Summary: N has many names: Cha Hakyeon is one of them, and the Most Scandalous Celebrity of the Year is another. The only thing left for him to redeem himself is the story of Lost Land and playing the role of “Kim Wonshik”—an autobiography by Ravi.
ao3 | AFF
Bedroom
He is supposed to arouse some sort of animal instinct within her. The smooth curve of her neck guides his hand that offers pressuring touch digging into her skin. She is unresponsive to his cold fingertips and his warm chest pinned underneath her, though she tries nibbling on his lips---she only tastes synthetic pin cushion. The bed sinks under the force of her. She pushes her tongue into his cavern as if this is the best solution, this is the way of life. She is convinced.
He responds passionately. His soft hands that are like innocent newborn’s tap on her bony back. He believes wholeheartedly that this is the life that he deserves to have. He latches his teeth onto her collarbone, marking his presence in this room with her, solidifying his good life. He should be with a woman. His own animal instinct is unleashed.
She, too, as if affected by his determination, starts believing him. Tentatively, she releases a low moan that encourages him to explore the unknown land.
In the end, she is a piece of land that he can cultivate and profit upon. Or a moving body that reminds him of his lover. “You don’t want to end up like him.”---his lover who lost everything because they know about them. Knowing is powerful. Knowing is destructive. He rather not know anything.
Holding a firm grip, he pushes her away.
She holds onto him so she will not fall into herself. Her eyes are accusing: Just when I give everything to you, you betray me.
He is a traitor to his lover, not her. She knows it too. They both pretend that they do not know. Ignorance is winning their game.
“I don’t love you.” She confesses quietly that night in utter darkness.
He bolts straight up. His eyes wide with panic. Apparently, she knows more about their game than he.
“But I have to be with you.”
They part their bodies. There is no point to continue this stupid game if their lies---the only thing that bind them together---are unravelled.
Hangang River
The night’s wind picks up at Hangang River and blows towards Leo. His dark eyes’ only lights are reflection of the buildings across the water. He stands by the railing and gazes at nothing. The cold, on the other hand, does nothing to freeze Leo’s features. His heart is already frozen at negative thirty degree celsius. The sewer smell of the river is like Sojin’s tears. He feels dirty to have her cry over their misfortunes. Leo cried too when they said their goodbye. It was a shame. They told each other. An universe wedged between them, yet, they felt closer to each other than ever before. Sojin told him for the first time: “Dad worried about me as I got older. I should have kids now at my age. My dad is all I have. If that woman didn’t leave him…” That “woman” was her mother. “I thought I was ready for marriage, but I don’t think I can live with another person for the rest of my life.” Leo did not know that she could cry so much.
“I thought I can marry a woman too,” said Leo. He despised the pity in Sojin’s look. That contemptuous look also questioned if Leo could commit to anyone in general. They wished each other good luck half-heartedly. Either of them believed in it.
At least Sojin won’t marry anyone like Leo, he still has a chance to score that broadcaster position. Leo stretches his mouth wide open and screams; no sounds comes out of his most desperate depth. He pulls out his phone to look for someone he can talk to without strangers turning heads at him because he howls at a river. He scrolls past names like Hakyeon, Ken, and Hyuk. They will wag their fingers at him. They are the good people who will tell him that he deserves his downfall. They will never empathize with him for what he does to have the things he desires. They never understand how far he pulled through. He fought against everything for his dream too like they did. No way he will turn back to that sheltered Taekwoon. He pauses at the name “Hongbin”. Hurriedly, he shoots him a text. He waits for the person who never knew him.
“Taekwoon.” Leo whips his head at his old forgotten name. Leo gave up the name Taekwoon because it was not trendy for the workforce. Hongbin smiles at him as if he likes the sound of it. Leo stops himself from correcting him.
I can't believe I spent 30min freaking out over Wontaek! I thought I was the only crazy one freaking out over nothing but then i found you and Starligtsgift tagging them and everyone too... T.T it's not even their best moment but they look so happy in that vid and Leo looks so girly and giggly and Wonshik is like no you're mine when he's moving closer to Hongbin... I need to find a new ship that doesn't have new interactions every other day and kill me.
I just want to tell you that your blog is probably the only blog I check everyday, and your OTP tags are way better than the tags on tumblr! I regret not knowing this place sooner. So please do think that your blog is important to be around for eternity. :)
really? *o* i’m happy that you find my tagging system good c: since i haven’t given it much thought when i first made the blog lmao. for instance why is hyuk “hy” and hongbin is “h” when it should be that hongbin is “hb” lol. idek.
keep me alive for eternity and i will be around until then lol ;D
thank you dear >u< i hope you stay around with me for another year ~
suzyelf replied to your post: Lub Glubs, tell me who your VIXX OTPs ...
WONTAEK! Leo doesn’t like skinship. But the fact that he can cling onto Ravi in an unfamiliar situation (ex. dream team)is so precious! They rely on each other(ex.spokeperson) they check out each other’s appearences. Leo checks out Ravbooty,etc
Wontaek is awesome! I love how they're so comfortable with each other :D
So once you get this you must share 5 random facts about your self then pass this on to your 10 favourite followers
MY Random Facts:
1. I prefer snail mail from friends than email (it makes the wait seem more exciting)
2. Aside from Kpop, I enjoy watching Markiplier horror play through games
3. Memorizing Korean songs are fun, although challenging
4. I can't surf even though I live in Hawaii D:
5. I want to travel more
BONUS:
I appreciate every single one of you guys, even if we don't talk or even the ones that weren't tagged in this post :3
suzyelf replied to your post:suzyelf replied to your post:Breathe in, breathe...
They are so down to earth and nice to the hoobaes and respectful to the sunbaes. sj feels more like shinwha. They won’t reunite like god since they will never break up lol.I’ll give shinwha another shot when they come back, since my friend was a fan
Well, yeah, that's what I meant. xD I don't see SJ breaking up. But it's just the brotherly bond between all of them that make me all warm and.....-can't get out words-
