Tell me about your experience joining this cult and how much it's brainwashed you 🥺
Well it all started back in 2011 when I was only a wee lad. A certain boy band was brought to my attention and boy was I hooked. ( I’d like to keep the name of this band concealed for privacy reasons.)
It started innocently, just listening to their first single, and viewing their music video for it, repeatedly. Then another song, another video, and finally the album. Now this is probably the turning point in my life, as it was early 2012 when a friend of mine introduced me to tumblr.com and to this so called ‘’[ship name redacted] organization’’. I was shown so many pictures and videos and let me tell you I was easily convinced. That was my first experience with the brainwashing cult.
First they would feed me pictures of these two boys, making me believe they were a couple. And I believed it all, the brainwashing was indeed effective. Whenever I would break out from their trance, or find any way out, they would just push me deeper into the cult.
Now I am proud to say I managed to keep myself sane through most of it, even if I was fully convinced of their stories and gay theories. Through the next 3 years I was part of the cult but kept my eyes somewhat open. Then we hit 2016.
The certain band I was talking about ended up going on hiatus at the end of 2015 which meant I finally had the change to exit the cult and break free from their madness. I successfully removed myself from the band altogether, I needed a clean break. The next year I kept tabs on things, checking up on band members and such, but I am ashamed to admit, I also kept checking on the cult sometimes... through twitter.
Now skip ahead to 2018. I had been away from tumblr.com for few years, when a memory resurfaced. The first ever post my friend has showed me was back in my mind. Now I couldn’t sleep until I found that post again, so there I was, ready to deep dive yet again. I knew I was entering dangerous territory. What if the cultist find me here lurking and lure me in again? Could I risk it? But the post kept haunting me, I had to make sure my memories didn’t fail me. So into the deep blue net I went. and sure enough, the brainwashers popped up.
I thought I was strong enough to ignore their temptations. I was sure I wouldn’t fall into the cult again, I couldn’t allow that to happen to me. But I was wrong, oh so very wrong.
First it was the post. Then the recommended posts. Then the videos came in, then the compilations, then the TOP 30 videos and lists and stories. Suddenly I’m shown fan fiction, and fan art and illusions on top of everything. I was drowning in this madness, I could find my way out, the cult has me in their grasp. I was still fighting the urge to enter tumblr again, as I knew one login meant lifetime of living in a cult, brainwashed to the point I couldn’t tell fiction from reality. But I knew, at that point I already knew, it was too late for me. I was back where I once were before. Locked in this organization, brainwashed daily.
Once I was back in I noticed things have changed since the last time I was in here. It wasn’t just brainwashing to believe two men were in love, they convinced me that I am a man. And I knew I wasn’t the only one force to undergo that change. Everyone who 4 years ago swore they were cishet are now suddenly every letter of the alphabet mafia. It was at this point I was deep in it now, and there was no way out.
It’s been 3 years since my final fall. I have been trapped in this cult 8 years of my life in total. Even though I am aware that the information fed to me isn’t to be trusted and I know I have been brainwashed to believe everything, I cannot stop believing them. I am trapped and I don’t know my way out. I don’t want to find my way out. The cult has become my family, my home. I cannot save myself anymore, but it’s not too late for others. Stay vigilant. Stay safe.
