Hi Moni, could I please get a reading on my (platonic) relationship with BJL♊? Sometimes it seems like he doesn't really care about me/my friendship that much but other times we get along really well and since I have social anxiety it's difficult for me to tell if my own insecurities/paranoia are the cause of my doubts or if he isn't 100% real with me, I just wanna know how really feels towards me. Thank you for your time & energy ❤ -NS♑
Hi, NS!! How are you, baby?? I used Tarot of Sexual Magick and Oracle of Angels of Love for you!!
What does BJL feels for you: The Chariot, The Empress (reversed), The Death, The Fool.
BJL’s feelings are not romantic. Yes, he may have interest or an attraction of any kind towards you, but there are no romantic feelings in him. It’s not that he doesn’t care about you, but his interest in you comes and goes. In addition, your insecurity also affects him, so he doesn’t feel safe by your side. However, the cards tell me that you could share a karmic bond, a relationship from a past life. One of the things that most stand out my cards is that there are no adequate bases to create a romantic relationship between you. Both of you are not prepared mentally and emotionally to start a romantic relationship, since you are not able to grant yourself balance, but quite the opposite.
My cards recommend you to reflect on this relationship: look for what unites you both, not what separates you. The relationship you have today, although minimal, will last over time, but it can fall into the routine and bore you both. I don’t see a romantic relationship between you, but a cordial relationship that, with some effort and sacrifice for the other, can become a friendship. Both of you can see each other again in the future and share pleasant encounters, since the relationship with BJL will seem to take a simple path and everything is going well. However, NS, watch out for expectations, since you could get a disappointment that could affect your mood very negatively. BJL appears as a person with practical feelings: if he gets bored or tired, he will leave the relationship without thinking about it. On the other hand, he may have some selfish attitudes that hurt you.
About your relationship: Queen of Pentacles, Eight of Pentacles, Eight of Swords.
Your relationship is very unbalanced, NS. You appear represented as the Queen of Pentacles: you have a great affection for BJL, but he seems not to feel the same or, at least, not to prove it. You have been trying to understand your relationship and BJL attitudes for a while; you working so that the relationship advances or, at least, doesn’t stagnate, and it seems that you never get it. The cards are very clear, NS, for now, the relationship with BJL will not allow you to grow as a person, but to repress and limit yourself by not understanding the situation in which you find yourself.
A general advice for this situation: Knight of Pentacles (reversed).
This card asks you to live the moment and let time tell what will happen to you two. Right now neither of them is prepared to have a relationship, so it is best to enjoy without thinking about tomorrow. Live the present, the moment and the experiences that will begin, but don’t stop being honest with yourself or with others.
An advice for you: Karmic Relationship, Love yourself first, Chemistry, Forgive and learn.
The angels have different cards for you, so I will share with you all their messages. I think it’s a great way to close your reading, so stay tuned, NS! The angels tell you again that your relationship with BJL is a karmic relationship. You both knew each other from a past life and this link is special. If at any time you have felt that you knew him as if you had years of friendship or a similar feeling, here is the answer. However, sharing a karmic bond doesn’t mean that your relationship must always be idyllic. You have both met again because you have to finish something that you didn’t finish before. You both have a mission to complete and you can both achieve it in this life.
However, the angels ask you for time to love yourself first. Things are not going well with BJL because you are not prepared to be by his side. Angels think you still have a lot of personal work to do: self-love and become your own best friend. The wrong image you have of yourself is causing distancing or negative situations with BJL and, in addition, with other people in your environment. One of your jobs during 2020 will be to love and respect yourself. When you get this balance with yourself, the angels mention a possible romantic beginning with BJL. Between you there is an experimental chemistry, but this chemistry is not visible at present because both of you are not prepared to be together.
Finally, the angels ask you to forgive and learn from the experience: forgive those who have hurt you (especially BJL), but the most important thing is that you forgive yourself. Mistakes shouldn’t limit us, nor describe us, but they should help us improve. The past must remain in the past and you must open your arms to the present and not fear the future. Don’t be afraid to love yourself or to be yourself around the people who are with you, since that will make you know the right path.
