#supercat angst

[magnificent-dragons]

all these supercat ask is not complete if no one ask angsty one, let's see.....how each other react when their s/o hurt (ps. me love all your answer, thank you for making the supercat tag merrier than usual xoxo)

I love angst I’ve been waiting for someone to send me an angst ask!

So when ever either of them get really hurt it can get difficult. And depending on the way they get hurt they react differently. I’m gonna go from least heartbreaking to most heart breaking with these headcanons

When Kara gets hurt after blowing out her powers she always tries to hide it from Cat. Partially out of embarrassment and partially because she knows that if she’s hurt Cat will worry more. Sometimes she will get hurt. Sadly though once she accidentally burned part of her arm and covered it up for almost a whole day. When Cat found out she rushed Kara to the DEO.

When Cat gets hurt Kara always blames herself, she’s a superhero after all shouldnt she be able to save the people she loves from any type of pain. If Cat got hurt by something simple like bad fall Kara would freak out because it makes her think about how human Cat is. It scares her that Cat, this strong woman, is breakable. Sometimes Kara will start overcompensating and get to the point where she superspeeds around the house just to stop Cat from stubbing her toe. When Cat gets tired of it of being babied she forced Kara to sit down and actually have a conversation about what’s going on. It’s a lot of talk about how Because of Kara’s powers she has to hear anytime someone she loves gets hurt. She hears the spike in their heart beat and the small noises of pain. And she has to know that she can’t do anything to help she is invincible and she watches everyone around her hurt so easily.

It’s worse if Kara gets hurt in a fight because Cat has to explain to Carter (if he doesn’t know karas sg) why Kara won’t be home. She can rarely be by Kara’s side during it. The DEO won’t let her in (let’s be realistic even though Jonn & Alex trust her it’s above their heads they can’t let the queen of all media in) So Cat can’t see Kara she can’t know for sure if Kara is ok or if Alex is lying to her to calm her down. And when it’s life or death Cat feels so utterly helpless because there aren’t many ways to help a kryptonian it’s up in the air she just has to hope that Kara’s body will heal itself.

If Cat gets hurt by a villain Kara goes ballistic. She is terrified t the mere thought of Cat being hurt by one of her enemies. So when it actually happens Kara losses herself for a while. She loses her temper at the villain she goes a bit overboard when taking them down. After word she retreats into herself. She blames herself and hates herself for a while. Cat tries to help to convince Kara not to blame herself but seeing Cat is just a reminder that she failed to protect her. It takes Kara weeks to get back to herself after Cat is hurt. It takes time for her to work through her fear and every time Cat gets hurt the cycle will start again

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[lost-your-memory]

#10 - Memory

Fair warning : this is angst and while no one dies, it’s clearly not happy. Inspired by something @racheltuckerrr told me yesterday. The title is a song ♫

“You remind me of someone, young man.” She’s looking at him with a very slight frown between her clouded eyes, concentration etched across her features. The crinkle and creases of her face move every time she speaks but she’s still beautiful, even with the weight of all those years cracking her pale skin. “Oh? Who was he?” She seems confused for a moment but then, an easy smile graces her lips and she whispers something he doesn’t hear. For a split-second, it’s like everything is back to normal. Then, the moment is gone and the look in her eyes becomes dull and bland again. --- They didn’t see it coming.

