel,” you say softly, genuine gratitude plain in your voice.
“Yeah, yeah, I know I’m great,” she jokes with a grin, beginning to lead you towards her newfound shelter, “but let’s save the thanks for after you’re dry, hmm?”
With that she shows you to the overhang, towards the top of the island. No wonder you hadn’t seen this, your camp was to the southwest and if you had been going in circles all morning, you definitely hadn’t gotten up to the north part of the forest.
Eventually you reach the temporary shelter, and you plop back down on the ground, hugging yourself to try to keep warm again. The rain had slowed but hadn’t stopped, and the wind chill more than made up for the lighter downpour- you were freezing.
“You stay right there toots, okay? I’ll build ya a fire,” Spinel says, worry plain in her voice as she rushes to pick up any dry sticks she can find.
You watch her with a small smile, grateful to have her companionship and help.
“It’s silly... she’s the reason I’m stuck here in the first place, but... I guess everything turned out okay. I’m almost glad she brought me here,” you think idly as Spinel works.
The exhaustion from shivering for hours catches up to you, and you lean your head against the rock wall, telling yourself you’ll just close your eyes for a moment...
You wake to the soft pitter-patter of slow rain, and the crackling heat of a fire nearby. Finally, you feel warm again. You smile as you realize Spinel has moved you from the wall and rested your head gently in her lap, far enough away from the fire to avoid rogue embers, but close enough that you can still feel it’s warmth.
In fact, you’re almost too warm. You scrunch your forehead in confusion and sit up, your head spinning slightly.
“O-oh, Y/n! Hey there,” Spinel greets you. She reaches out and places a hand on your shoulder, “How are ya feeling?”
“Fine, I think? I’m just really warm,” you say, glancing back towards the fire. “How long have I been asleep?”
“An hour or two, maybe? It’s midday, I think,” Spinel replies, glancing out towards the forest. “Rain hasn’t stopped completely, so it’s hard to tell.”
“Guess we’re stuck here a while,” you say, following her gaze to the rainy island. “Ugh, it really is hot though...”
You move to stand, and your vision blurs, head spinning. You sway on your feet a moment and reach out a hand, trying to regain your balance. Spinel springs up to steady you, and you can see the concern plain on her face.
“Aw, I’m okay, Spins, just a head rush from standing up too quickly,” you reassure her.
But as you move to step away from the fire and Spinel relinquishes your arm, your knees buckle and you collapse, hitting the floor with a dull thud.
“Y/n!!”
Pas de Deux Chapter 9: The Return
+pairing: Spinel x fem!Reader +genre: Drama, romance, angst, slow burn, enemies to friends to lovers +warnings: mentions of shattering +word count: 6.5K +Chapter 9 / 10 previous || next
As Spinel leads you down to the beach hand in hand, you can’t help but stare at the back of her form in wonder. Just a few weeks ago this Gem had shaken up your whole life, ruined your summer plans, hurt your friends. And then just as you were starting to warm up to her, she kidnapped you- hell of a first date. You honestly thought you could never look past that, and granted, it was a pretty horrible thing to do. But then something just... changed. Or rather, she did.
And now... now you feel so incredibly lucky to have her. Everything is still new to both of you, her especially, but the prospect of getting to learn together absolutely thrills you. And though Spinel isn’t as talkative or open about her feelings... you suspect she feels the same.
The two of you burst through the tree line, almost sprinting towards the water. Spinel turns slightly to give you a grin over her shoulder, and your stomach flips happily.
“God, she’s trouble for my heart,” you think warmly as you return the smile.
You stop at the ocean’s edge, and release Spinel’s hand as she morphs her pinky into the horn to call the injector. It rises from off the coast- much closer than you ever imagined she’d leave it.
“Has... that been there the whole time?” you ask incredulously, turning to the pink Gem.
“Uh... y-yeah?” she replies sheepishly, shifting her pinky back to normal.
You shake your head with a small smile. “Dang. Could have escaped at any time,” you joke.
Spinel’s answering smile spreads across her face. “Oh yeah? Go ahead, get up there on yer own,” she replies, accent slipping in as it always does when she teases you.
“I’ll do It right now!” you exclaim, and begin to race through the surf. You look back in surprise as Spinel grabs your middle and pulls you back to her, both of you giggling and laughing as you pretend to try to get away.
You sigh and try to calm your laughter, turning in Spinel’s arms to look up to her. She unwraps her arms and rests her hands on your hips, gazing down at you with a soft expression.
“Are you... sure about this, doll?” she asks you softly, “I know you were nervous a few days ago...”
“Spinel, I... I know, and I’m sorry for that. It was just me being irrational but... I really want to go back with you. Besides the pluses of being able to be back in society again, I want to show the others that you’re a good person and that... I care about you,” you finish, blushing and ducking your face into the crook of her neck.
She wraps herself around your shoulders, settling her chin on the top of your head. “Okay, doll. I’m nervous, but... I want that too. And apparently someone needs a shower?”
“Pff, maybe...” you reply, burying your face more in embarrassment. After a moment you pull back and take her hands off your shoulders, holding them between the two of you.
“Spinel... I just want you to know I really care about you. And whatever happens, I’ll be by your side. We’ll show everyone that you’ve changed. Okay?”
Tears well up in her eyes and she flings herself around you once more, squeezing you tightly. You shift a little so her Gem isn’t pressing up against you too hard, and rub small circles into her back.
“Ok, c’mon Miss Dramatic,” you joke, trying to lighten the mood, “don’t want to be crying when we get back to Beach City.”
Spinel lifts her head from your shoulder reluctantly and cups a hand to your face.
“Ready, doll?”
x * x * x * x * x
After scooping you up rather deftly and leaping to the top of the injector (which, you have to admit, was kind of fun), you’re soon setting off for Beach City. Or rather, the direction Spinel thinks is towards Beach City.
“If you know how to get back to Empire City from here, I could probably direct you towards Beach City?” you suggest, scooching closer to Spinel so she can hear you over the rush of wind. She nods, and directs the injector slightly more towards the left, wrapping an arm around your waist once she’s done. You smile at the contact and lean into her, settling in for what you know to be a long flight.
It had taken at least a couple hours on the way to the island; Spinel having taken you in the early morning since you’d been up all night racing from the concert to the Garden and back again. You don’t know how long it was for her trip to Empire City, but it must have been at least an hour, since it had taken her around 3 hours to return to you with all the definitely not stolen goods.
You muse silently for a while, enjoying the sun beating down on you and the feeling of Spinel holding onto you- maybe a little too tightly.
“Probably worried about me falling off the edge or something,” you figure. You swing your legs around so they’re lying over her lap instead of dangling off the edge, and you see her visibly relax.
“Aww, were you worried?” you tease, poking her on the shoulder.
She rolls her eyes but can’t fight the smile that finds its way to her face. “Mm... Maybe a bit,” she replies, pulling you closer to her and moving the both of you more towards the middle of the injector.
You place your hands on top of her arms, holding her against you. You look up at her and smile, watching as she concentrates to try to remember the way she needs to go.
“Are you nervous?” you whisper after a moment, startling her slightly.
“Bout what?” she asks absent-mindedly, still gazing out over the horizon.
“Going back. Having to... face everyone,” you say, trying to keep your voice from wavering.
“W-well, yeah. Can’t say I’m not,” she says with a slight chuckle, “but I’m also... Oddly calm. Having you with me right here, right now...”
She trails off and idly runs her hands over your arms, making you shiver even in the hot sun.
“I know it’ll go great,” you reply, eyes fluttering closed at her touch.
You float like that for a while, head against Spinel’s shoulder, just reveling in the feeling of her gentle touches. You resolve not to drift off, to just enjoy being with her in the simplicity that is the moment. As you gaze across the ever-approaching horizon, you can’t help but smile to yourself at the way things have turned out.
You’d fallen for a Gem or two in your time, sure- namely, Pearl- so you didn’t find being with one like this particularly odd, but... what you did find odd was that you ended up with a Gem that you hadn’t known for long in comparison. But in a way, that made this all the more exciting- you got to discover everything about each other.
And god, were you looking forward to that.
After an hour or so of idle chatter and lots of cuddling (while, of course, hurtling through the air on a giant injector), you start to see a city peak up over the horizon.
“Oh! Spinel, look! It’s Empire City!” you exclaim, getting as close to the edge as you feel comfortable with.
