YWMTBH SPOILERS!!!
I think Crane wanting the outside to match the inside is what finally made me realize the source of my SH.
Wanting the inside to match the outside.
Wanting to be as hurt and scarred on the outside as you are on the inside.
I think of crane putting his head in that water and it brings me a sense of peace. Despite the pain, the obvious reflection of his state of mind, and the self harm; he did it for himself.
it’s a common theme in the book that crane has a hard time existing without guidance, and him burning his face was a way to take back control.
it’s beautiful in a way.