--- The first one to notice something was a little off is Alex. --- She’s almost 58 and she’s just resigned from her position as Director of the DEO when she begins to spend more time with Cat, because she feels lonely. Maggie is the captain of her own precinct and still five years away from retirement and the two kids they had adopted together are already all grown up and busy with their life, not really around anymore. Kara is busy too being the new CEO of CatCo Worldwide Media. She stepped in when Cat Grant officially resigned a few years ago and she’s still working as National City’s superhero. She thinks most of her friends are way now, like Lucy Lane who is working as the Secretary of State for the new president of the United States, James Olsen who took over Perry White’s position at the Daily Planet and Winn Schott, who launched his startup after leaving the DEO when they failed to protect his alien girlfriend. She still sees them once or twice a year but it’s not the same anymore. It's never been the same, after Hank’s disappearance. She’s still bitter about that day, seventeen years ago, when she found the letter he left her. He wrote that his work at the DEO and with the Danvers sisters was done and he wished her a good, happy, fulfilled life. No explanation, nothing to justify why he just vanished from their life. She had been appointed new Director of the DEO the exact same day. It’s been years and now she’s retired and lonely. Which is why she starts spending time with Cat Grant, of all the people she knows. --- Cat and Kara never got married and they never had kid. They’re living together for what seems to be forever and it’s just the way it is, natural and easy. It took Alex almost two years to really, really warm up to the queen of all media but eventually, they became some kind of friends. It’s a strange relationship and even they don’t know exactly where they stand and how to qualify it but it’s comfortable and healthy. Cat aged, year after year, where Kara stayed stuck in what Cat called the millennial look. They never talk about it. --- Alex notices the blank looks and the lost frowns first. She spends most of her time at the beach house with Cat and they joke about being some kind of weird Grace and Frankie, except they’re all gay and their respective girlfriends are not hot for each-other and about to move in together. She doesn’t think much of it. After all, Cat is about to turn 75 and she’s allowed to be a little less sharp than she used to be. Carter shows up sometimes, with his husband and their 3 years old daughter. It’s one happy family and Alex is always emotional when she sees them together. She can’t wait to be a grandmother too. Then, Cat starts to forget things. The name of a celebrity, the title of a book, the scientific designation of a flower, where she’s put her glasses and things like that. It’s nothing and Alex just helps her out every time. She often stays for dinner with Cat and Kara and she still swoons at how in love they are. It’s a little odd to see Kara, looking so young and bright, kiss a woman who could easily be mistaken for her grandmother but she sees the way they look at each other and the strange feeling goes away. When Cat starts confusing names and periods of time, Alex realizes something's not right. --- She tries to talk to Kara about it but her sister just brush it off. She doesn’t insist. Maybe it’s just age, finally kicking in Cat’s sharp and bright mind. --- She’s catching up with their daughter Lizzie when Maggie calls her, at 4PM on a Monday. “Alex, I can’t reach Kara. Something happened ...” She knows it’s about Cat before Maggie even begins to explain. --- The diagnosis breaks Kara. --- Each day takes memories away. She doesn’t recognize Alex and the older Danvers feels her heart shatters all over the place every time she’s meet with the confusion in Cat’s green eyes. --- She’s here when Cat asks Kara about the picture of them holding Lizzie in their arms. It’s a beautiful shoot Maggie snapped when Alex first handed the little girl to her sister. Kara’s smile is incredibly shy but so bright and full of life and Cat’s one is almost matching, they look happy and amazed. Cat asks who is the little girl. Alex sees Kara turns away to hide the tears she can’t hold back. --- It’s 3AM when her insistent ringtone finally pulls her out of her deep slumber. She hears Maggie groan next to her and it makes her smile but then she sees Kara’s name and she picks up. “She doesn’t know who I am.” The voice is desperate and Alex can hear every single one of the emotion her baby sister is feeling. She remembers the lost little alien a man in a blue suit and a red cape just bought to her when she was just a teenager. That new, strange little girl had the same voice, lost and small and with indescribable loss echoing in every word she pronounced. Kara was losing everything her world again. --- Cat is a stranger now. Kara finally relents and agrees to put her in a specialized house where professional would take care of her. Alex goes with her and it breaks her heart when Cat acts all bossy and demanding with everyone else, just like she used to when she was running her media empire. The worst part happens when Cat snaps at some young girl with a ponytail and a pair of glasses that had failed to bring her the right brand of water. “Really Keira, your incompetence is beyond salvation by now.” Kara starts sobbing, uncontrollably. --- Carter looks at his mom and everything hurts. She doesn’t recognize him anymore. He is the last memory to go because where she had forgotten all about Alex, about Kara, about Supergirl and everyone else in her life, she could still remember him. Now, she doesn’t and he fights back the sob that’s been caught in his throat since he entered the room, two hours ago. “I’m going to go now. I’ll be back tomorrow, okay?” She doesn’t even look at him and he has to clench his jaw to keep the tears at bay. “Bye mom. I love you.” He stands up and lands a kiss on his mother’s temple before walking away. He’s almost out of the bedroom when he hears it. It’s barely a whisper but he knows it’s real.

“I love you too, Sweetheart.” He’s crying when the door closes behind him.

[magnificent-dragons]

edit’s based on the supercat fic Lonely hearts 

[lost-your-memory]

Hit me with the angst but like don't. Like divorced supercat and the don't see eachother anymore but they meet at a wedding Kara is like I've missed this when they slow dance togtherrrr

I really tried to not dive into the angst but I’m not sure I did a good job on this one, really. I hope it’s still up to your liking, dear anon ♥

She’s silently crying when she feels a hand, a warm familiar palm really, settle around her shoulder and she doesn’t even need to look to know who it is. She would recognize that scent everywhere and even after all those years, it has a very powerful effect on her. It’s flowers, a hint of citrus and something earthy, indescribably pure.“Kara.” She whispers. She doesn’t move but the fingers curl around the sharp bones of her shoulder, a gentle thumb hesitantly brushing the patch of skin at the base of her neck. It’s incredibly familiar in a way that pokes at old, unhealed wounds. It’s soft and there’s some tenderness in the gesture but it’s heavy with memories she doesn’t want to revive, not today.“Hi Cat. Long time no see.” The voice is kind and low, it sounds different in her years. She’s not used to that odd, deep note in a tone that had always sounded too bright for the world they were living in. It unsettles her and she finally, finally muster the courage to meet Kara’s eyes.Oh.