“Oh yeah, wow! Guess I remembered the right way after all,” Spinel replies with a light chuckle. “Okay, toots, it’s all you now. Where do we go from here?”
Spinel directs the injector up higher, just above the clouds- enough that you can still see the land below but hopefully high enough that you won’t be easily spotted.
You look for a road you recognize, the main highway that you usually take to get to and from Beach City for the summers. It’s harder to tell from up so high, but you figure the general direction should suffice anyway, since you’ll be able to see Beach City in the distance as long as you go the right way.
It’s still a ways away, so you sit back with Spinel once more, this time simply holding her hand while you gaze down below. After a moment, you notice Spinel fidgeting next to you, crossing and uncrossing her legs, clenching your hand in hers, her other hand reaching up to her hair.
You turn to face her once you check that the highway is still directly below you.
“Spinel? You... you doing okay?” you ask gently, reaching out to take her other hand from her hair.
“I... I’ll be okay, Y/n. Don’t worry ‘bout me,” she gets out breathily, voice shaking.
“Spinel. You’re clearly not okay,” you stay sternly, cupping her face in your hands. Her eyes focus on yours, and she relaxes slightly to your touch.
“I’m sorry. I’m... just freakin’ out a bit, is all. I don’t know what’s gonna happen when we get back and I’m terrified... that they’ll send me back somewhere. Or they’ll just hate me forever and...”
She trails off and averts her gaze back to the world below. You sigh and lean back a bit, clasping your hands together in between the two of you.
“Spinel, I know these thoughts are hard to ignore sometimes. And you have every right to worry about this stuff, I’m... a little nervous too. But when things like this come up, I want you to know you can talk to me, ok? You don’t have to sit next to me in silence when you’re suffering. I want to try to help you through it as best as I can.”
Spinel turns back to you and nods, and surprisingly, you see no tears in her eyes this time.
“I don’t mean to keep stuff from ya... It’s just habit, I guess. Not used to having someone to talk to, y’know?”
She squeezes your hand softly and offers you an apologetic smile.
“I know, Spins. But whenever you can, try to remember I’m here for you, all right?”
She lets out a shuddering sigh and meets your eyes with resolve. “Thank you. And I will always be here for you too, ok doll?”
You open your mouth to start to reply, when the injector suddenly rushes through a particularly thick cloud. It’s hard to see much of anything, and you’re startled from finishing your thought.
“Did we lose the direction?” Spinel calls out.
“I don’t know, I can’t see the ground!” you reply, frantically searching for any break in the clouds below you.
“It’s ok, I’ll keep it steady until the clouds-”
She cuts herself off as the sunlight rushes back in. You squint at the sudden brightness, before your eyes widen and you gasp.
“Spinel! It’s right there! We made it!” you exclaim happily as Beach City quickly comes into view. You sound happy even as your insides flip. No going back now, no matter how nervous the both of you are.
“We... we did make it,” she replies, sounding every bit as worried as you feel.
As you loom closer to your favorite city, your face falls as Lighthouse Park comes further into view- you'd forgotten about the damage that last battle had done to the ground there...and the surrounding ocean still had traces of pink in it. You glance over at Spinel to gauge her reaction, and her face seems... crestfallen.
“Spinel, it’s ok. We can help undo this,” you say softly, taking her hand in yours once more.
She simply nods and morphs her pinky to direct the injector. Finally you were going to be home safe and-
“HEY!”
Your knees almost buckle at the voice that sounds behind you. Amethyst! You turn to greet your friend, who is riding with Peridot on a large piece of metal, floating just behind the injector. Instead you’re met with an expression that is decidedly unwelcoming. But her gaze isn’t focused on you- it's on the Gem sitting next to you, who is recoiling in fear.
“Give her back to us!” Amethyst calls out, much to your dismay.
“Amethyst, wait-”
Before you can finish your thought, Amethyst is pulling out her Gem weapon, and you can only guess what she means to do with it. Your gaze shifts to Peridot, who you note is holding the retracted rejuvenator slightly out of sight. This is not how you wanted this to go. How were they even ready this fast? Had they been following you or something?
You turn to Spinel, who is already one step ahead of you. The injector zooms forward, and you hear the snap of Amethyst’s whip behind you, just narrowly missing the pink Gem.
“Bring her back you clod!” a scratchy voice calls out as you race forward.
