I’m just so happy that I’v e been ab;e to grow so much in the last year. I mean, back in January 2014 I was soo uncomfortable with my body and myself that I couldn’t post a picture on this website, that I couldn’t call myself beautiful, that I felt like just because I’m big means I can’t be pretty too. A year ago I found it hard to wear shorts out in public, I thought that skinny jeans were meant for skinny girls. I thought that if I wore makeup people would think I was trying too hard and I never wanted to dress up in fear that people would say something or think I was trying to impress everybody. All of these things I had been taught throughout my life by the television and popular media on Facebook, and some of it even from this website. I was afraid to admit that I liked the things I did. I would never acknowledge the fact that I was fat. I just can’t believe I’ve come so far. Over a year ago I was a completely different person, and I’ve grown and learned all of the self confidence and everything I need to make me feel like I’mn worth something and make me know that I AM beautiful, and I’m big, too. When I was little my dad would tell me I needed to lose weight, call me a chicken nugget, he said things that were hurtful to my self esteem and said things that still affect me tday. I never wear my hair in a ponytail because he had told me it makes my round face look fat, and I’m still today trying to unlearn that and love myself. But everyday I love me more, my body and my personality and everything I am. Ovr a year ago I was afraid to be loud, afraid to talk to people. I was considered ‘shy’. But today I know who I am, and I don’t let the people around me decided what I am and what I’m not. Sorry I just needed to get this out, becuase I am proud of myself for coming so far in such a short span of time. Thank you everyone who’s helped me through this ever. If you’ve ever messaged me, ever reblogged something of mine, ever called me your friend, I love you. Thank you for helping me shape myself into who I am today. I don’t know if I could have done it without you.