To every rape/sexual assault victim.
You’re not a victim, you survived. I survived!
We’re all survivors of something horrible that happened to us, we are strong and we will keep being strong because that’s What we do, we fight. We keep telling people our stories so they can find the strenght to tell their stories.
I know that its never gonna end but we can get the numbers down.
When i was younger someone did things to me, i know exactly who he is and What he did and he knows too, i Don’t think any person who can do this feels remorse in any way possible. I know every woman in my family has been assaulted in some way and my family is kind of big, for me that shows how many ”victims” there are in the world. Not only women even men. Some days im so disgusted with men because it was a man who did things to me but it does’nt mean i hate men because i Don’t it’s just my brain that tells me that i shouldnt trust anyone because if i know who did things to me and my family the next person can do the exact thing again if im not careful.
And even though i shouldnt feel guilt, i do i Will always feel guilt. I always think that im going to confront him but What if he tells me that it wasnt in that way or Thats not What happened or worse, he admits it? What do i do then? And now i have those sexual urges Thats not fucking normal because What he did made my brain think some things are okay for people to do to me or with me. So i feel guilt for that too because if my brain says i like it, i cant complain about someone assaulting me, right? But i didnt want those things happening to me because now im damaged for the rest of my life but im going to live with it because you Dont give up, you keep fighting and telling your story.
We survived shit that people shame and blame us for, we survived so im gonna keep my head up high and keep fighting.