“Spinel, wait! We have to talk to go back and talk to them! Remember?”
You grip her arm frantically and look up at her with pleading eyes. Her face falls as she registers your expression, and she sighs heavily.
“I know, doll, but... they’re tryin’ to attack you! Us! Peridot... she had the rejuvenator-!”
“No, no, I think they think you’re still trying to hurt me for some reason! But if we talk to them, we can explain!”
Spinel closes her eyes for a moment, and you feel like you can see the thoughts racing through her head.
“Yeah. Ok, you’re right. We can-”
“Y/n!”
You immediately groan and roll your eyes, turning once more to face the voice. This time you’re surprised to see the Gem calling your name- flying in what looks like a modified Peridot ship?
“Pearl?!” you exclaim incredulously, “What are you doing?”
“Saving you!”
“Pearl-”
“I can’t do this!” Spinel exclaims, interrupting you. You turn back to face her, and she’s already blowing on the horn, directing the injector to speed off again, this time over land, thankfully.
You huff in anger and turn back towards Beach City, where you can see the two groups of Gems racing to catch up, joined by Lapis carrying Steven.
“It’s all of them,” you mutter. “Spinel, we can’t leave again! Find somewhere to land!”
She doesn’t answer you and continues pushing the injector faster- faster than you thought it could go, honestly. You hold on to the Gem and brace yourself, shutting your eyes against the wind whipping across your face.
You turn back after a moment, away from the wind, to see if you’re still being followed. You heave a sigh of relief when you realize you can no longer see Pearl’s ship, Lapis, or Amethyst and Peridot. Your relief is short lived, however, because Spinel has apparently picked a spot to land.
The injector comes to a swift halt over top of a giant field, way out in the countryside. You grip Spinel’s arm tighter as it lowers into the ground, luckily having no poison left to use on the Earth. It settles with a loud rumble, and you finally relinquish your grasp on the Gem.
She takes the opportunity to slump down, wrapping her arms around her knees and hiding her head between them. You sigh and sit down next to her, gazing out across the landscape and watching the wind blow through the tall grass below.
“I... I’m sorry,” Spinel finally says after a few minutes.
“I know, hun, I know. It’s ok,” you reply quietly, circling your arms around her middle and pulling her closer to you.
“I just... that was so scary,” she continues, her voice small and pitiful, “I couldn’t see a way to make them listen and I didn’t want them to take you away from me...”
“I wouldn’t have let them,” you retort sternly, trying to reassure her. “Even if they had been able to grab me, I could have talked them down... I think,” you add, suddenly unsure.
“What... what do we do now?” Spinel asks, lifting her head and wiping the tears from her eyes. Your heart melts at the sight- she's been through so much and still has the drive to keep going, to keep asking ‘what’s next.’ You truly admire her for that.
“Well... we have to go back,” you point out, “or we could let them find us I suppose, but that might end pretty poorly.”
Spinel doesn’t answer, so you continue, “We can probably spare a few more minutes though, if you need a chance to calm down?”
The pink Gem nods and snuggles in closer to you, burrowing the top of her head under your chin. You wrap your arms around her small frame and hold her, hoping the beat of your heart can be as calming as it once was back on your small island of paradise.
You let her sit there for a bit, but once you feel her trembling start to subside, you move a hand to the back of her head and give her a few soft pets.
“We have to be strong now, okay Spins?” you say gently, prompting her to lift her head and meet your eyes.
Before she can say anything, you give a quick kiss to the tip her her nose, earning a light chuckle. You smile and squeeze her tightly for a moment before standing.
“All right. You can do this, Spinel. We can do this. I believe in you.”
You reach out a hand to her which she takes, pulling herself up off the top of the injector.
“All right. Yeah. We can do this,” she repeats back, trying out a confident smile.
“That’s the spirit!” you exclaim, “Now... we may not want to fly back on this big intimidating injector... you up for a walk?”
x * x * x * x * x
Twenty minutes into the walk back to Beach City, and you’re already regretting your life choices. The tall grass is much rougher to walk through than it had looked, and you had apparently severely underestimated how far Spinel had flown the damn injector, what with your eyes being closed most of the ride.
