Day 6: Pushing forward
So I worked out and I did not eat a lot of anything. I did felt tired and worked out more than I was planning. I feel that I need to push myself to get to where I want to be.
But I feel by doing that I am putting myself into some harm. I am scared of passing out or not eating enough food. I am sad that this is a possibility but it is. I am so scared but I know I won’t. However, it is still a scary thought that it could happen.
I fear that society wants me to be something that I am actually okay with. I feel that being fit is a healthy thing however, I feel that it a level of attraction that people feel towards a person. I feel that I want to be wanted but not achievable. I want people to want me but I want to really want my body.
Its a twisted game but hey that's life. Is it though?
