Aug 6, 2015
Does anyone want to talk to me idk I can't tell what I'm feeling I can't tell if I am craving human attention or what I'm confused
seen from United States
seen from Iraq
seen from Syria
seen from Türkiye
seen from United States
seen from Russia
seen from China
seen from Portugal
seen from Iraq
seen from United States
seen from Macao SAR China
seen from China
seen from Spain
seen from Türkiye
seen from United States
seen from Venezuela
seen from United States
seen from Ecuador
seen from United States
seen from Tunisia
Does anyone want to talk to me idk I can't tell what I'm feeling I can't tell if I am craving human attention or what I'm confused
I'm a cashier at a grocery store and I have regular customers who come in and call me baby and sweetheart and honey and it makes me sick to my stomach but I just have to smile and laugh it makes my skin crawl 😷
What are u drawing???? :)
I was drawing my OCs! :3
all the deep ones!!!
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
looking into someone's eyes as I'm telling them how I feel, for sure.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
I was really damn angry when I found out someone I trusted was talking shit about me behind my back. I've since have cooled down, but It still upsets me when I think about it.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
this is really tough... It would be between my best friend Lorena, or my Mom. Realistically, I guess I would call my mom because Its much harder to call Lorena internationally, but you get the point.
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
I would tell everyone, because not giving someone a chance to say goodbye when I could have would be a really cruel thing. With my remaining days, I would travel as much of the world as possible with my closest friends and family (assuming that money isn't a problem, considering I'm going to die soon). Fuck yeah I'd be afraid! Im only 20, and there is so much more life out there for me to live. I have so many dreams that I wouldn't get to see come true, which is heartbreaking. It would be really hard to grapple with the idea that I'm just going to cease to exist at this point in my life. But I would wanna go down swingin', with the people who mean the most to me.
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
I would choose trust, because in my personal opinion, love doesn't come without trust.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
fuck yeah I would save the dogs life. Jobs are temporary, and even if I had my dream job, I wouldnt want to work for someone who would compromise a life for a corporate/capitalistic ideal. Thats not worth it, in any sense.
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
Well, like I said before, love doesn't come without trust. So I would rather be hurt by someone I only trusted, as opposed to trusting them and loving them, because In my mind that would be twice as painful, if not more.
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
This would be really REALLY weird for me. She is like my sister. I would tell her that I love her infinitely, but I could never love her like that. (Sorry Lorena)
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
honestly, no. He was a very old, very sick man, who in his last days was in an incredible amount of pain. As much as I loved him, I wouldn't want to bring him back into suffering, and also restart the grieving process for all of those who miss him.
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
I'd like to think that I'm a good friend, so yeah!
11. Does love = sex?
Nope. Love equals trust, and honesty. Love equals friendship and intimacy. Love equals selflessness and teamwork. Love equals magic and happiness. Love equals laughter and communication. Sex alone comes from a place of lust, not love. However, if you combine the both.. then there's the fireworks.
12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
I guess it depends. How well off am I? Can I handle the fiscal loss of my job? If so, then yes, because I don't want to see someone unnecessarily suffer. If not, I'm sorry.. I wouldn't. Being selfless and helpful is one thing, but self sacrifice isn't wise. As much as the corporate world sucks in the sense that they fire people based on seniority, I hypothetically earned that seniority. I wouldn't risk my family's wellbeing if I couldn't support them. I wouldn't expect someone to do it for me.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
I don't remember... Honestly, I'm pretty well set with all the people in my life, so its not very difficult for me to be honest with them. I guess the last thing that was a difficult thing to tell someone was to tell my friend (whom I had feelings for at the time) that I had feelings for them, which I don't have those feelings at all anymore so its not an issue anymore.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
I don't think I've ever been in a situation where I had to tell someone that I didn't love them back, but I've been in a situation where I loved someone who didn't love me back anymore, and that was pretty rough.
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
A material thing? Most material things I can live without if it really came down to it, but as shallow as this sounds it would be tough to give up my phone. All of my closest friends scattered all around the world after high school and obviously my technology grants me the opportunity to stay close and talk to them.
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
I'm fairly certain that I told Victoria that I loved her over the phone today. She's one of my best friends. :)
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
I don't quite understand this question, but I guess if I had to change a moment this past month it would be my audition into the college of music. It wasn't bad, but I feel like it could go either way and that thought is killing me as I wait for the results. So if I could go back and somehow change the outcome to a slam dunk, then duh I would.
18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Fuck yeah I would... who wouldn't? Homeless people are still people, and I would give anyone CPR if it meant I could save their life.
19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
Okay, this question is motherfucking stupid. I would like to think that I could easily lift a 7 pound newborn onto the cliff with one hand, and then be able to use all my strength to try my best to save my grandmother. Also, trying to choose someone who means something to you versus a stranger almost always ends in choosing the person who means something to you. ALSO psychologically people almost always choose to save the person who has the same biological lineage as them because instinctually you would try to preserve your own genes over the genes of another person.
(Also what if that baby turns into the next Hitler?)
(Also Also when the fuck would I ever be in that situation???)
20. Are you old fashioned?
Not really. I like to think I'm very progressive and liberal when it comes to equal rights on issues of gender, race, sexuality, trans rights, personhood, culture, and what have you. That alone contradicts the notion of being old fashioned. However, that doesn't mean that I don't aspire to be a wife and mother someday. Just because I would like to make lunches in the morning to send my kids on their way to school, or work on making my home a home, does not mean that I have an antiquated way of thinking or believe that I should only want to do those things because I am a woman.
21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
Honestly, I'm usually just nice because its a lot less energy than to be mean. I don't really expect anything from anyone, because that usually leads to disappointment.
22.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Well, In my disney-like mindset, true love wouldn't end with guarantee of a broken heart.
However, I would choose to love and lose the person over never loving at all, because denying myself of two very life changing experiences would just lead me to be a more shallow minded person. Also, I truly believe that real deep nasty heartbreak makes people wise, and helps them learn a lot about themselves.
23.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
As silly as this sounds, I really wish to be able to be Rapunzel as a face character in Disney World. I know that this means there's a lot of work ahead of me, but I am a work in progress.
I'm so glad you had fun!!!!
Thank you, I am very very glad about it myself! OvO
60 minute waits are honestly not even that bad. This is slow season tbh haha! I'm actually back at Disney right now:)
That's true, it was mainly my sister who didn't want to wait that long. And overall we basically got to do everything we wanted, so.... And awesome!
Awww well did you have fun?????? And yes you can camp, it's super fun:)
I had so much fun!! I mean, it was crowded as fuck most of the time, but we had like 9 fast passes we used, And some of them were REALLY useful, because we otherwise probably would've have done those attractions, considering the waiting lines were 60 min on average (like the Seven Dwarfs Mine Train or however it's called). Actually meeting Anna and Elsa was the only thing where I said "Fuck the waiting line, I just wanna do this!"
I LIVE IN ORLANDO I GO ALL THE TIME I SING THERE DURING THE HOLIDAYS SO I HAVE TICKETS SO WE COULD MEET UP IF YOUD WANT TO OMG
You sing at Disney World? That's amazing! But, oh gosh, wouldn't that be extremely awkward.... I mean, because I'm awkward and all. I'm never sure how to act around people I barely know.