2018
This break from bf is just what I needed. Getting off SA, WYP, Tinder and just detoxing from all of that stress has helped me calm down a lot. Now it’s time to start figuring out what I want for myself in 2018.
- Bf: he wants a real relationship, so I’ll give it to him. Deep down I’m filled with all the naivete of a 20 something who has never been heartbroken. I’m still not dumb enough to think that we’re going to get married and be in love forever lol. The gap between us is more like a chasm. I’ll milk it for however long it lasts and move on happily.
- F: Randomly wished me Merry Christmas, which could mean he’s back in London soon? I don’t know. He still owes me my allowance, damn it.
- P: Asked me if I wanted him to bring me anything for Christmas. Honestly, not really. I want a monthly allowance instead of ppm, but I’ll ask him in person instead of over email.
I need P for career advice and opportunities in the future. But I also don’t want to spoil a good thing with Bf. Bf has already given me a lot of doubts whereas P has been nothing but stable and reliable. I’m just going to be patient and see how things play out. Honestly, even I am curious about what my future will bring at this point. I think it’s a good thing to start off 2018 excited about the rest of the year :)