Always Ready For A Challenge

This is going to be a journey of how I changed my diet and my lifestyle to match the way I want to live my life...

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Guided Meditations

Here are four guided meditations you can use to help inspire your mindfulness practice and address your specific challenges.

Sometimes it is helpful to cut out thinking and sometimes it is helpful to talk back to your thinking. These meditations are examples of how to talk back to your thinking. They are written in a form inspired by Thich Nhat Hanh’s guided meditations. You can also write your own guided meditations to work on life issues where you would like to create change.

Meditation for Loneliness

Meditation for Jealousy

Meditation to Build Self-Esteem

Meditation for Anxiety

Meditation for Depression

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Day 1 of 364

So, I know I have not been posting in a while. I mean, I do not have that many people following this blog anyway. But it is okay. I failed my challenge for October. I blame it on Europe. Lol, just kidding. However, I am starting a 364-day change. Because yesterday was my birthday, oh man was it interesting.

Shit HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME.

Anywho, I am going to be pushing myself harder than have I have ever pushed my than I have in my life. When I started my first challenge, I thought it going to be easy. I thought I would finish it. But then life happened, and I wanted to drown away my sorrow. 

So here comes my challenge story. I was on Instagram last night, just looking around. I saw this story and the image was “MY RULES FOR SUCCESS” it was by @investingmentors and I loved it. However, some of the language used in the image did not meet me where I am at now. So I changed it to fit my lifestyle.

JAYMZ RULES FOR A SUCCESS LIFE 

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Happy

So I am happy. That is all I can say. Today was a chill day. I mean, I did not do much today but watch tv. But it has been a while since I could just sit back and watch tv and not work. I have been working for me to be happy. I am proud to be me and do things for myself. I love me. And I love the fact that I can see an opportunity and I can move past the bull and be true to myself.

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Day 11: Good workout a good morning

I am feeling amazing. I mean besides me struggling for money and trying to make everything stay afloat, I am good. Just one push at a time, I am still going strong on losing weight by October 16. Can not wait for that to happen. I am finding that I have a new motivation in my life and that is me. I am motivating myself to be the best version of myself so that I am happy and content with the life that I want to live. I love the fact that I have pushed forward and I continue to see new things that I love in the world. I am loving the idea that I am finally using my writing skills to motivate me. I don’t care that no one is viewing my blog. I know what I want out of my life, I just wish more people would too.

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Day 10: Love

So I worked out yesterday. I was so sweaty. I pushed myself in ways that I did not think it would have been possible. I am not really happy that I had pushed my happiness down. As a person who wants to better the world, I have not been bettering myself. 

I am changing and I am loving every moment of it.

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Day 9: Even though it is later than that!!!

So I haven’t been writing however, I have been eating less and doing some movement in my process of getting to where I want to be at. I am not saying that this process is easy, but I am not saying that it is hard either. I am just trying to push through it like everything else I tried in my life. 

I have been thinking about my future and what it will look like. I mean it seems so simple. To have it all, and still want more. But from here on out, I want it simple. I am tired of being broke. I am tired of being fat. I am tired of feeling like I have to please everyone else but myself. 

I just want people to stop treating me like I am some slave who is just property. I am tired of trying to be better than everyone else. Because I know at the end of the day that I am not better than anyone else. Shoot, I am just trying to be good enough for myself. 

So from here on out, I am going to just do the minimum. I feel that if I am focusing on myself, people will either follow me or they won’t. But I know for a fact that I am going to do for me. It sounds selfish but I feel that I need to be selfish.

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Update

Hello!  Hello! Hello! I am so excited to say I am continuing to follow my program. However, I have not been writing like I should be. But that's because I have been busy with work, school, and internship, also including my fiance and his nephew. So I am a busy person but I am pushing through it all.

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Day 8:

So yesterday was amazing. I did my hit but I did not finish the leg workout like I wanted to. However, I did get in a quality workout. I pushed myself more than I thought I would, and it felt phenomenal. I just wanted more of my legs. I am happy to say I lost a little weight but nothing too major. I am just telling myself to get moving forward.

As for me still feeling a little down about myself, I can report that it is decreasing a little. Like I feel myself not getting so moody all the time. I don't want to scream as much as I wanted to. Slowly but surely I want to be more organized. I feel myself getting the pieces of my life off the ground, and seeing a bright future for myself.

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Workout form yesterday.

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Day 7: Feeling good

So I know it has only been a week, but I am starting to feel good about myself. I am feeling stronger. My running style or should I say speed has decreased. But I am not letting that stop me know. I am going to keep pushing forward and making sure that I am getting to the end goal that I want. 

No one can push me the way  I want to be pushed. 

I feel by me working on my physical body, I am working on every other aspect of my life that I want to see a change in. I have been feeling down about almost everything in my life. My relationship has been suffering, work schedule has been suffering, lack of money, and I just feel at a loss for words. But I do know a change is going to come.

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Day 6: Pushing forward

So I worked out and I did not eat a lot of anything. I did felt tired and worked out more than I was planning. I feel that I need to push myself to get to where I want to be.

But I feel by doing that I am putting myself into some harm. I am scared of passing out or not eating enough food. I am sad that this is a possibility but it is. I am so scared but I know I won’t. However, it is still a scary thought that it could happen.

I fear that society wants me to be something that I am actually okay with. I feel that being fit is a healthy thing however, I feel that it a level of attraction that people feel towards a person. I feel that I want to be wanted but not achievable. I want people to want me but I want to really want my body.

Its a twisted game but hey that's life. Is it though?

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Protect Squad 😎✨ (season 2 was so good!!)

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One of my fave shows!!!

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My work out from yesterday!!!!

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You can’t jinx what was meant for you!

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Day 5:

Well, it was a great workout. I enjoyed working on my muscle strength and making sure I was hitting areas I haven’t hit before. It felt good to finally get my body feeling right. 

So for an update, I felt very good.