#stella-roth

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “phananananta replied to your post “i finally went back to camp, and...”

this has always bothered me about the writing because i also wasn't doing any of this (same thing with the downes nonsense), but at the same time idk what arthur has been doing for the last 20 smth years as an outlaw either so i thought it was just starting to weigh him down more than usual maybe?? idk

that downes thing made me REALLY fucking mad, because i couldn’t tell if the game borked out or if it was one of those “your choices don’t matter when we need a plot thing to happen” situations. i didn’t play the game for a few days because i was so pissed.

other than that (which i’m still not sure if it just kinda bugged out or if it’s david cage levels of “choice?”), and this conversation with mary beth, i have to say the writing is exceptional. rockstar games never really grabbed me all that much, and i know they don’t all have the same devs game to game, but the writing in most of their stuff seemed pretty fair to middling. not bad, but nothing that made me really sit up and take notice. this (and what i know of rdr1) has been pretty good so far, except for these two instances.

i’d say you’re right about it being arthur reflecting on his lifestyle and just reaching a sort of exhausted “at the end of his tether” type of mindset with it all. he’s robbed people, he’s killed, he’s beaten/threatened--and that’s just in a single day’s work. he mentions that he’s usually used as the “strong arm” in meetings that hosea sets up with people they do jobs for, so it’s clear arthur’s used to being the big looming muscle guy (and acting appropriately--which requires him to be scary and imposing and dangerous).

after a while, that act stops being an act and is something you can step into as easily as a boot, but there’s clearly still a part of arthur divorced from that behavior/way of thinking, so the cognitive dissonance--and the resulting self-loathing/despair that follows--makes even the smallest misdeeds hang even heavier in his heart.

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “thighsofthistle replied to your post “I M O, the scariest seed...”

both of these posts is why i take her out first she is by far the most terrifying and i love her for it but she has to be stopped immediately, she'd play most people like a fiddle even without bliss, and considering how everyone in the fandom treats her like she's helpless or an annoyance instead of being multifaceted only strengthens that.

YESSSSS, SAME

like, if we set aside the huge scary thing about her drugging the water supply/air and turning cult dissenters into mindless laborers, faith as a person--how she behaves, how she talks, how she can make people believe she loves them and them alone--is on par with joseph’s power of persuasion. she just puts a more personal, direct hand in it (joseph seems to speak to the crowds, and only targets the deputy in a one-on-one sense, or his family. this isn’t to say he’s less scary, but that i personally think faith’s approach is scarier).

her ability to sway people is a huge asset to the cult--hell, it is one of the defining, cornerstone powers of any cult. it is, forgive the pun, the heart of their faith: speaking to people directly, drawing them in so they believe that they can love and trust her completely. taking her out first puts a huge dent into the cult’s influence, but the damage has already been done. there’s no going back from faith’s kind of destruction, and as a writer i can’t help but fucking love a villain who is like that.

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “stella-roth replied to your post “stella-roth replied to your post ...”

he's really good at it! and ya honestly i would wanna tackle him on the reg but then you know...get in "trouble" for it lol i don't normally feel subby to a lot of men but that dude brings it out in you and i can't even be mad

jacob: where do you think you’re going?

me: straight to hell for the kinda shit i’d let you to do me

jacob, a traumatized control freak looking for a purpose:

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “stella-roth replied to your post “stella-roth replied to your post: ...”

what??!!! i had no idea about that part?? that's even more insane and gross. ya even when LJ wasn't all crazy like that ONTD was still the biggest draw, i remember the crashes too specially during FFA jfc. and if you do let us know. not sure i'm leaving all together but i'll probably make a new dreamwidth to keep in touch with you and those who also leave (maybe remake my twitter too i kinda only use tumblr and even this i don't use much)

yup. that was what made me change to DW completely, when I read the post a girl made showing screenshots and other stuff of the LJ admin going after her.

AND LMFAO FFAF OH MY GOD

I WOULD HAVE A NOTEPAD OF GIF CODES SAVED UP FOR QUICK COPYPASTING but yeah, holy shit, I remember them tanking the servers.

