#stolag

[mallowstep]

Shellheart purred, as Stonekit and Mistykit lost their composure, tumbling over each other. He caught Spottedpaw's eye. "How about I tell you the story of the River?"

"We've already heard that one," Stonekit complained.

"It's a good story," Shellheart said. "You can stand to listen to it again."

there's holy water, undiluted; i see the divine

[mallowstep]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Warriors - Erin Hunter Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Leafpool/Mothwing (Warriors), Mothwing & Squirrelflight (Warriors), Crowfeather/Leafpool (Warriors) Characters: Mothwing (Warriors), Leafpool (Warriors), Squirrelflight (Warriors), Yellowfang (Warriors), Spottedleaf (Warriors), Jayfeather (Warriors), Background & Cameo Characters Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, seer au, Religion, Canon What Canon, seriously i’m all over the place, Trans Mothwing (Warriors), but like it’s subtle, Book Series: Power of Three Series: Part 6 of saccharine tithes of love and glory Summary:

Moth and Tadpole and Hawk are born loner kits.

They don’t stay that way.

—

Moth scrunched her nose as Hawk licked his paw. “I pay attention,” she said, lashing her tail and tackling Hawk to the ground. “See?”

He laughed, batting her back.

“It doesn’t matter, anyway,” Moth said. “We’re still together.”

“And we’ll be brave,” Hawk said. “Together and brave.”

—

see beginning notes; mostly standalone.

tumblr exclusive: considering how late i posted this, consider it high priority for possible edits, if you’re exceptionally attached to this version.

[mallowstep]

“We use ivy for wrapping herbs,” Sagewhisker said. “But it depends what’s available.” Yellowpaw nodded. Her mentor was really saying, “You’ll have to learn something new one day.”

grieving for the living

[mallowstep]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Warriors - Erin Hunter Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Mothwing & Squirrelflight (Warriors), (but you can read it as Mothwing/Squirrelflight), Hawkfrost & Squirrelflight (Warriors) Characters: Squirrelflight (Warriors), Mothwing (Warriors), Leafpool (Warriors), Hawkfrost (Warriors), Brambleclaw (Warriors) Additional Tags: Book Series: The New Prophecy, Book Series: Power of Three, Murder, Attempted Murder, forgiving your daughter for comitting murders, Family, Grief/Mourning, Societal problems, like just deeply rooted instituitions that create havoc on lives, Emotional neglect, brightheart stays named lostfacee Series: Part 7 of saccharine tithes of love and glory Summary:

Squirrelflight was never chosen.

—

“Eat the mouse.” Lostface sat beside her. “It’s okay, you know. To be upset. No matter what the elders’ say. Most of them don’t — most of them have never been through it.”

“You have,” Squirrelpaw said. It wasn’t common knowledge, and she was pretty sure Lostface wasn’t supposed to be telling her any of this.

“I have,” she agreed. “Thornclaw, Brackenfur. All of us — we’re here for you.” She licked behind Squirrelpaw’s ear. “Eat the mouse. You’ll feel better.”

—

or, the ones who are left behind

tumblr exclusive: i’m so glad i wrote this because it is Easily and By Far one of my Favourite fics, my Favourite fic, in the series. there’s infinitely much i could love about it. squirrelflight my beloved. you have gone through so much.

[mallowstep]

(If she had wondered, she would have thought of the thrill of suspense and the pride of a catch, the rush of adrenaline in a battle that forever redefines what it feels like to be alive. Most seers know only the worst parts of the lives they don’t have. They have less to mourn that way.)

grieving for the living

[mallowstep]

“for moments that we stole” fic notes

i once again feel compelled to write these. (for early finders; i'm still posting the fic, i just want to link to these in the end note)

i was going to include the tag "squilf really do b out here committing murders" but (a) it's only one and (b) it felt unnecessarily spoiler heavy

it is Deliberately Ambiguous who the second parent of squilf's kits is.