She’s meet with the dazzlingly deep shade of blue that haunts her dreams and sometimes even her days. There’s a whole world in those eyes, burning stars forming unfinished comets and entire galaxies gravitating around the black hole of her pupils.It’s not as bright as it used to be, she notices and she takes in the rest of Kara’s features.It’s been something like ten years since they last saw each other and she slowly notices the cracks and wrinkles showing all over the younger woman’s expression. It’s subtle really, she’s probably the only one to see the lines of exhaustion on Kara’s forehead, the slight crinkles around her eyes and the discrete creases at the corner of her mouth. The once glowing skin is now a little drab and there’s some makeup to help with the color.It still looks smooth though and Cat remembers how it felt under her fingertips.Kara’s looking at her with her so ever blue eyes and Cat scowls her features into a composed expression but she can’t quite hide her surprise.“I didn’t know …” She trails off. She should have asked, she realizes it.“I … Carter invited me and I wanted to … be there, you know.” Kara Danvers, the girl of steel, sounds hesitant and Cat is brought back to a time when she was annoyed at that sort of uncertainty. One lifetime ago.“Of course. He’s going to be thrilled to see you here.” She forces the words out of her mouth and there’s the faintest hint of a smile tugging at Kara’s lips.Cat stares, she can’t help it. She wonders if it still tastes like pumpkin, cinnamon and cheap strawberry lipstick.“I saw him on my way here. He was indeed quite happy.” Kara said and this time, the smile is firmly on her lips and it’s soft, tender and it reaches her eyes. Suddenly, it’s like the whole universe is spinning again, for a few seconds. It doesn’t last.“I can’t believe he’s … “ Kara sounds almost sad and Cat’s heart aches because she realizes what’s happening in the younger woman’s head. She wants to reach out to tangle her fingers with Kara’s but she contains herself and she simply nods. Her voice is soft and melancholic when she speaks.“He’s all grown up and … well. That’s why I’m here.” She says, gesturing to the mess that her face must be. She’s swore to herself she wouldn’t cry but she’s too emotional.Her heart practically stops when Kara move her hand from her shoulder to actually touches her cheek. She catches a tear that threatened to fall on her dress and the drop sparkles on the woman’s finger. Kara looks entranced by it.Cat’s heart is slowly recovering and her skin tingles where she’s been caressed. She finds that she misses the contact already, even though it barely lasted half a second.“No one can blame you. Do you want me to leave you alone?” Kara asks, concern suddenly clear on her face as she takes a step back. Cat struggles not to grab her arm to make her stay. It’s been ten years but she’s still deeply affected by the younger woman’s presence.“No, it’s fine. I need to reapply my makeup so I can be ready for the whole ordeal.” She says and she sees the smile that ghost across Kara’s lips.“I can wait for you, if you want.” She says and Cat suddenly realizes that Kara doesn’t want to leave her. It’s an oddly comforting thought and she just nods, too taken aback to trust her voice and speak.Kara waits and she disappears into the bathroom to arrange her face. She takes an extra couple of minutes to try to calm the mess of her mind but it doesn’t work. Kara Danvers had always had that effect on her. It’s infuriating really.When she slips out to join Kara, she’s a little calmer and she looks ready to face the day. She doesn’t ask when Kara offers her arm, she just takes it and they walk away together.—The ceremony is beautiful and her makeup is ruined again.She’s just witnessed the wedding of her baby boy, the one with bright blue eyes and unruly curls who had a crush on Supergirl for years and she’s crying again when the familiar hand finds her way on her tight, a little above the knee.“I’m so proud of him.” She hears and she smiles because Kara’s voice is wavering with pride and love and too many other emotions at once. She glances to her left to see that the younger woman is also crying, tears rolling down her cheeks and falling on her exposed collarbone. She feels a little better and she wonders why.She accepts the hand Kara is offering to follow the happy couple out of Town-Hall and she doesn’t protest when she feels a hand against the small of her back. It’s familiar and comforting and she needs it. She lets Kara guide her to a car and she stays silent as they ride towards the beach house, where the real party will be happening.Kara doesn’t really leave her side and Cat finally realizes that Kara came alone. No Alex Danvers, no Maggie Sawyer, no cardigan hobbit or faithful guardian, no one came with National City’s most beloved hero. She almost asks but then she chose against it.Kara is smiling and joking with Carter and his newly appointed husband and it looks so normal, so natural, it warms her heart. Cat catches his son’s eyes on her and she smiles to reassure him. She’s feeling fine, surprisingly enough.Time goes by and night is slowly falling upon them when Cat hears the first note of a song she thought she would never hear again. Carter is looking sheepishly at her but then his husband is dragging him on the dance floor and she can’t help the smile that floats on her lips.Carter is happy, engulfed in his husband’s arms and it’s all she’s ever wanted for him.“It was our wedding song.” Kara’s voice is low and leaned with something that sounds like sadness. Not regret, not pain, just an infinite sadness that shines in her eyes a little too much. Cat just nods but she doesn’t tear her eyes away from her son dancing on the dance floor.She remembers like if it was yesterday, it was her dancing on a similar floor, securely being held by Kara’s strong arms as they were happily swaying together. It had been such a beautiful day, their wedding day.It had lasted five years and then she added another divorce at her list. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, really. Time, distance, work, National City, Supergirl’s duty, life happened and they simply parted way.Cat never got over their divorce.“May … May I have this dance?” She hears and she thinks she’s still caught in her past, until Kara steps forwards and extends a hand to her.People are joining the married couple on the dance floor and it’s another song now, one she recognizes as Carter’s favorite. She remembers, Kara loves it too.“You were never able to resist Ed Sheeran.” She says and she does something foolish, she accepts the hand. She follows Kara and there’s a moment when she thinks the girl of steel is going to change her mind but then …Then she feels two strong arms encircle her and she’s breathing in that earthy perfume that clings to Kara’s skin and she thinks that it’s the way it should be. It’s the balance of life itself being restored as she pressed her forehead against Kara’s shoulder and there’s a sob caught in her throat and a smile tugging at her lips because she knows.She knows it’s only for one dance, she knows she should hate Ed Sheeran but when Kara holds her like this, she can’t think of anything else but how she’s missed it.“I missed it. I missed you.” She hears and the sadness in Kara’s voice is clear. They both know it’s only for one night and then, tomorrow, they’ll be apart again.Cat’s sob escape her lips and Kara holds her tighter.“I know.” She manages to say and she feels Kara nod.She feels something wet fall into her hair and they cry in silence as the words echo endlessly.Oh maybe we found love right where we areAnd we found love right where we are

