MY AWESOME BOYFRIEND IS MY FIANCE AND WE’RE GETTING MARRIED IN MAY
Wow, I just saw this in my drafts about my ex, and I can't believe I felt the need to stay with him as long as I did... I kept telling myself nothing was wrong and nothing bad happened, but I was never happy, I never felt like I came first or like I was a priority in any way shape or form. And you shouldn't ever feel like that, you should feel like the person you go to bed with every night will be the person you wake up to the rest of your life, you should be yourself and never have to hide anything you're thinking or feeling. It should be open and loving and nurturing. Not some game, it's not some cat and mouse chase... It was supposed to be love.
You’re really fucking annoying sometimes and sometimes you’re really fucking awesome. And honestly the one thing that gives me that extra push towards you every time was little voice in my head the first night we spent together, “I can’t believe this is happening. Everything about him is so perfect. I think this could be the man I marry.”
But aside from him, my boyfriend now is an amazing man. He's older than me a few years and he's made his mistakes but who hasn’t. The fact we’re open and talk about everything on a weirdly specific level is the best thing I have ever had with another human being. I have a best friend and a lover, and I've never gotten the pleasure of the two being the same person. I love you and I will always love you, and I know how much love you have for me and I know you will always love me; and that is the most amazing feeling I have ever gotten the pleasure of experiencing.