After bringing you down from the injector in her arms, Spinel had offered to carry you the rest of the way, which you of course refused- you weren’t sick anymore and could walk fine on your own, thank you very much. Now you almost wish you’d taken her up on the offer, just so you could reach Beach City faster. But you weren’t one to relent so easily, so you kept trudging on.
Spinel had been silent most of the walk- most of the day, really. You knew she was incredibly scared of going back, and though she had felt ready this morning, you can’t imagine the ‘greeting’ the two of you received had done much to ease her nerves.
“I’ve done all the comforting I can do,” you think, looking over to your favorite Gem sadly, “she has to figure out the rest on her own.”
The silence as you walk is... uncomfortable, to say the least. You don’t seem to have much to talk about outside the current situation, and you don’t really feel like talking anyway- you're too wrapped up in your own worries to be concerned with how the Gem is feeling at the moment.
You had tried to avoid considering it before, but you had to face reality now- what if they really don’t accept Spinel? Disregarding the whole relationship thing, if they don’t even let her stay in Beach City... or even on Earth? What if they poof and bubble her before you can get a chance to do anything?
You don’t have any answers to these questions that are building inside you. You can guess, but ultimately, you decide that things are going to play out as they will, and all you can do is help them get to where you want them to be.
You can only hope Spinel will feel the same way.
The nerves return to ravage your system around 45 minutes into your walk, when you can start to see Lighthouse Park peeking up over a hill. You want to stay strong, present a unified front to the Crystal Gems, but you can feel yourself unraveling on the inside.
Still, you manage to keep it together as the two of you walk up the peak of the hill overlooking Beach City. You stop to catch your breath as Spinel walks up from behind you, and gingerly takes your hand in hers.
“Ready to try again, doll?” she asks softly.
You huff, rather exhausted from the long hike, but nod in agreement. “Yeah. Let’s go.”
You start the journey down, being the first one to break from her hand. Spinel may have all the grace and balance of a perfect lifeform, but you certainly do not, and this is a pretty steep hill.
You almost trip over a protruding rock that you hadn’t noticed, and Spinel quickly stretches her arms to support you, holding you in place until she can make her way to you.
“Woah there doll, havin’ a little trouble walking, huh?” she teases as she releases you, leaving you to your own devices.
You furrow your brow and stick out your tongue in response, knowing full well you look ridiculous. She laughs heartily, the loudest you’ve heard all day.
“Never seen that face before, love,” she comments in between giggles, “it’s certainly... a look!”
“Yeah, yeah, I make dumb faces,” you huff, continuing down the hill more carefully. You know you’re being a bit childish, but the closer you get to home, the more on edge you feel. You’re not really in the mood for joking, and Spinel seems to register this, as she falls silent after your comment and continues walking behind you.
You reach the base of the hill with no more mishaps, thankfully. As you wait for Spinel to catch up, you sigh heavily, gazing out at the city you love so much. Whatever is waiting for you upon your return... you just hope you’ll be strong enough to face it.
A hand closes around yours, soft and unsure. You look up to your left to see Spinel giving you a tentative smile, and you give her a curt nod before beginning to lead her down the path to Beach City.
As you walk towards the town, you notice it’s eerily still. You have no idea what day it is, so it could very well be a weekday and people are still inside at work or school, but... the fact that the Gems were nowhere in sight either was concerning.
You grip Spinel’s hand tighter, and the two of you make your way down onto the boardwalk. You want the Gems to see you and Spinel together, wherever they are. They need to know not to attack first, and they definitely won’t when you’re this close to the pink Gem.
You hear the slight flap of wings before you see her- Lapis makes her way down from the air, with Steven behind her- for a moment you’re startled, but then you recall his floating powers; something you had only seen a few times years ago.
Next come Pearl and Garnet in the new ship, probably worked on in tandem by both Pearl and Peridot, judging by the green exterior. The front opens and you lock eyes with Pearl, a blush of embarrassment creeping onto your cheeks before you can stop it. You’re gripping Spinel’s hand impossibly tight now, and you’re glad that she doesn’t feel as much pain as a human; you’re sure you’d be crushing her hand right now if she did.
You have to avert your gaze from Pearl as your stomach sinks- she's looking at you exactly as you had feared she would. Confusion, mistrust... you can’t believe this is happening.
