Send me “Goodbye” for the last voice message my muse leaves for yours before they die.
Uh, I…I don’t really know why I’m doing this,to be honest. I know you don’t want me calling you, ‘cause that hasn’t changed,but I…I just…I guess I have no other person to talk to right now. I know, it’s prettyfucking lame.
You know, I…I thought I could do this. It wasonly a hundred years, no big deal…and then I---I just…it’s too much fuckingtime, you know?
I…I’m not gonna say anything stupid and sad,because that’s just not how we work. I don’t really care about what happens tobe from now on. I just…I just really wanted to find him, you know? He kept megoing all these years…
And I know I can’t leave them, I can’t leaveLily alone. But I know I won’t last much…I know I’m dying and it’s so fuckingstupid, I swear, I don’t know what got into me right now. I always told myselfI wouldn’t let anyone watch me die. ‘Cause that makes you weak, right? Peopleseeing you like that…and here I am, and I just can’t stop talking and it’sfucking pathetic.
Look, I…I just wanted to talk to someone whounderstood…someone who knew how it feels like. I guess I just don’t wanna diejust like this…it’s lonely…and…can I tell you a secret? I wouldn’t like dyingall alone.
So, now you know how stupid I am, and howstupid I’m being right now…
I just---I just wanna ask you something. Just afavour. Don’t worry, it’s nothing illegal. If you…if you ever find him, alongwith your friends…would you tell him I’m sorry? I’m sorry I couldn’t save him…thatI’m sorry it had to end like that…
I know I won’t find him right now, and I don’twanna have him wait other hundred years to hear me say this.
So, huh…I’m gonna hang up now. I’m sorry tospam your voicemail with this, I just…needed to vent, I guess. It’s better thatyou didn’t’ pick up, though, our chat would’ve been really lame.
Just…I really hope you find them. I do; ‘causeI know how it feels like. Funny, long ago I wouldn’t have wanted anyone to behappy if I wasn’t. Guess that changed with time. Lots of things have changedfor us…
Sorry, I should just hang up…I’m running out oftime. Yeah, I’m gonna hang up now. Just…find them, okay? And tell themeverything you couldn’t tell them before.
By the way, you look nice in a suit. Fits youbetter than the weird trench coat~
It was nice meeting you, Gil…can I call youthat? Raven just doesn’t suit you anymore. I guess we’ll see each other again someday.
I really hope you find them.”