#stupidboys

[lovergirlwhowearsglasses]

Did he rlly have to reach out tho?

[lifeandetc]

I think some men ruin lives 

I hate myself for falling for all of it

I hate myself for letting men dictate feeling any negative emotion toward myself

I hate myself for not giving more time to myself

I hate myself for not putting more effort into my life

I hate myself for writing that I hate myself and I hate myself that it’s partially true

I never thought so many people could have so much hate in their hearts but I was so wrong.

People have such an insurmountable genuine disregard for other peoples feelings it leaves me speechless. Every time a man does me wrong, why am I surprised? A text in a normal conversation never responded to. A night where a man is inside of me, forced to feel as if it never existed at all. Forced to feel guilty about doing it again and again and then guilty that he never calls back because my body count has gone up one with a result of nothing. WHY do men control my feelings WHY do I let them?

Why am I not a ruthless cold hearted feminist who doesn’t let a bad man ever penetrate my heart let alone my vagina.

Why can’t I see who is good and who is bad? Is there something wrong with me that I let the bad ones in? Are the bad ones really good ones but something about me makes them want to treat me with immense disrespect.

Why in the books I read are university guys, men who wear glasses and carry those fancy bags that carry your books probably made out of some vintage leather and know a little too much about poets. In reality University guys are not even deserving of the title “men”, they are alcoholic boys who wear their hats incorrectly and wouldn't know what true love was if it slapped them in the face. They would probably die if they experienced what it was like to love someone. Really, they would, it would be too hard for them to comprehend true sober emotion and through all the alcohol and drugs in their system the intense emotion of actual love from a woman would give them a heart attack and they would die.

I think it’s so funny when white men think they aren’t privileged and don’t think that every single system in place benefits them, they’re so silly that way, entertaining really.

Every time a man lies and thinks he’s getting away with it I laugh. Do they really think a women who’s brain is significantly more developed than them doesn’t see through their lies? Do they think that Women aren’t the absolute brightest people most magnificent people to walk the earth. Do they have to be reminded that a women actually created life inside her body? Even on a surface level without thinking so philosophically about it. Women are so beautiful with their beautiful curves and long soft hair. They always care so much about smelling nice and that their skin is soft. But men are like ugly ogres that come in and ruin everything. In another reality if we didn't live in this society and we were aliens watching some weird movie about humans in heterosexual relationships I would probably be disgusted and confused as to why a human women, so kind, caring, full of love and smelling of a warm vanilla scent would ever be interested in giving any of her time to a gross sweaty hairy man that has no thought inside his brain other than making his muscles bigger and reading books on how to invest money to make more money.

I often wonder what they really think about on their day to day. When a man finds a girl attractive do they just picture her naked or do they think of how beautiful she looks when she’s talking about what she’s most passionate. I bet 1% of 20 year old men actually like listening to what a girl has to say when she’s fully clothed. and half of that 1% only enjoy it because they're picturing her naked.

Fuck these types of men

Fuck these men for how they’ve made me feel

Fuck these men for making me hate myself

Fuck these men for bringing me to such a low place

Fuck these men for having any power over my emotional wellbeing

Fuck these men for thinking I would be an easy fuck

Fuck these men

I hate them

I hate these men

[ma-nhatten]

idiot

he said, "be alone then". I looked at him, smiled and did not say a word. 

I like being alone. Thank you very much

[illdo-ifiwantto]

[cf12744-blog]

At one point during senior year me and close friends all went through a rough point within our relationships. This became our girl anthem against the boys in our lives. Any time one of us were sad or upset about a boy one of the others would put this on and say, “we don’t need no man” and the jamming would commence.

[collegegirldiariess]

7 Days of Doing Stuff: Part 3

Day 3: Wednesday, Feb 27

As I’ve mentioned before, this week isn’t just about dates. It’s about friends as well. I was looking forward to this day the most because it didn’t require me leaving my home or having to look pretty after work. Doing something after work early in the week was usually not the norm for me. I'm much more of a "do something 2--maybe 3--days a week type of person", so this week was already way out of my comfort zone.

