I wanted to make a blog post about this week but I don't feel I can put it into words quite yet. I need some time..
It has been a challenging week to say the least, lets just say I've been feeling Low. I've tried to logically understand it and realized that is pointless. I've recognized I've been trying to Isolate myself from the things that I know are meant to be the encouragement I need. The problem is I leave them more discouraged.
When I begin to feel excited about something it is like I cannot stop my thoughts from retrieving the bad things that happened before that. It sort of makes the good things fade in the ackground. My life-camera is completely out of focus.
Looking through this lens of depression is cancelling out my perripheral vision. I can't see the bigger picture anymore. What was once 3-dimensional has now become a lifeless, flat image.
I think I need to take my camera to the God-shop and have it fine tuned so that I can see how He sees instead of how my own blurred vision shows me.