#starfall personal

[starfall-spirit]

Stepping back for a while.

I’m sure some of you have seen a post going around about me lately. There was a discussion in server I thought was resolved within minutes. The other person clearly didn’t agree and—as I’m sure many of you saw—started hurling baseless accusations on tumblr our mods bought without evidence.

I’m here to enjoy fandom, not fight. People will believe who they want to believe, but I’m not going to waste my time worrying about her tantrum and watching my follower count.

I probably won’t update anything until omegaverse week, but I’ll be back around when she’s (hopefully) off the warpath.

[starfallsbroadwaylunacy]

This is exactly what it sounds like. I made a special little side blog for my musical hyperfixations so I don’t drive my mutuals absolutely nuts.

[starfall-spirit]

Cleaned my room tonight.

Final count of recovered hair ties: 9

How the frick did I lose nine hair ties in my own bedroom?

[starfall-spirit]

I’ve been missing your writing (Chapter 3 from Scarred so Pretty is just 🥵) came to your tumblr and what??? You’ve gone on hiatus? I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been surrounded by so much negativity to the extent you need to take time away from the fandom. :( I hope you are looking after yourself and the fandom is much kinder to you when you’re ready to return

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Hey there! It makes me so happy to know my work has resonated with someone enough to come asking about it. Out of respect for your kindness, I want to be straightforward when it comes to my answer here. There’s no ignoring what happened for me. A big name writer in this fandom was so paranoid about losing her popularity that they started treating fandom as a competition instead of a community. Telling tall tales their friends are happy to feed and bystanders don’t care to shut down.

It’s honestly sickening knowing how my friend was treated, and more resently myself. I have spent my summer break building a voice for myself in a new community where the popular creators do their best to SUPPORT the new and blooming artists.

When it comes to my unfinished acotar fics, i can’t write anything without inspiration. I don’t let the public attack on me weigh me down, but I also can’t find inspiration, knowing how toxic the acotar fandom has become. That unfortunately will remain the root of the problem. If I do ever update my SJM fics, it will probably just be to my ao3, so you’re welcome to stay subscribed to my account, but I can’t make any promises.

[starfall-spirit]

As you guys have probably figured out, I mostly try to keep my blog free of anything personal. I'm here to have fun with my wonderful fandom friends and escape reality above all else.

That said, if there is one thing I want to take time to spread awareness of as an individual, it's a disorder that his played a role in my life since I was a child.

For those of you who don't know, every November, National Epilepsy Awareness Month (NEAM) has been recognized since 1969, officially recognized by congress in 2003.

I won't bother you by listing out all the ways my epilepsy has affected me in the last twenty years of my life, but I will say it's something that makes this month incredibly important to me.

Epilepsy can be found in people of any age, race, or gender and develop at any point in someone's life. It's unlikely you haven't met or won't ever meet someone who's faced the struggle of regulating their epilepsy or a similar neurological disorder. If you aren't educated on ways to help someone if and when they have a seizure, please consider taking a few moments to read up on what you can do to help them during an episode, if you're so inclined. And of course, reblog to spread the word.

Article from the Epilepsy Foundation

[starfall-spirit]

I always forget as a musician that “I’m a [enter instrument]” isn’t a normal phrase. Like, I told my boss I’m a clarinet after mentioning I was a band kid and I got a confused look. Apparently that’s weird to non musicians???

[starfall-spirit]

well, i had to wake up at 2am and it took 20 minutes to check out, but I got the dang book.

[starfall-spirit]

So my grandmother is an art teacher and I spent over half of my childhood painting (very poorly) in her living room. I remember as a kid someone asked me my favorite color and I said something along the lines of "a deep blue, yet not quite indigo" or something.

And my mom was like, "tell me you're an artist's granddaughter without telling me you're an artist's granddaughter." Anyways, now I'm thinking about someone from the IC having this conversation with Nyx.