One of my best friends is in med school. We used to be able to hang out all the time--we get along so well because we both are always down to do random things together. I'm sure more of those stories will come up in the future. She had a week off school, so I took advantage of that to hang out. She came over for a wine night and we spent hours catching up and talking about boys (including my last two dates) and life. It was a lot of fun. 

One piece of fun we'd been having this week was fucking with one of her classmates. It was this guy she had met in college and had been on dates with on and off. He was the type of guy who would hit her up when he felt like it, but when they hung out, they (at least she) had a lot of fun. He kept playing this long con game with her for a long time. He'd text her then wouldn't respond for days or would make plans and end up cancelling. Girls, if a guy is doing this to you then know that you're probably a side-hoe or just part of his rotation. She realized this but still went with it sometimes (I mean, if you know it probably won't lead anywhere but still want to have fun sometimes then why not).

Last I had heard about him (a couple months ago) was that he was secretly dating another one of my friend's classmates (which he didn't tell my friend…she heard through the grapevine then would see them together often). So when I saw him on Tinder a few days ago (maybe Monday?), I immediately sent her a screenshot. We decided to see what would happen because, according to my friend, he definitely knew I was her friend (she had mentioned me multiple times and we have a BUNCH of pictures on social media together) and it definitely looked like he was still dating that girl. He had super-liked me, so I easily matched with him.

Since I'm typing all this out days later and this post was going to be pretty short, I'll go ahead and write up the updates thus far. Nothing is too crazy except for the fact that he's pretty dumb to think I haven't told my friend anything.

He flirted with me (starting with a multi-part, long af riddle) and I kept up with it. Eventually we switched to text (note: I'd respond maybe 2-3 times a day--the whole point of this was to see if he'd connect the dots). I brought up the fact that I know some people at his school and of course I mentioned my best friend's name. He pretty much swept it to the side…I'll just post the screenshot here. Note the time/dates between each message.

What is going on in this boy's head?? Does he think his name didn't come up at all when I hung out with someone who I know he knows? Does he know but not care? Does he know what we're up to?

My friend sees him in a SUIT yesterday (3/6), and he tells her he's going to a Boy Scouts dinner…a friend had seen him with his secret girl just moments before. Maybe he was really going to a Boy Scouts dinner (on a Monday? While he's in med school?), but it seemed more likely he was going to a fancy date. After the previous text messages, I had stopped responding to him. We thought he'd connect the dots and not text me again after I mentioned my friend MULTIPLE times, but that didn't work.

Today, he texts me again. A double text after I didn't respond to his last ones. He texted my friend earlier today too…looks like I made it into his rotation. My friend didn't respond, but I did. We go back and forth a tiny bit then he asked me to hang out this weekend. I didn't respond after and don't plan on it unless its to call him out (once we have solid evidence).

SO many things wrong with this. If my friend didn't know him, I'd have gone on this date cause he SEEMED pretty cool. But, because of my friend, I have the inside source on how he's been for years with her PLUS the fact that he MOST LIKELY is dating someone.

I'll post updates in the future if anything else happens.

[ordinary-person-for-other-people]

Hiiit

[allalongsomeinvisiblestring]

If you love @taylorswift @taylornation and love or like “Last Kiss” find some headphone or a quiet place and turn it up load and really listen to 1:27 - 1:30 during the song. It’s only a snippet, so you’ll miss it if you don’t focus.. you can hear her whole heart and every memory of that boy in her mind as she sang that song in this one part. It took me 8 years to hear it clearly. Miss Taylor, I’m sorry I never heard it before now...and it’s the thing I love the most about all of your songs. They’re all so genuinely, completely, transparently YOU. ❤️❤️😍 #swifite #taylorstan #oldtaylor #oldtaylorjams #stupidboys #istillremember #lastkiss #golisten oh God, “Long Live” just came on. 😭😭 can’t wait for tour! #reptourTampa #reptourNOLA