Confession: I always thought Heaven Can't Wait was super forced and badly written? Like it has good elements but I can't explain how much it feels written by a person who's never interacted with other people before, and not in a charming way. I can almost forgive the huge miss on Dean about low-wage jobs but the OTHER characters also just don't tend to act like REAL people, especially Nora??? She kisses Cas on the lips and leads him on in a way that imho is even more socially awkward than Cas is. Like girl has never been on planet earth and gives weird speeches fr??? Then again, her date was a bust because she wore a cocktail dress to a bowling alley, so. Maybe she's not the most socially gifted person either. Anyway, I have always thought the character work was pretty bad in execution on it.
👆 Another woman that Berens isn't skilled to write has been found...
The thing that bothers me the most about Nora is that she confides her baby to some random guy (she doesn't know "Steve", his past, his intentions... she doesn't even know if he had ever interacted with babies) and she lets him inside her home unsupervised.
All that is bad enough, but she does so after leading "Steve" on (as you pointed out) and like... anyone with two braincells, after doing on purpose something that could hurt or anger someone else, would not go "I will trust you with this <3" about important things of their life. Summing up, it goes "I tricked you here under false pretenses, so now you'll watch my baby for me and stay in my home all alone while I have fun ;) What could go wrong? ;)"
Respectfully, what the fuck is wrong with her??? (Answer: terrible writing)
PS: I didn't remember the cocktail dress to bowling. My 😂
If you haven't listened to the 9x06 episode of SPN Then and Now then please, I beg of you, DO IT IMMEDIATELY!
Absolute king Bobo Berens gives an A+ interview, talking about the Destiel of it all, queer subtext, his development as the fandom's sleeper agent, and oh so much more!
IT'S THE PODCAST EPISODE WE DESERVE MY FINE DESTIEL FRIENDS
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005)
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester
Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural)
Additional Tags: Episode: s09e06 Heaven Can't Wait (Supernatural), Episode: s09e06 Heaven Can't Wait - Overnight Time Gap (Supernatural), Light Angst, Hurt Castiel (Supernatural), Emotionally Hurt Castiel (Supernatural), Angry Castiel (Supernatural), Human Castiel (Supernatural), No beta because I have a fear of being perceived
Summary:
“And you know what the worst part is, Dean? I had finally started to get comfortable and accept this new life of mine and then you show up across the counter and it all comes crashing down again.”
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Castiel has every right to be angry and confused with Dean.
I guess I never posted this one when I first wrote it? But this was my first ever fanfic, a little Heaven Can’t Wait Coda (everyone needs one!)
Proof I have a jimdestiel fic in progress, life’s just being a bitch right now.
Premise: After years of being unconscious since their death to Lucifer, Jimmy wakes up inside his body to a newly-human Cas right after Dean asks him to leave the bunker. They’re both human now, neither being able to leave their body, and having to survive out in the world on their own.
Have this snippet.
“Castiel…”
“Cas.”
Jimmy stopped.
“What?..”
He watched Castiel lower their gaze sheepishly.
“That is what Sam and Dean call me.” He explained. “It doesn’t feel right to keep calling myself ‘Castiel’ when I am no longer an angel.”
That was new. Jimmy once called Castiel “Cas” himself, in the heat of the moment, as he was desperately praying for the angel to save his family from demons. He vaguely remembered the Winchesters call him that as well. Jimmy didn’t recall Castiel himself objecting to the nickname, or preferring it to his full name. Frankly, their emotional barriers were way more solid back then, and Jimmy couldn’t access the angel’s emotions in the moment.
Unlike right now, as Jimmy was feeling every little and big thing Castiel was feeling. It was like, as the former angel’s grace had gone, so had the walls between them. Like their souls, or rather soul and soul-like entity, meshed together, and along with them — their emotions.
“Alright. Cas.” He tested the name. Somehow, it felt more intimate than using the full one, like one more layer of separation between them dissipated. “There’s one thing I don’t understand. Why don’t you ask the Winchester brothers for help?”
Jimmy knew those two were important to heaven. That was how they met Cas. From the way the former angel talked about the brothers, Jimmy assumed they grew quite close in the years he was absent. Surely, they would offer their help if Castiel were to ask?
Except, as soon as those words were communciated to Cas, the anguish inside of them amplified tenfold. Jimmy felt their throat constrict, and a wave of thousands little pins pierce their chest.
Suddenly, Jimmy felt fear.
“Cas… What happened with the Winchesters?”
Castiel, his almost finished meal discarded beside him on the bench, sat frozen for a moment. Jimmy would have thought him asleep if not for the pangs of grief running through their body, from the depth of their chest and down to their limbs. A wave through their throat, then utter and dull silence. A wave again, prefaced by an inner jolt of realization. A foggy, grainy filter over their thoughts. A shock again.
Jimmy recognised what this was. He’d felt it himself, in the brief time he was in control of his body again, Cas having been dragged away to heaven temporarily. It’s how your body attempted to rationalize what happened to you. Something so horrible it had to block the thoughts before they became too much.
