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You all remember that episode of family guy, where bryan found out he had a son and was taking care of him for a while? Also, remember the scene where they were sitting at the bar and they started talking about bad stuff and bryan was like freaking out like, "Ohhhh no i dont wanna think about it, Ohhhhh my gosh what if that happen to my son--" blah blah something like that. I'm so that anymore. Like seeing sad things or just over thinking about bad stuff makes me literally cry i'm a mess when it comes to this kid, but i love him dearly.

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I Can not Win. I say this because those pains I have been having were pancreatitis. Plus a colon and intestines infection and inflammation. I mean this when I say I thought I was dying when I had the third attack. It was close to labor pain, close. The doctor believes its from the fenugreek I was taking. So no more of that. Ever. Ever ever ever. He said normal levels for the pancreas are 300 or a little under. I kid you not he said mine was a little over 10,000. I had a ct scan, lots of fluid I was ultra dehydrated. My blood pressure didn’t want to come up. Then my heart rate got into the 40’s when I was sleeping so they freaked out. Then that made them do a heart ultrasound and checking me for sleep apnea. I’m just a mess. But I’m a healthy-ish mess. Like they said I was really healthy other than the pancreatitis and other little things. I haven’t nursed Oakley since Friday, I’ve been a total and complete wreck over it and I still can’t til Friday because of the medication. Well that’s where I’ve been now. Hazzah.

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I totally just remembered I didn't take any of my meds. Including my birth control... I'll just pop them in the morning.

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Between Oakley and josh there is SO MUCH fucking noise making and babbling in their sleep. It's like their possessed. What even man ?

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I MISS YOU SO MUCH TUMBLR. But a-lass I gotta make that cheddar to buy things for the wee-one. Sweet baby. Hopefully I'll have enough to get my tablet fixed plus now a new charger. Sigh Someday maybe I'll have a ton of money...

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I have no idea why I feel like I'm starving. Maybe its the breastfeeding? Ugh ugh ugh.

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I'm so hungry. I got really sick this morning I'm not completely sure why. I do know that my ribs, stomach and back were hurting so unbelievably bad I took a pain pill. I got up this morning sweating and in so much pain I woke josh to watch Oakley and went to my parents bathroom because they have a master with bathroom type deal so I turn their ac on full blast and leave the door open. Then I vomit and cry like a wuss. I swear. Ugh.

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Good grief Oakley's farts could take down a rhino. And he's only 2 almost 3 months D: