So some of my friends are doing this, so I decided to give it a shot :3
This year was one of the weirdest and most wonderful years I have lived.
I have made fantastic friends, gone to amazing places, and laughed and cried hysterically.
At the beginning of the year, I was dealing with self harm, severe anxiety, suicidal thoughts, and I hated myself entirely. (oh god I should mention this may be soppy) This was also the first month in my first relationship. She helped me learn to love myself, and I don't think she knows that...
January was also the month of my first trip to London without my parents. I went to Westfield, saw War Horse at the West End, and just had an overall amazing time.
The next month was the time of my first concert: Kerrang! Tour 2013. The line-up consisted of some of my favourite bands at the time and I loved every minute of it. Who knew a sore throat and ringing ears felt so good! This concert was also how I met some of my best friends.
The Spring consisted of late night group chats and fanfiction. I discovered who my true friends were, and I couldn't ask for better best friends <3
June/July was around about the time where my relationship started getting less awkward. It was in these months that I had my first kiss as well. I was most content in these months, and I was a few months free of self harm. The suicidal thoughts had vanished, or at least had started to disappear. My anxiety attacks were getting less and less frequent, and I felt so much better for it. Like a weight had been lifted of my shoulders. I also had my first (sorta) comic con, and went to the biggest sleepover I've ever been to. We filled a trolley up with junk food, made energy drink fish bowls (no alcohol :/) and saw a cyberman actor in a short black dress...
August was generally a happy time. I spoke to my friends everyday, felt amazing, and became a happier person. At the beginning of the year, I was quite introverted, and always kept my emotions to myself, but now I was talking all the time, actually leaving my room, and I loved life.
September. School. First break up. Anxiety. That's all it was.
October was when I finally started to get my emotions back together. I told my best friend about all my emotions from the past month, and felt so much better about it. We helped pick each other up, which sounds intensely cheesy and cliché, but it's true. I also built up the courage to ask out my crush, and luckily she said yes. Still going strong <3
November was when I started counselling to help my anxiety, and I felt a lot better for it. I was being more open about my emotions, I cried more, and laughed more.
December was just fantastic. Fantabydosey.
I've made so many amazing friends this year, IRL and online. I love you all so much. I'm always here for you, no matter what <3
And here are the individual messages~
Shauna: Thank you so much for helping me through all the shit. You're always there for me and you don't no how much that means. You taught me that I'm never alone, and I am so so grateful. I love you bby. <3
Meg: Thank you for an amazing first relationship. You taught me how to love, and I'll forever be grateful. I love you. <3
Naomi: Naomi bby, you are beautiful, and funny, and adorable and amazing through and through. I know it can be hard to see that for yourself sometimes, but just know that you're wonderful no matter what. I love you. <3
Caitlin: Thank you for always being there to make me laugh. I know we had some troubles this year (and what a silly thing it was), but we pulled through and you'll always be one of my best friends. I love you. <3
Sebby/Micah: It feels weird knowing I've been talking to you for almost a year, but it's been an amazing time so far. Just know that I'm always here for you, you'll never ever be a bother, okay? I love you <3
Christoph: Thank you for introducing me to Hourou Musuko, it's really helping with everything. Also thank you for helping me annoy Melia because she loved Richter. I love you. <3
(Other) Meg: I know I'll always be able to cry with you during Marvel movies, and thank you for helping me make the fish bowls, it was great. I love you. <3
Sali: Thank you for hiding with me while we were watching Yogscast play Slender. It was good knowing I wasn't the only one who was scared. I love you. <3
Jacky: When I sent you that first message, I was scared you wouldn't reply because of the massive amounts of messages you probably get daily, but it was awesome that you started sending me messages regularly and asking how I was and stuff. I love you. <3
I love you all so so so so so so much. I'm always here for you when you want to rant, vent, or even if you don't even know why you're upset! You're all such wonderful friends, and I hope you all have fantastic new years.
(people I know IRL who are not on tumblr will have messages sent to them on facebook etc holla)
if you talk to me our conversations will always contain me being hyper, a rant about a batman character *looking at you vicki vale*, or me just going completely mental
so sorry to all my friends who have put up with me for so long