Peridot and Amethyst fly in last, zooming over from somewhere else in the town. You look almost pleadingly at Amethyst, hoping she’ll try to take your side on this- or at least meet you somewhere in the middle. Her expression is unreadable to you, which with her is... usually not good.
You sigh softly and decide to get this over with. No use delaying the inevitable.
“So, uh...hey guys,” you say quietly after clearing your throat, “Long time no see?”
“Yeah, no kidding,” Amethyst says with a roll of her eyes, stepping off Peridot’s floating metal.
“How... how long has it been?” you ask, glancing around the group.
“About seventeen days, nine hours and... fifty-five minutes,” Peridot answers swiftly, glancing at her strapped-on wrist tablet.
“Oh...gosh.”
You genuinely hadn’t realized it had been that long. The days all sort of blurred together, especially with the sickness. It was no wonder they looked concerned and pissed off that you saunter in holding hands with your captor.
Subconsciously, you let go of Spinel, and take a step towards Pearl’s floating ship.
“Guys, we need to talk. Spinel-”
“Spinel what?” Pearl spits out rather aggressively, leaving you taken aback and wide eyed. “Spinel took you, we don’t hear from you for weeks and now you come back holding hands? What is this, Y/n?”
You suck in a breath and turn to Spinel, whose face seems to be shifting between expressions of anger and worry. This time it’s her turn to reach out and grip your hand too tightly, but unfortunately you can be hurt- the sudden pain causes you to yank your hand back from her grasp involuntarily. She startles backwards, and shoots you a pained look. Your heart sinks and you shut your eyes for a moment, trying to regain composure. This is not how you wanted this to go.
“Ok, look, everyone stop for a second and let me explain.”
You pause and watch for the groups’ reaction, nodding slightly when they all seem to agree to stay silent.
“All right. Thank you.” you turn to the pink Gem who has recoiled into herself, looking more nervous than you’ve ever seen her.
“Spinel, hon? Do you want to say anything?”
She closes her eyes and sighs, a resolute look passing over her features. She quickly unwraps her arms from herself and steps in front of you, looking at each member of the group before finally locking eyes with Steven, who stood next to Lapis.
“I am... so sorry for all that I’ve done,” she says, her voice quivering in fear, “I h-have no excuses, but I’d like t’make things right in any way I can. If you’ll let me.”
You look to Steven, the first person you’d expect to extend the olive branch.
He sighs and shakes his head, and your eyes go wide- is he really going to refuse?
“Spinel, I want to give you that second chance. Well, third chance at this point,” he says with an awkward chuckle.
“I just... the Gems and I need to talk to Y/n and hear what happened while you were...gone,” he finishes, giving Spinel a shrug.
You turn to your companion and she glances between you and Steven frantically for a moment, before clasping her hands tightly in front of her.
“Fine,” she says, voice louder than before. “Just... don’t try to pull a fast one and take her away from me, yeah?”
Pearl furrows her brows as she ushers you a couple feet away, leaving Peridot and Lapis hanging back to watch over Spinel.
You form a sort of circle with the Crystal Gems, hands on your hips and glancing between them expectantly.
“Well? What’s up with everything, Y/n?” Amethyst spits out, “What the hell is the deal with all... that?”
“Y/n, it just seems... like a really weird situation,” Steven admits, scratching the back of his neck.
You heave out a sigh- something you’re doing frequently today, you’ve noticed.
“I told you guys I could take care of it,” you reply, giving them a pointed look. They need to know that you’re not incapable just because you’re human, and while you appreciate the protectiveness, it’s time to back off a little.
The group reacts... much differently than you had expected.
“Oooh,” Pearl breathes out, a look of realization crossing her features.
You tilt your head in confusion, and mutter out, “Huh...?”
Amethyst looks towards Pearl, who motions her forward to whisper in her ear.
“Oh, I gotcha!” Amethyst exclaims, looking your way.
“What? What are you getting?” you ask, clearly missing something.
“Don’t worry, Y/n,” Garnet says, speaking up for the first time since you got back, “We can handle it from here.”
“O-okay...” you stutter, still terribly confused and a little concerned.
They lead you back to Lapis, Peridot and Spinel, who seem to have been standing in silence the whole time.
You try to meet Spinel’s eyes, but she looks downcast, avoiding your gaze.
“So!” Pearl exclaims, clasping her hands together, “We’ve figured out what’s going on!”