but i do have an answer

god i just. squilf. bb. there's

something terrible about wanting change: change that would be Good for your society

but then your ticket to it tries to kill your father

and then you kill him

and now it's like...well, change didn't work

i also just like that squirrelflight's reationship to starclan is so ambiguous

oh! you have No idea how many times i made myself cry. tears were frequent. top hits:

lostface and squirrelflight's conversation at the lake

squirrelflight and firestar after she kills hawkfrost

the final scene

i made 3 layers of cake while finishing this fic

[mallowstep]

anyway it's ironic that i was just talking about stories not going off the rails and then i was working on squilf's stolag piece and well.

minor spoilers? maybe? i don't think so this is all gonna b p general. barely more than the summary. and there's some Thoughts on thunderclan.

anyway i need to go to bed but like. i just. i've been thinking a lot about what it means to be Thunderclan and you know. ironically, i didn't really explore anything i meant to with mothwing.

i ended up telling a very personal story about relationships and loss, not anything like what i meant to. which sort of left a hole because like. jay and alder's pieces aren't going to work as well, i don't think, without what moth's piece was going to cover.

so i have all of these ideas that are bouncing around in my head. about thunderclan and what it means, about who hawkfrost is in this au, and i sit down to write "for moments that we stole" and it's. it's supposed to be about the three times squirrelflight loses someone. and it is, it still is, but.

see, there's a big hole in the stolag au that i wasn't going to fill, not until i finished "it's been promised to another" and realized that i needed a squilf piece to finish the arc. and then moth's piece. well. anyway i digress; i haven't covered what it's like to be left.

which is an idea that i'm a big fan of.

and i made a joke about how thunderclan keeps giving away medicine cats. i still haven't decided if i'm going to keep willowpelt alive, but frostfur's litter is still there.

and like. hnnng squilf said, "i see ur outline and say fuck you"

which like. it's been Ages since she's done that to me. but you know i'm not complaining.

because i also have a chance to finally dig my fingers into what makes thunderclan thunderclan. i've done that for riverclan and windclan, and i've outlined the edges for shadowclan (and i'm determined to find something in shadowclan to write an au about so that i can finally explore some of those ideas), but thunderclan just. is.

and i'm, of course, disatisfied with that. i don't want that. and i was Supposed to do this with mothwing, my outline says stuff about that, but. i didn't. as one does.

so it's very. it's very fun for me. i've gotten to explore beauty standards, and this passage which j'adore.

But he looked alive again. The wind was good for him. Maybe he needed it; maybe WindClan needed wind like prey needs water.

Feathertail and Stormfur looked different, too. She had her mouth open, tasting the air, her tail held as high as a kit's, and Stormfur was hiding it, but he was happy, too.

Maybe they needed this; maybe RiverClan needed water like plants need sun.

Tawnypelt was still injured, but she barely let it show. She didn't wince when the salt must have sprayed in her wound, and even though Squirrelpaw knew she was leaning on Brambleclaw, she made it look subtle. Maybe she needed it; maybe ShadowClan needed strength like trees need roots.

Brambleclaw was focused, his head set forward. He didn't waver to watch the water or close his eyes and let the wind rush through his pelt. Squirrelpaw knew he needed this; ThunderClan needs duty like kits need mothers.

(obligatory pre-edits)

and like. hnng thunderclan. i have so many thoughts.

there's stuff that i. there's a passage right after this that's 100% more spoilers than i will give on this, even tho like. i don't think it's actually spoiling anything. but it's a very important character moment.

anyway so then i get to the lake and. and hawkfrost's name is not in my outline. but i'm working on this scene, just when squilf gets her warrior name, and we get to this point

She could see his resemblance to Brambleclaw, but everything was sharper. Like she had only seen Brambleclaw from the edges of her vision, and now she was finally seeing him in focus.

which is just. very happy with that.

and ig what i'm saying is it's very ironic bc it's been Ages since a piece has gone off the rails this much. like i might have to check iaffl for continuity, and then like. and then edit that.

squilf.

[mallowstep]

spottedleaf: i felt like i lost touch with my siblings after being chosen as a seer

also spottedleaf: choosing moth will have no negative impact on her family life