[lost-your-memory]

Au Married supercat Kara is a NASCAR racer and se has a really bad crash. Angst it uppppp

Hi anon, I don’t know a thing about NASCAR so I hope this will do! It was fun to make up this little AU, thank you ♥Fair warning : angst with a major character death

Cat holds her breath as she watches the race take an unexpected turn.She’s standing in front of the huge bay window overlooking the whole circuit and she doesn’t keep her eyes off the cars speeding around the ring.The whole world fades away as she focuses on one car in particular.She doesn’t hear the muffled sound of the roaring engines anymore, the excited chatters of the other people surrounding her, the collected voice of the commentator explaining everything through the stereo system of the VIP lodge and even the happy babbling of her four years old son disappears. She wishes silence could take over but instead, all she hears is her own thoughts and the prayers she’s reciting in a never ending loop as she feels her heart tighten and tighten and tighten in her chest.Please, please, please …Suddenly, time stops for a while and only the cars are moving. They’re speeding but suspended in this immobile snapshot of life, they look like they’re moving through thick water, in some kind of weirdly inaccurate slow motion.Cat sees the one car she cares about jumps out of the ruck where it’s been trapped for the most part of the race. It’s a blue car, with stripes of red and a big yellow S painted on the roof, the doors and the hood and second after second, it seems to fly closer and closer to the first spot on the race.It happens so fast Cat barely has the time to register anything before all comes to an end.It’s her son’s joyful words that pulls her out of her stasis.“Mummyyyy, mommy woooon!” He yells, jumping around her with a big, big smile on his lips and stars shining in his baby blue eyes.She blinks and looks down at him before the words finally hit her. She can’t hold the sigh of pure relief that escapes her lips and then she smiles too, scooping her son up in her arms and spinning him around to make him laugh a little longer. It works and the sound finishes to ground her to the reality.“Come on Carter, let’s go congratulate mommy on her big win!” She says as she settles him against her hip and makes her way out of the VIP lodge.

