Aug 17, 2016
I’m so numb, but it’s so easy to fake it. I don’t even feel like a person anymore, just a robot going about my routine. I want to tell Mark but I don’t think he’d ever understand. He talks about taking a break because I get angry he got to live his life and I didn’t. I want to have fun and share my love with others but he only knows what love is because of me. I can’t hurt him like that. He would rather die than take a break. What’s the right answer? He knows me better than anyone but sometimes I feel like that doesn’t mean he knows me. I feel like only I know me.