I think a lot about Lucifers self isolation and self hatred and how it all revolves around pride and him not being able to see past his own nose (ha), particularly in a very Dantes Inferno sort of way. He's frozen, he's stuck, he's often unable to recognize the reality of what's going on in the world around him. He loves his daughter but his own self absorption keeps him from being fully present in her life. He's spent the last 7 years and very likely long before falling into despair, spiraling not unlike Charlie was before Vaggi helped drag her out of it.
And to have that visual of him, trapped and powerless and essentially frozen, in a pit where he is unable to witness the "good of humanity", is insane. Sinners standing together alongside an angel and his own daughter, empowered and strong and full of love and hope. His daughter's dream, his wife's dream, but he is not allowed to play a part in it. He looks up, obviously listening to their song of hope, but unable to partake, unable to snag any of that hope for himself. Lucifer is still isolated and alone and when he eventually claws his way out of the pit, he is broken and in pain and there is no one to catch him when he falls.
Back at the hotel he is back to his old ways, stumbling around the hotel without interacting with anyone. Disappearing, retreating back to his own little world. I worry deeply for what will become of him, not for how he is being treated but for how he will allow himself to slip further and further away into the abyss.
The thing that's so fascinating about miss Holloway and her immortality to me is that she's not even that old. Like if she was in her late 20s - 30s when she made the deal in the 80s then she would currently be like in her 70s or something (I can't really do maths but vaguely this) which is old but also so different from other immortals in media where they're normally like 100 or older
First off, I would like to apologize for the crimes I have committed against both god and nature. I will be doing it again.
You can call me Spoon! Sorry to everybody who got tricked by the TMNT theme. It's the wild west in here y'all. You've been bamboozled. This is my Scrooge McDuck vault of Assorted Blorbos now.
Minors and blogs that do not indicate that they are adults in their bio, masterpost, or about page will be blocked.
super cool divider art done collaboratively by me and @thepinkpanther83
RULES:
Don't message me with weird guilt trips about reblogging/interacting with/being friends with people. I am an entire adult. We're all obsessed with fictional characters in here, okay? It's all fiction. Just be cool about it.
Do message me with thoughts about the blorbos! Dive on in here like a Scrooge McDuck! Talk to me about my fics or share your thoughts!
Don't try to pressure me about writing a thing. My writing method is erratic at best. I'll get to it if I say I'll get to it, and your guess is as good as mine about when.
Do talk to me like a person! I promise I'm not scary. I'm just two coyotes in a trenchcoat trying to buy a hot dog.
Don't get weird about shit. We're pro queerness in here. There's cloaca smut here. Sometimes I reblog not-tcest art from artists who do tcest. We're not gonna talk about thought crimes. Sometimes there's gonna be dark subjects and I'm not gonna beat y'all over the head about how much I don't condone something in a work of fiction. I don't care what anybody ships as long as they tag it appropriately.
Do let me know if you want to be on the taglist, or if you want to be tagged for anything specific that I write! Responding to this post will be the most effective way to do that, because I keep losing my list and my brain is a filing cabinet filled with rats.
I only sort of take requests? By which I mean all requests are essentially throwing spaghetti at the wall and seeing what sticks. If it scratches the creature in my brain that guards access to the pretty words, I may be granted access to them. Never hurts to give it a shot! If it's a hard no, I'll tell you. If it's not, I'll hang onto it until I get around to it. WIP Mountain is large and I throw something new onto it constantly.
MASTERLIST:
Gonna organize these by fandom. Currently it's just TMNT and Stranger Things, but the world is my oyster and I do what I want, so. May or may not expand at a later date.
All of my hurt has comfort, because I am Soft.
All of my works are x reader. Write what you know, etc etc. I don't use Y/N in my works. Nothing against it, just not the way I write.
Please please please abide by the TWs. If you have any questions about something and want to know what happens related to a specific trigger on a specific work to gauge if you'll be okay reading it or not, please do ask me! I'm always happy to give more information. I'll always tag for the big common triggers like addiction or drug/alcohol use, abuse, sexual assault, suicide, etc. if I include them.
All characters are, at minimum, 20.
You can find me on AO3 here
TMNT
Mr. Brightside - BayRaphxReader - it's Mr Brightside by the Killers but make it Bayverse Raphael. Pining. So much pining. Friends to lovers. You're going out with Vern - as his wingman. Wearing Red's color. Not smut but I wouldn't read it to your boss
Yellow Light - BayRaphxReader - inspired by Inventor's Daughter by The Branches. No TWs. Very minor injury. Hurt/Comfort. Meet-cute. Open-ended pining. Raph's brothers dare him to do some dumb shit, it does not go as planned. That's okay. Your date wasn't that great anyway.