“I– They’re fine…” Cas spoke out loud. Perhaps, doing that, instead of thinking his reply, made it easier to get the words out. “I did ask them for assistance, yes.” Castiel’s voice was shaky.
“What did they say?” Jimmy prompted carefully.
Cas took a trembling breath. Closed their eyes.
“Dean asked me to leave.” He whispered, just barely. “He said I couldn’t stay with them.”
Jimmy took a second to process that information.
“What? But… why?” He asked.
“I don’t know.” Cas uttered, so quietly that, if Jimmy was not inside their head, he would not have heard him at all. “I… I don’t know.”
Grief. A tightness in their throat.
Suddenly, it all made sense.
“Oh, Cas…”
The pain, the grief — it was for this. Not just the loss of grace, but loss of family. Castiel lost the angels, and now — his new, found family, the only two people in the world who accepted him as he was.
Just like Cas, Jimmy didn’t understand why. From what he’d seen, and what he’d heard, both Sam and Dean seemed to value Castiel. Dean especially. What could have possibly motivated them to just… abandon Cas like that? A newly human, vulnerable, remorseful Cas, the one who thought of himself so badly he refused to buy even scraps of food to sustain himself.
“I understand your confusion.” He heard Cas speak, back to communicating inside their head. It seemed that Jimmy’s feelings were so loud that Cas decided to address them directly. “Dean told me it was because I was a threat to their safety. I am being hunted by all angels on Earth, after all.”
Their safety.
Oh, Jimmy wasn’t feeling just confused. He felt furious.
“What the actual fuck?” Jimmy felt Cas flinch, not expecting him to curse like that. “Their safety? What about your safety, Cas?! You’re human! You’re being hunted by every angel in creation! How is Dean,” he spat the name out, “expecting you to defend yourself against that?! Fuck, forget the angels, you could be ambushed by a drunk looking for a fight and die!”
“Jimmy…” Cas whispered tentatively.
“No, Cas! Just… no!” He interrupted.
If Jimmy were in control, he would be stomping around, fuming with anger. Who did those Winchesters think they were?! Convincing an angel to rebel against heaven for them, die for them — multiple times, — save their asses from an angelic civil war, and then just discard him when he became an inconvenience?!
“J-Jimmy, I’m…”
Jimmy stopped his inner raging at the shaky voice. He tuned back into Cas’ feelings.
Jimmy, or Cas, felt… Anxious. Sad. Heartbroken. Panicked..?
He realized the former angel’s breathing was starting to become quicker, more irregular.
“Cas!” Instantly, Jimmy’s anger turned into concern. “I’m sorry, Cas, I got carried away. Please, breathe, okay?” He pleaded as Castiel’s breathing grew increasingly erratic.
“J-Jimmy… I’m s-sor– W-Wha–”
Cas stood up from the bench and clutched at their shirt. Their eyes filled with tears.
Cas was feeling very, very freaked out. He was clawing at his chest, as if he wanted rip out the feelings choking him from the inside. Jimmy had a realization that this was probably Cas’ first ever panic attack. Or any sort of experience with strong emotions. Point was, the former angel had no idea how to deal with the overwhelming feelings.
“Cas, Cas, it’s okay, you’re okay. It’s just a panic attack, you’re gonna be okay! I can help you get through this, if you listen to me!” He pleaded for Cas, hoping his words reached him. Fortunately, it seemed that Castiel heard him, as he stopped trying to squeeze at his own chest. “Okay, good, I want you to take deep breaths with me, okay? In… and out. In… and out.”
Cas obeyed Jimmy’s commands with utmost trust, taking shaky breaths along with his words. With how quick he was to do so, it seemed like Cas had been starving for any kind of guidance, any support. That fact made Jimmy feel very, very sad, but also grateful to be there with him.
If not for Jimmy, right now Cas, human and lost, would be utterly, profoundly alone. And not a single creature in the entire universe would be there to offer him support.
Right there and then, as Castiel — kind, well-meaning Castiel — calmed his lost heart to the count of a human soul inside him, Jimmy came to a decision. After all this time, their past disagreements didn’t matter that much, not really. Not when they both had changed so much, grown way beyond who they were when they first met.
And so, Jimmy would stay. He would try to become someone this cosmic, unfathomable being could lean on. Jimmy may not have a great purpose to serve, but he could do this one thing. He could support Castiel. Guide him. Help him survive in this cruel world.
They both had lost so much. Too much. They lost the only family they’ve ever known, through no fault of their own. They had no one and nowhere to go. But, Jimmy thought, they could have each other. He wouldn’t leave Cas alone.
Rewatched heaven can’t wait for my human Cas oneshot and :(((
He is so proud of himself! He’s a sales associate!! He failed at being an angel, but he can do one thing right!!!
Also I can’t bring myself to write him being as positive as he is in the show about being homeless and alone… Poor guy, I wanna swaddle him in a blanket :’c
Spn 9x06 the victims that have been vaporized were 1. a man who had been divorced, and 2. a girl who had been broken up with, and... Cas, who had just been broken up with kicked out of the bunker.
Who is acting like a "scorned lover" according to [a director or writer (I can't remember)]