—“Hi Cat, she’ll be here soon. Hi buddy!”Carter smiles widely at the woman holding her hand up for him to high-five her. He does it and then tries to reach for the brunette but she escapes him and laughs “No buddy I’m all dirty and I need to take care of your mommy, I’ll meet you after once I’m clean okay?”He looks a little dejected but he nods anyway.“Thanks Alex.” Cat says with a smile. The other woman just smiles back and walks away.“Where’s mommy?” Carter asks, looking around the garage as if he was sure to find who he was looking for. Cat was about to answer when the characteristic sound of a roaring engine startles them both. She frowns but Carter is already applauding with excitation at the flashy blue, red and yellow car making its entrance and coming to a stop right in the spot before them.“Mommyyyyy!” Carter calls happily, already trying to wriggle his way out of his mother’s arms to run toward the car. Cat knows better and holds him tight.The conductor door opens and a silhouette steps out of the car, wearing a NASCAR suits that matches the color of the speedster up to the big yellow S on their chest. The helmet is shining under the bright light of the garage’s spots and it’s entirely blue, same shade as the rest of the equipment.The driver reaches both hands up to take off their helmet and them, golden curls are cascading down broad shoulders and a megawatt smile appears on the woman’s lips.“Hiiii buddy! Did you watch me win?” She says as she throws the helmet inside of the car and walks up to them, already reaching for the little boy who’s leaning over her.“Yeeees, mommy wooon!” He says as he curls his arms around his mother’s neck and brushes his nose against her cheek. Then, he scrunches his face and frowns. “Mommy, you stink.” He protests and his mother gapes at him.Cat can’t help it but laugh before stepping closer to her little family.“Indeed Kara, you stink!” She says but she still moves closer to claim a kiss. It’s a little desperate and messy and when they break apart, Kara’s eyes are soft and tender and Cat feels her anxiety slowly eases away.“Close call today, Darling.” Cat whispers and she can’t help the accusation that lines her tone. Kara’s eyes sparkle with something fierce and proud but she doesn’t answer. Instead, she turns to face her son.“Alright buddy, how about this. I need to take a shower and then we can all go home, I think we have some ice-cream in the freezer, this calls for a celebration!” She asks and Carter is already clapping his little hands in anticipation.“Perfect, now go with your mummy and I’ll join you in the VIP lodge.” Kara ads and the hands the little boy to Cat. After a last lingering kiss, she’s back into her car and driving towards where her team is waiting to check the speedster.—“I know. I was trapped and there was no opening, I had to stay in the ruck for the most part of the race … I’m sorry I scared you.” Kara whispers softly.They’re curled up in bed together, naked and still a little breathless after their lovemaking session. Cat’s skin is glowing with sweat under the dim light of the moon coming through the open bay window on the farthest wall of the room and Kara’s hair is still damp around her forehead and the back of her neck.“I know I signed up for it when I married you but still I … I can’t lose you, Kara.” Cat answers back and she swallows thickly as she remembers how her heart was squeezed tight in her chest, at the prayers going on and on and on in her mind. It’s not the first time and it won’t be the last, she knows it but she’s so used to Kara being first in the line from the beginning of a race, she had no idea how to deal with this new situation.She shivers when Kara’s soft lips land on her naked shoulder and she closes her eyes. Kara shifts her weight next to her and then she’s being held tightly, so ever tightly. She swallows again and presses her back against her wife’s curves, fighting back the overwhelming emotions that threaten to make her cry.“I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Kara whispers and there’s a kiss landing on her glistening skin after each time she says it. She curls closer into Kara’s embrace and, emotionally exhausted, falls asleep between her wife’s strong arms.—“Mummyyyyyy!”She groans and goes to turn to find the other body in the bed but when she does, she only encounters the already cold sheets. She sighs and cracks an eye open to be faced with her son’s happy smile.“Hello Sweetheart. Where did your mommy go?” She asks as she moves to sit on the mattress. She grabs a t-shirt that belongs to Kara and puts it one before coming out of the bed, extending a hand for Carter to take it.“She’s outside, she made breakfaaaast! She’s on the phone with Maggie.” Carter happily tells her before dragging her out of the bedroom and towards the back of the house.She smiles and follows him.A few minutes later, she’s sitting at the table on the porch, enjoying her breakfast under the bright, warm morning sun and watching Kara paces on the grass as she talks animatedly with Maggie.