“What? I barely told her anything,” you think, wondering what she could have surmised from what you said.
“We just need to sort everything out with some... things...” she glances towards Spinel at the last word as she trails off, and you cross your arms in front of you. Whatever she is thinking, she very clearly has the wrong idea.
“I heard,” Spinel cuts in before you can speak your mind. She turns to you with swirling eyes, and a sense of dread and déjà vu washes over you.
“I heard what ya said- when I took you. ‘I can handle this.’ Yeah, that’s what it was.” Her voice grows deeper and she narrows her eyes, but doesn’t move.
“You can handle this... as in, you can trick me into thinkin’ you care about me to get me to take ya back? To play with my feelin’s like I’m just a toy that you need to get rid of as soon as possible?”
Your stomach sinks, and you feel nauseous. How is this happening again?
Suddenly, a springy pink arm shoots forward, but not towards you. Spinel catches Peridot by surprise, grabbing the rejuvenator from her grip before she can react. The Crystal Gems get into position around you, ready to protect you and each other if need be.
She looks at you sadly, her eyes returned to their normal pink hue. Glancing between you and the rejuvenator in her hand, she shakes her head, then suddenly turns and runs back the way you had come from.
“Spinel!” you call out hopelessly. She’s too fast, springing through the outcropping of trees and out of sight before you can even move.
Tears well up in your eyes as you turn on the other Gems.
“What the hell?” you scream, not caring about keeping it together at this point.
“You made her think- I wouldn’t... why would you think I would manipulate her like that for weeks just to get back here?” you screech, tears freely falling down your cheeks.
“Y/n, no, I...” Pearl whispers pathetically, placing a hand over her mouth.
You glare at her before rounding on Garnet. “And you! You have future vision, yeah? How the hell didn’t you see this coming? That Pearl had completely misinterpreted what I meant?”
Garnet sighs and removes her visor, gazing at you with her trio of multicolored eyes.
“You know I see possible and probable futures, not certain ones. I didn’t...see things going like this,” she finishes, putting her glasses back on. You roll your eyes, but you realize she’s right- it was just a giant, dumb misunderstanding. Granted, Pearl could have actually asked you to clarify everything instead of immediately assuming, but...
“Ok. Here’s what’s gonna happen,” you say sternly, addressing the group. Pearl casts her gaze downward, and you avoid looking at her all together.
“I’m going to go find Spinel, whom I care about deeply. I don’t care what any of you think, so please just let me find her.”
Steven steps forward, placing a hand on your shoulder. “We’re not going to stop you, Y/n. Is there any way we can help?”
You give him a small smile and glance up at the forested hill you had traversed down to get back to the boardwalk.
“Well, I could use a lift...”
x * x * x * x * x
After going through the various options of transport, you all decide the safest for you is the small ship that Pearl had been piloting earlier, much to your disappointment. You didn’t really want to be alone with her right now, but you had no choice.
You climb into the small opening and give Pearl a grimace of a smile.
“Can only hope Spinel isn’t too far away...”
Pearl sends the ship straight up, and you have to grab onto the surrounding seats to keep your balance.
“Geez, careful,” you mumble, righting yourself once the ship has steadied.
“Sorry.”
You sigh and roll your eyes, deciding now is not the time to press any issues you have with her. Your focus needs to be finding Spinel- fast.
The ship crests over the top of the hill, and you look towards the way you came, back towards the injector. No pink Gem, as far as you can tell.
“Y/n, look...”
Pearl calls you over softly, pointing out her side of the small circular ship.
“She’s on Rose’s hill,” the Gem remarks, a faraway look in her eyes.
“Pearl, can you... please bring me there? Not too close, and don’t let her see the ship,” you direct, and Pearl follows your request immediately. She pilots the ship expertly, landing at the base of the hill.
You clamber out awkwardly, earning a fond smile from Pearl.
“I really am sorry,” she retorts stiffly, before flying away and leaving you to your own devices. You watch her leave for a moment, hoping that no lasting damage had been done to your friendship. Turning towards the hill, you take a deep breath and begin the climb.
“My journey with her began at the base of a hill. I suppose this is only fitting.”
