tuesday morning, august 8
well... my sudden disappearance is due to many factors, among them: personal problems, social time and health problems (ahh yeah... I got sick again);
today I would have a class at the university but I woke up with my throat inflamed and with a lot of pain in my body. that took care of a pill of medicine and some tea.
I used to be very upset with myself for being sick (yes. I would blame myself for being sick). and would also force me to go to class (even sick. yes).
I had a very toxic type of behavior with myself. but that won't happen anymore! I will not charge myself for being sick. we need to take care of ourselves too!
I hadn't studied yesterday or Saturday due to the situations already mentioned, so I took advantage of today to:
1. organize my caderno inteligente (disk notebook) for face-to-face classes at college;
2. start studying personality psychology chapter two;
I see my mind sabotaging myself, saying that this was no big deal and that I should have done more things, however I have to go to my job (internship) today.
writing here is making me feel calmer and smoother with myself, but it's also making me inspired and eager to get home and complete the day's studies, doing more study cycles...
— by the way, studying on the tablet is great, until it runs out of battery because you forget to put it on charge 🥹; I will remember never to let the battery run down again.
🌷 ›› thank you for accompanying me here. don't be so hard on yourself and don't be so toxic about blaming yourself for being sick like I did.
take care! see you next time 🤍