“Mummy, is Alex coming over today?” Carter asks next to her, his mouth full of green grapes. She scowls at him and he swallows his mouthful before asking again, more clearly this time.“I don’t know Sweetheart, you’ll have to ask mommy when she’s finished with her phone call.” Cat answers with a smile and she hands a napkin to her son for him to wipe his chin.“Alright thank Maggie, see you this afternoon.” Kara says as she sits down at the table. She ends the call with a smile on her face, puts her phone away and pours herself a big glass of orange juice.“Alex and Maggie are coming over this afternoon, is that okay with you?” She asks Cat and Carter is already bouncing with impatience. Cat smiles and simply nods. She’s used to having her sister-in-law in the house by now.“What was the call about? It lasted quite some time.” Cat inquired with a curious look.Kara’s eyes lit up and she started rambling about Maggie having booked a spot for her in the upcoming street competition taking place in the desert behind National City. Cat frowns a little but Kara keeps rambling and rambling about it and it makes it hard for her to voice her concerns. She’s thinking about having a word with Maggie directly.“I know you don’t like this kind of competition and if you don’t want me to go, I won’t.” Kara says as she reaches for Cat hand, gently squeezing it. Cat stares at their hands, the golden of their wedding rings shining under the sunbeams. She wonders what she did to deserve someone like Kara, someone kind and gentle and so genuinely caring.“It’s okay Darling, as long as you promise me to be careful.” Cat forces the words out of her mouth but she’s already worried about that upcoming racing competition. She sighs and she’s about to says something when Kara’s phone rings again.Kara glances at it and picks up without missing a beat “Yes James? Ah, yes, she’s here. Hold on.”She hands the phone over the table with a smile “James says he’s trying to reach you, something about an issue with the CatCo feeds?” Cat frowns and takes the phone, standing up to go pace the porch to deal with the problem.“Alright buddy, how about we put on our swimming suits and go for a bath?” Kara says, turning to Carter with a mischievous smile on her lips.The happy laugh she gets is her answer.—“You didn’t have to come, I know you hate those kinds of competitions.” Kara says before she kisses Cat’s temple.Cat rolls her eyes and mutters “I haven’t missed one single competition since we started dating, I’m not about to start now.”“I love you.” Kara says and the love in her tone is thick, almost palpable. Almost concrete. Cat’s taken aback for a few seconds before she smiles and moves to claim a kiss. She deepens it right away and smiles smugly when Kara moans under her lips. They have to break away when Alex clears her throat near them.“Sorry to bother you, you lovebirds, but Kara needs to get ready.” The brunette says with a gleam in her eyes that says she’s happy for them.“Give me one more minute and I’ll be there.” Kara says and Alex nods before going away. Kara stares down into Cat’s eyes and smile again.“Be careful.” Cat says and she asks for one more kiss, before letting Kara go.—The race is exciting and intense and she gets why Kara loves it when it’s not very official, when it’s just them, the desert, an improvised ring and speed. So much speed.Cat relaxes in her seat next to Alex, a beer in her hand and her phone on her laps because Maggie is watching over Carter and she wants to be reachable if something happens.She’s talking with Alex about their plans for the holidays when Lucy, the other leader of Kara’s team of engineers and mechanics, barges in with a sweet smile and asks to talk to Alex. Cat watches them talk and she can tell, from the way they’re looking worried, that something is wrong.A collective gasp brings back her attention to the race and her heart stops altogether.—The car leaves the ring at full speed and Cat watches, powerless, as it goes to crash into a big rock a few miles away. It’s far enough from where she’s standing but she hears the sound of metal bending and cracking and then, flames come out of the windows, bright and high.It smells like smoke and ashes and there’s a scream caught in her throat because she’s too shocked to do anything.Her phone lands in the dust when she suddenly jerks up, already running towards the car because that can’t be it. She’s halfway there when two pairs of strong arms catch her and hold her back and it’s only then that she screams.It’s deafening and inhuman, raw despair covering the awful noise of flames eating away metal, leather, plastics and flesh and bones.She fights and fights and fights and her tears fall down to mix with the dust, joined by Alex’s and Lucy’s as they both try to keep her in place.She screams, she cries and she fights, until she stops.Kara promised her she would be careful.Kara promised her, she said she was sorry, she said she loved her.Kara lied.

