I think some men ruin livesÂ
I hate myself for falling for all of it
I hate myself for letting men dictate feeling any negative emotion toward myself
I hate myself for not giving more time to myself
I hate myself for not putting more effort into my life
I hate myself for writing that I hate myself and I hate myself that itâs partially true
I never thought so many people could have so much hate in their hearts but I was so wrong.
People have such an insurmountable genuine disregard for other peoples feelings it leaves me speechless. Every time a man does me wrong, why am I surprised? A text in a normal conversation never responded to. A night where a man is inside of me, forced to feel as if it never existed at all. Forced to feel guilty about doing it again and again and then guilty that he never calls back because my body count has gone up one with a result of nothing. WHY do men control my feelings WHY do I let them?
Why am I not a ruthless cold hearted feminist who doesnât let a bad man ever penetrate my heart let alone my vagina.
Why canât I see who is good and who is bad? Is there something wrong with me that I let the bad ones in? Are the bad ones really good ones but something about me makes them want to treat me with immense disrespect.
Why in the books I read are university guys, men who wear glasses and carry those fancy bags that carry your books probably made out of some vintage leather and know a little too much about poets. In reality University guys are not even deserving of the title âmenâ, they are alcoholic boys who wear their hats incorrectly and wouldn't know what true love was if it slapped them in the face. They would probably die if they experienced what it was like to love someone. Really, they would, it would be too hard for them to comprehend true sober emotion and through all the alcohol and drugs in their system the intense emotion of actual love from a woman would give them a heart attack and they would die.
I think itâs so funny when white men think they arenât privileged and donât think that every single system in place benefits them, theyâre so silly that way, entertaining really.
Every time a man lies and thinks heâs getting away with it I laugh. Do they really think a women whoâs brain is significantly more developed than them doesnât see through their lies? Do they think that Women arenât the absolute brightest people most magnificent people to walk the earth. Do they have to be reminded that a women actually created life inside her body? Even on a surface level without thinking so philosophically about it. Women are so beautiful with their beautiful curves and long soft hair. They always care so much about smelling nice and that their skin is soft. But men are like ugly ogres that come in and ruin everything. In another reality if we didn't live in this society and we were aliens watching some weird movie about humans in heterosexual relationships I would probably be disgusted and confused as to why a human women, so kind, caring, full of love and smelling of a warm vanilla scent would ever be interested in giving any of her time to a gross sweaty hairy man that has no thought inside his brain other than making his muscles bigger and reading books on how to invest money to make more money.
I often wonder what they really think about on their day to day. When a man finds a girl attractive do they just picture her naked or do they think of how beautiful she looks when sheâs talking about what sheâs most passionate. I bet 1% of 20 year old men actually like listening to what a girl has to say when sheâs fully clothed. and half of that 1% only enjoy it because they're picturing her naked.
Fuck these types of men
Fuck these men for how theyâve made me feel
Fuck these men for making me hate myself
Fuck these men for bringing me to such a low place
Fuck these men for having any power over my emotional wellbeing
Fuck these men for thinking I would be an easy fuck
Fuck these men
I hate them
I hate these men