We really should go to bed. But we’re scared and in a weird state that’s both dissociated and stressed, almost agitated in some way?
What if we split tonight? What if, like usual, we have more flashbacks tonight and that causes the split to be completed? If it isn’t already…
I wish we at least had therapy tomorrow but it’s only the day after tomorrow! That seems like a really long time right now :c
I’m so sorry and so confused! I feel guilty for “allowing” this split to happen and at the same time I feel guilty for wishing the budding system mate to disappear before he’s even really here. How cold and heartless of me. How hypocritical! Typical! Always talking about accepting everyone in the system and then wishing them to disappear! But also: Not being able to help Chamaeleon so he doesn’t need to split off in the first place. Not being able to allow someone else to help Chamaeleon, or even just take some of the burdens off his shoulders.
Failing all around at being there for my system.