[lost-your-memory]

Angst prompt (what else would I send???): one day you are going to turn and realize I have there through thick and thin but not today not tomorrow no more I'm done I can't deal with this bullshit anymore

It’s not exactly the words you suggested but I kept the whole idea. It’s short but I hope it will please you anyway ♥

Cat doesn’t look up when she hears the tell-tale sound of her office’s door brushing against the carpet.It’s a noise she’s never liked, because it’s usually paired with someone barging in her professional space to interrupt whatever work she’s trying to accomplish. She’s clawed her way up to the very top of her field, bringing her ever growing empire to a standard even herself would never had dreamed of and she didn’t do it by lazing around. This explained why she’s never liked the faint scraping of the glass against her soft floor.She doesn’t hear any footsteps but it’s not unusual, that’s the very reason she wanted carpet on her floor and not hardwood or anything else that would make the constant coming and going of people echoes between the wall of her sanctuary. That, and the fact she loves the way it feels underneath her bare feet when she kicks off her heels, late at night.“Miss Grant.”

The voice is so ever familiar, even though it sounds different and distant. There is no question held in those two little words she’s so used to hear and a voice in her head tells her it’s a little odd. She takes a second to breathe, deeply, before looking up.She’s meet with a pair of incredibly deep blue eyes that always make her think of the ocean, bright and infinite, sometimes stormy.A long, long time ago, there had been a whole galaxy caught in the flickers of those blue irises, with a sun, a moon and so many stars burning fiercely.Today, those eyes were clouded like a grey summer sky, heavy with something Cat chooses to ignore, for the time being.“Kara.”It’s funny, really. One might say it’s even hilarious, how much she loves that name. After years of mispronouncing it, she’s grew to love how it sounds and the way it comes from the back of her throat to be thrown in the air without ever touching her lips.She loves it but today, it tastes bittersweet.Kara looks stunning, in a pair of casual but a little ripped around the knees jeans and a deep blue hoodie that is a little too big for her, it’s floating around her silhouette. Cat notices the low-top Converses that match the sweater and if not for the way she was carrying herself and the cool expression of her features, Kara would easily be mistaken for a teenage girl.It’s a painful reality, one she’s starting to be aware more and more with every passing day.She must be staring a little because Kara shifts her weight from one foot to another. It jolts her away from her dark thoughts and she simply hums in acknowledgment. Of what, she doesn’t even know herself.“I won’t stay long, Alex is already waiting for me at the alien bar.”The words are so casual, it’s hard to believe there was a time when Cat didn’t know humans were not the only specie walking on Earth. Cat nods but doesn’t say anything, slowly swirling her pen around her fingers in a swift and sure movement. Carter showed her the move, a few months back, and she’s picked up on it rather quickly, finding that it eased a little bit of her stress.“I guess …” There’s a tremor in Kara’s voice but it’s gone when she finishes her sentence. “I just wanted to make sure we’re still on to go to Carter’s graduation, next week.”Cat sighs and then nods. “Of course, he’ll be delighted to have you there. Do you want me to pick you up before the ceremony?” She’s hoping and she shouldn’t, she knows it. Once upon a time, she had been brilliant at controlling her emotions but that was before the arrival of Kara Sunny Danvers in her life.“No. I’ll go there straight from the airport, I’ll be coming home from Romania.” The words aren’t meant to be cruel but they are still a blow and she catches herself before she can actually wince. Instead, she just arches a brow and asks “Romania? That’s a strange destination … Aren’t you supposed to follow the L-Corp debacle?”Kara narrows her eyes a little and her answer is short and blunt.“Snapper put someone else in charge of that,” Kara doesn’t elaborate but Cat gives her a pointed look anyway. Snapper didn’t do anything the young reporter didn’t ask for and they both know it. It’s useless of Kara to try to hide it and she should know it. After all, Cat is still the CEO of CatCo and she knows everything that is going on in her own company.“Right. So I am assuming you are going to cover the revolution, the one that threaten to destroy the country?” She sees the shadow of a smile tugs at Kara lips but it doesn’t even reach her eyes and she shrugs, not bothering with an answer.“Fine. Then I will see you there.” Cat says and the words are heavy in the air between them. It’s cold and yet, yet there’s something unusually warm. It’s not a goodbye but it surely tastes like it and Cat can’t bring herself to let Kara go.It must shows in her eyes because the next thing she sees is Kara taking a step forward, anger burning in her deep blue irises. She’s not neutral anymore and Cat sees the girl she fell in love with.She sees the passionate and intoxicatingly alive young woman with the weight of a dead world on her shoulders, the infinitely wise and caring alien who’s ready to give her life for this Earth she’s starting to call home. She sees the lover she’s held in her arms so many night, the partner she’s never dreamed of but that barged in her life at 10:15 one ordinary morning, the best friend she’s never had before and the hero National City doesn’t even deserve.Not that she did either.“Don’t get your hopes too high, Cat. The only reason I’m going is that I know how much Carter wants me there and I can’t break his heart, not like you broke mine.” The voice is low and loaded with accusation, anger, bitterness too. Cat doesn’t flinch but her heart bleeds inside. She meets Kara’s eyes and she realizes it’s far from over. She should brace herself for the full blast coming her way but she can’t. She’s vulnerable, in front of the woman she still loves too deeply for her own good.“I have been there, right here with you, through thick and thin but that ends today. You and I, we don’t have a tomorrow, we don’t have a happily ever after, we don’t have anything anymore.” Kara, sweet, sweet Kara, with the nervous stutter and the embarrassed rambles, sure knows how to use words as a weapon. Cat’s too shocked to even move. “I’ve tried. I’ve tried so hard and I thought we had it all but apparently, I was not enough.” Cat manages to swallow back that Kara has it backward. She feels like her whole soul is shattering, being shred into tiny shards of glass that wound her all the way through the heart. “You drove me away, Cat. You’re the only one to blame for what we’ve become and honestly, I can’t take it anymore. I can’t stand what we are now, whatever it is. I can’t deal with this bullshit anymore.”The curse echoes in the office and it’s deafening. It sounds like a gunshot and Cat feels it exactly like this. It’s a bullet to her already agonizing heart and she abdicates.She’s poison, she’s toxic and she knew it from the start, that she would drive this beautiful young woman away. She always does. Friends, husbands, a son even. She can’t seem to keep anyone close and she fears Carter is going to walk away too, one day.She has to let Kara go.It’s a deadly truth but after all, she’s famous for that, for seeking, digging and exposing the truth, no matter what. She nods and she manages a smile.She doesn’t even know how she does it but it’s there, soft, small and heavy with renunciation.“Then leave..” She whispers, softly enough so it’s barely audible but Supergirl hears it.The look in Kara’s eyes is full of hurt and anger, it’s broken.Cat sees the withdrawal settle and she feels her heart, her bleeding, weeping heart, stops.With a slight nod, Kara goes away and the last thing Cat hears, is the faint brushing of her door against the carpet.

[lost-your-memory]

Prompt Time: You live for angst so you can write angst will not stop you. Cat tells Kara she is leaving, Kara is about to admit her feelings when...(you chose the rest)

I’m not sure if it’s what you wanted and if it’s not, I’ll write a second part ♥

“I am leaving”

The words hoover, spin and swirl in the air between them, leaving an endless echo in her ears that drowns everything else away.

Gone, are the chatter of the employees in the room behind her, the ringing of the phones and sounds of printers on the floors below her feet, the purring of the cars driving down the street in front of the building, the faint whooshing of a plane taking off and the cries and laughs and voices of National City.

Those three little words suddenly stab between her ribs like a blade made of kryptonite. It’s a blow she doesn’t see coming and it tastes like betrayal and abandon and it’s all too familiar. It moves slowly but relentlessly until it reaches her heart and oh.