I’ll probably poke around on here occasionally, but I like the idea of moving my more personal stuff to DW, and saving this as just like... randomly remembering it exists and reblogging edits/gifs of fandom shit. But as far as me talking about my life and sharing fic goes, that’s gone. And I don’t really feel too bad about that, anyway. DW allows me to keep my shit private, so weirdos can’t read my personal journal entries anyway.

If you do make a new one, please do add me! And anyone can add me on twitter: kristwrites. I’m honestly active all over the place, so the only downside of me migrating off this site is not having easier messaging access to my pals :( But if we can stay in touch elsewhere, all the better.

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “stella-roth replied to your post “redownloads new vegas on the...”

honestly getting to mod any of the fallout games is just so cool, like base game vanilla is fun ofc whatever but those little tweaks and other things just enhances its greatness

yes!! my modded skyrim on ps4 is so much more fun and just a better experience ovverall than vanilla skyrim ever was. most of the mods i get are just patches and performance stabilizers, but wit fo4 i dabbled into armor mods (ballistic weave--gimme dat armored bathrobe baby!!) and a softer variation of the hardcore survival mode.

modding fallout games is fun not only bc the community often does better work than the original releases, it’s also really cool to see what they put their time/energy into. the music mods alone are a testament to this: thousands and thousands of hours of old music are dug up and put into these mods just for the aesthetic! that’s amazing!

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “FUCK THAT GUY SIDEWAYS. …….. JOHN, I MEAN. NOT THE PASTOR.” i CRY”

i always wondered if it had to do with feeling so distant from him since he probably remembers john a certain way as a kid when he used to protect him (but john wouldn't remember it that well because he was younger) and then to see how john turned out after the whole adoption thing maybe disappointed him a bit?? and that might be where it all started??

Yeah, absolutely.

Joseph doesn’t seem to have changed too much--he’s always been pretty solemn, and clearly more devoted to his belief in God, so I can’t see Jacob having to adjust to him too much, but John is... just a new person entirely. And it’s not even half his fault. But that doesn’t make it easier to deal with.

Joseph’s eulogy for John, lamenting how he used to be kind and joyful and full of love--how he wasn’t always a monster--absolutely twisted my heart when I first heard it. I have no doubt that’s how Jacob felt about his little brother, too. John used to be so different, so kind, so sweet, and maybe the one thing holding Jacob together for all those years was the hope of reconciling with his brothers and not having them be strangers. They were children when they were torn apart, and maybe he clung to the hope that the men they’d become wouldn’t be too far off from how he remembered.

Well, we know how that turned out.

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “stella-roth replied to your post “stella-roth replied to your post ...”

oh it's okay! it sounds a little more sad than it actually feels. and that's true and cute! but you and bin ask me things sometimes or we talk about each others so i'm never too put off by lack of reaction by anyone else. (not that i wouldn't welcome interest by others ofc) and if you want, you don't need to go out of your way or anything though! but that'd be fun and give me a chance to explore them a little more. most of them aren't too fleshed out.

it’s no trouble at all! i scroll past OC things all the time and never reblob because i don’t know who to throw ‘em at / who’d be interested. if it has the double benefit of letting you figure them out a little more and telling someone about it/me getting to hear about them, then all the better, you know?

[kiramessa]

stella-roth replied to your post “gateofeden: Just a few things about Maria, the Deputy I’m playing as...”

" Kinda like a softdomme, which I think he’d respond to far better than Jacob might" .....i think about this a lot actually lol

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in the sense that John needs someone like that, or Jacob would struggle with a woman like that? 🙊

I’m super torn, because I love the idea of Maria and John together--that’s how I’ve been thinking of them for months--but I just think aspects of her personality fit better with Jacob. Although... maybe they can just be really close? Like he views her as an equal, as someone with a like mind and a kindred connection, but he sees that she’s clearly better for John (and John responds to her better like... that).

That could make Ros a total sideblinding kind of romantic potential. She wouldn’t need him, and she certainly doesn’t have much of a mooshier romantic side, but this would make it easier to fall into a kind of comfort zone with her.

Anyway, my OC problems aside: John with someone who could keep a firm but fair hold on him is most definitely something I am happy and willing to talk about, that boy needs an all business/no nonsense lady for sure.