Bruised - BayRaphxReader - ' “He thinks he can beat on my girl?” Raphael snarls. ' - your boyfriend is a piece of shit. Raph finds out. - TWs: domestic violence, strong hints at strangulation, hints at previous sexual assault, dissociating\panic attack, graphic violence - 'unrequited' pining on both sides (it's idiots to lovers again), vaguely possessive Raph but like in the hot way - NSFW
Big Damn Hero - BayRaphxReader - Multi-Chapter - Completed - slow burn idiots to lovers, injury, description of canon-typical violence, hurt/comfort- this one turned into an OC instead of a reader by accident. I've only got the first chapter up on tumblr, but the rest of it is posted on AO3. -
The Bad Touch - BayDonniexReader - possibly the funniest I have ever been. Hand kink. First kiss. Love confessions. - One shot - Not smut but definitely not safe for work either.
Serendipity - BayMikeyxReader - Multi-chapter - Ongoing -soulmates AU. pining. canon-typical violence. Fluff. - haven't gotten this one on tumblr yet. *shakes fist at formatting*
Mating Season - BayMikeyxReader - exactly what it says on the tin. - Pining. Some mild wrist pinning. Cloaca smut. - Explicitly Not Safe For Work
Stranger Things
No One Like You - Multi-chapter - Ongoing - fix-it fic that follows the plot of the show. Or - Eddie Munson gets the care he deserves while living a long and vibrant life - hurt/comfort. slow burn. acquaintances to lovers. Eddie has the PTSD. - haven't gotten this one on tumblr yet. *shakes fist at formatting*
It's Going To Be His Year - One-shot that had to be posted in chapters because it's huge - Eddie Munson should have a senior photo. It's his third try, after all. Someone should have at least taken a half-assed photo of him in the hallway, or the cafeteria, or, ideally, during whatever it is the Hellfire Club does one of those years. He doesn't. - TWs: discussion of prior eating disorder, non-descriptive discussion of previous abusive relationship, it's fluff but you're gonna earn it
Rainy Days - Multi-chapter - Ongoing - written third person instead of second person POV - Eddie rescues you when your truck breaks down and you have nowhere else to go. - TWs: brief depiction of domestic violence, allusions to prior abuse, brief description of being strangled, both Eddie and Reader have PTSD - There's at least four more chapters of this in my brain, I promise it will update - haven't gotten this one on tumblr yet. *shakes fist at formatting*
any other writing I do (if I ever do blurbs, etc.) should be listed under "#spoon writes". Sometimes I forget. Filing cabinet full of rats and all.
Hey hi! I’m not too bad- albeit slightly irritated by recent events :((
Anyhoo, I don’t have a list per se, but I do have ~22 drafts sitting in wait (most of them are just me writing for the sake of writing and will probably never see the light of day), but here’s the stuff I’ve been working on:
Ocean eyes part 7.1, 8, and 9 (pt. 8 is mostly done, hopefully I can get it out around Christmas)
Reasons part 3 and 4 (am brewing some angst)
A MAMA award fic for anon
2 x werewolf!bada fics are sitting in a corner waiting for me to finish them (one of them was meant for Halloween that just passed but I didn’t get it complete in time :( the other one I’m STRUGGLING with it has been years since I wrote anything abo related but I’m doing my best to make alpha!bada a thing for anon)
Someone suggested possessive!bada, I’m not very good at writing jealousy so I’m slowly grinding through that one
A gp!reader x bottom!bada fic (probably will not see the light of day tbh)
A smoke sesh with SWF2 cast light writing (I’m actually having heaps of fun with this- slight problem: I smoke too much whenever writing it, makes editing v difficult)
A Christmas fic I started a while ago (will hard pivoting this one after @bluebada ’s post cause cliches??? I’m a sucker for them)
I might have a few sub!bada fics sitting around (special thanks to @princhii mentioning puppy play and @sun-nyy posting that godforsaken picture)
Mechanic!bada fic (ft. @nimxie ’s post- stranded on side of the road??? Because she can't leave a pretty girl alone, can she??? What did I say about me being a sucker for cliches-)
I think that’s most of them! I just keep starting new wip instead of actually finishing fics up like a sane person >/////<
Oh and it really doesn’t help that I’ve decided to pick up extra work and a new hobby in the midst of all this (fuck yeah audhd)!
Thanks for checking in on me, and sorry for the organised chaos ^_^ hopefully I have a little more time to sort through all these over Christmas break…