She bleeds.

She bleeds because the words are twisting their way into a wound that never truly healed. It’s heartless and merciless and it salvages everything.She’s bleeding emotions and it’s dripping from her like a wild mountain torrent.

She doesn’t even realize she’s sitting down on one of those comfortable sofas she often uses to listen to whatever Miss Grant is willing to teach her. The fabric under her fingers is rough and unfamiliar. Everything feels different now.

There are soft, gentle and kind green eyes watching her and she looks into them, unable to bring herself to say something. She finds some solace in the familiar gleam shining deep down in Miss Grant’s emerald eyes but it does little to calm her, even with the familiar voice speaking words she doesn’t even hear.She’s agonizing inside and she knows she can’t say anything.

Those feelings, bleeding through the open wound like blood would from a human injury, are forbidden and she knows it. She’s carrying them around for so long now, cowardly hiding behind the plausible and acceptable excuse of simply harboring a crush for her boss.After all, what’s not to like in such a brilliant, rich, attractive and powerful woman like Miss Grant. She knows for a fact that more than half of the employees of this company have a little crush on their boss and she gets it. She gets it and she sometimes wishes she could be like them.

But what’s she’s feeling is so much more than just a crush. It’s deep and authentic and pure and it goes beyond Love itself. She couldn’t even try to describe it, should someone ask. It’s not a feeling, it’s not an emotion, it just exists.She didn’t see it coming either. She woke up one morning, she went to work like she always did, Cat yelled something at her about the fashions spread and then suddenly, suddenly she understood what Winn once said to her. Ka-pow.

Cat Grant is leaving and she suddenly feels like the sun has been ripped from where it used to hang in the sky and it’s raining. Everything is Grey and dull and weakening.

“I need to dive.”

She doesn’t know if she wants to choke a bitter laugh or if she wants to cry her despair out at those words that were first directed at her, earlier in life. There’s a scream caught in her throat that she’s too afraid to set free and there are tears veiled up in her eyes she’s strong enough to contain. Barely, but it will have to do.

She takes a sharp intake of breath and she’s almost in awe at the fact she doesn’t cry. Instead, she whispers something that is the understatement of the century.

“Oh … Everything is changing so fast.”

She swallows and it’s hard because she still wants to scream and cry and yell at the same time. She wonders how long it’s going to take for her to finally break.

“I … I do not do well with changes.”

She grabs a cushion, mostly to do something but then her fingers dig into the soft fabric and she’s holding to it for dear life. She almost smiles at how pathetic this is. Her world is crumbling and dissolving into the unknown and she’s clutching to a cushion like a castaway to their lifebuoy.

She looks around and she takes in all the details of this office she knows by heart already.The top left screen with a few dead pixels in one corner. The bowl of m&ms atop the alcohol cabinet. The piles of books under the coffee table, of which she could list the titles by order of arrangement. The rug underneath her feet, where she once spilled a few drops of actual blood the day she lost her powers.She sighs and her lips wobble, she doesn’t even know how she manages to say the words.

“Gosh, Miss Grant … I … I can’t imagine being here without you.”

It’s as close of the truth she will ever get and she wants to curl into a ball and cry because it’s not even scratching the surface.

It gets worse when she looks at Miss Grant’s face only to see sadness swirls in those ever deep green eyes. For a moment, she thinks they are about to say all the things they can’t tell out loud but the moment passes and Cat’s voice almost breaks when she whispers one, single word.

“Kara.”

The wound in her heart bleeds and bleeds and bleeds and everything fade into pain. Her own name echoes in the air and sounds like a curse and she hates it.

Miss Grant’s features are soft and open and she’s never seen the woman so unguarded before. She doesn’t even want to know what that means because she’s leaving and Kara will be alone.

Again.

Suddenly, Cat’s close and Kara drowns in her perfume when her boss reaches a hand to play with a strand of her hair. Her heart stops altogether and she can’t breathe anymore.

“Oh, Kara. You … will rise to the occasion.”

The moment is gone and they both know it. There’s something tender in the way they both look at each other and Kara doesn’t want that. She doesn’t want to think it’s the last time she will see Cat. The scream in her throat burns and she’s about to give in so she does something even more stupid instead.

She rises and she puts her arms around Cat.

Oh, this is the biggest mistake of her life, she has no doubt about that but when Cat holds her tight, when she’s surrounded by the strong, spicy perfume and when blonde hair caresses her cheeks and neck, she simply reveals in it.

It’s soft but it’s strong and it’s desperate and they both know it. This is a goodbye and it tastes like ashes and ruins and salt.

Then, the usual Cat Grant is back with a stern but inspiring comment and Kara nods because she knows she can’t hold on to Cat forever.

She let her go.

[jestering1]

A Hit to the Heart

Summary: Kara's break up with Cat has left her in shambles, and she's trying desperately to piece her life back together. Link: http://archiveofourown.org/works/8210071?view_adult=true