You stare at the back of Spinel’s form, much as you had this morning before you’d left the island. She’s perched on a rock, staring at something in her hands, presumably the rejuvenator. You don’t want to startle her, so you wait to approach a moment, observing from afar.
After a moment, she heaves a loud sigh, loud enough for you to hear from your place slightly downhill. She gazes forlornly out over the city and moves closer to the cliffs edge.
Your eyes go wide, and suddenly there’s only one thought in your head.
“She’s going to try to shatter herself off the side of the cliff.”
“Spinel!!” you screech, rushing forward, a hand outstretched.
Spinel jumps back in surprise, clutching the rejuvenator to her chest.
“Y/n?! What are you d-doin up here?” she asks, eyes going wide.
“What do you think? I’m coming after you, Spinel. I wanted to explain-”
“Oh, don’t bother. Heard everythin’ you had to say.”
You roll your eyes. “That’s the thing though, you didn’t. I said one sentence and they all assumed what they wanted to assume, because none of them really wanted to believe that I could have learned to care for you so quickly. But they were wrong.”
Spinel turns back to face the city, and the cliff’s edge. “Yeah, well. Can’t say I blame ‘em. Pretty damn unlikely, you and I.”
Your face blanches as she stands on the precipice, and there’s only one thing you can think to do.
“Spinel, please, please don’t!”
You dart between her and the cliff’s edge, making sure you have proper footing.
“Please don’t jump... please don’t go and leave me...”
Spinel glances behind you and then meets your eyes, one eyebrow raising.
“What... did you think I was gonna do?”
“J-jump, and... try to shatter yourself,” you stutter out, tears forming in the corners of your eyes.
Spinel sighs and turns away from you, plopping back down on the rock she had been sitting on earlier.
“No, doll, I... considered it, but I’m not that eager to cease to exist. I just thought...”
She trails off and glances at the rejuvenator in her hand.
“Thought it might be easier on everyone if I went back to the way I was before. Cheery, fun...”
“...Stupid?” you offer with a small smile, recalling another time she’d compared her current form to her previous.
The joke doesn’t take, and Spinel rolls her eyes. “Yeah, whatever. Just... something that’s not me. I want to forget. I can’t... I don’t want to live with all these painful memories anymore.”
Her voice cracks on the last word and she breaks into silent tears, burying her face in her hands.
“I’ve just d-done so much wrong here. I just want t-to start over.”
You gaze sadly at the Gem you’ve come to care about so much, and wish you had the magic words to make everything better, to help her see the value in herself. But you had no such words, and could only offer what you knew.
“Spinel.”
You touch her shoulder gingerly as you say her name, and sit next to her on the rock, wishing you could just hug her right here. But you suspect she might need some space.
“Spinel, I won’t lie, you’ve messed up a couple times.”
A sob wracks her body, and your heart just about breaks right then and there.
You hurry and continue, “You’ve messed up but you’ve also grown so much! You’ve learned from those mistakes and are bettering yourself through them. Just like humans do. Humans constantly learn and change, our entire lives. It’s part of why Rose loved this world so much, I think.”
“And you don’t need to worry about everyone else, I sorted everything out with that. We’ll need to talk more later, but for now... they’re not going to do anything to you, or attack us, or send you somewhere else.”
At that, Spinel finally lifts her head. “Yeah?” she asks hopefully, wiping away a tear.
“Yeah,” you say gently, taking the opportunity to move the rejuvenator from her hand to the ground, replacing it with your own hands.
“And we can have... a life here, Spinel. We can do all those fun things we talked about, and you can see snow, and... isn’t that just exciting?”
Spinel sniffs once and sits up slowly, turning not to the city, but to you.
“Yeah. It’s amazing,” she says softly, cupping your face in her hand. You lean into her familiar touch, blinking away a few tears.
She pulls you to her shoulder gently, and you rest your head on your favorite spot, snuggling in close.
The two of you gaze out over Beach City as the sun sets on the horizon, illuminating the faint pink ocean into a brilliant magenta.
“Hey, Y/n?” Spinel asks shyly.
“Yeah?”
“...I love you.”
Well. That was unexpected.
“I love you too, Spinel.”
You were dreamin’ of me, huh?
Such a cute commission from @another-fucking-spinel-blog ahh!! I love this kinda stuff, hopefully y’all enjoy Spinel greeting ya in the morning!








